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Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Tuesday 23rd Dec 2003
Da TaiwanTank Rolls into Las Vegas and San Francisco!!!
Da Tank will be in Vegas from 23 till 24
Da Tank will be in San Francisco from 25 till 30. He will stay in the Holiday Inn At Fisherman's Wharf. Plz contact him if you are in the vacinity so we can join force and go havoc ok?!!?!?
Da Tank will then return back to Vegas for the remaining journey and come back to ann arbor on the 1st.
posted by David at 12/23/2003 06:07:00 AM
The finalz are finally over. so did the 600 day celebration away from home. no, i did not exactly get a huge dinner, i didnot get drunk, i did call my mom but she sounded so tired that i didn't want to make her feel worse. but i did cry. yeah... i am a pussy wuss. i still cry like a baby at some of the slightest thing out there. I cry like shit on friday. it is not fun away from home for so long. you dunnoe wat is going on. you feel uprooted. shit, even last time when i went from
Taiwan to singapore i at least go back once a year and my folks are with me. and now i am all by myself. this feeling is not good. not at all... i feel lonely. the worst kind of lonliness. the kind tat you feel even though you are always surrounded by people. it is not like i dun have ppl around me. the dudes are there. but i still feel lonely. i identify it as the worst possible kind of loneliness. it is like i locked up a part of me inside in a cell tat nobody can reach. it is crying out for help yet nobody seems to hear. it could be shouting to someone's ear, screaming at everyone and anyone passing by... but still no one seems to be able to do anything. ppl either dun notice, or they just look on and stood there, or they just dunnoe wat to do with it. the worst thing is even though it is locked up, it controls the emotions, the rest of the person. i am afraid that the longer that this part of me is being locked up, the more deform i will get. the more hysterical and edgy i will become. i will go for the extremes, or in chinese, pian ji 偏激, antisocial or wateva mentally illness there are. i have no idea why this is the case. coz nobody truly understand me? coz of the academic pressure? coz wat? homesick? i dunnoe. i feel lonely. really lonely...
ok... tat aside... coz tat is my own devil i have to fight, here is the update of wat has gone on after friday. Friday after 330... started packing after i got back from exam. shitty UofM housing. freaking chase all of us out... so went packed almost everything i have into two bags and a bagpack and a laundry basket and storm over to satchi's new DELUXE SINGLE. watched movie like siao in the meanwhile... and after move over,
Friday arnd 9... crossing over to arnd 3am SAT when LOTR 2 started...
went to epol's and watched Band of Brothers for first time. hmmm.... war movies always gets my attention. war sux... but hmm... dunnoe leh... guess it is a guy's stuff... but war is just totally awesome eh? hahahah... watched LOTR 2 also after band of brothers... until like 8 in the morning... it was crazy... but pretty awesome... eaton was empty... so we went to the lounge and watch it on the huge flat screen tv with epol's PS2... pretty awesome... and we ordered pizza to go with it... not too bad... the crazy thing is... we decided there nad then tat we are gonna watch LOTR 3 tat very same nite... siao... but nth surprising... finalz over liao... not suppose to think straight... so yeah... tix were bought and preparing to go movie at 630...
Sat 3pm...
went to TK Wu for brunch... since it was already 3 plus when we woke up from the LOTR2 thingy... make no sense rite?! yeah... it made no sense... feeling so freaking dead and vomitted like siao... nth makes sense and just wanna let lose... or havoc should i say? well anywae, went TK Wu with batcha, ivan and fooming and i had this mix vege... which er... ironically, when i came back to satchi's room, satchi whom did not join us for the meal, cooked almost exactly the same thing i just ate... and he did not pay 6 dollar like me for that meal... hmm... and i am suppose to be the econ major dude tat has the financial brain... sigh....
Sat 7 till 10 plus...
anywae... LOTR... hmm... ok lah... pretty awesome... but feeling pretty brain dead to really appreciate it fully. seriously... think it was pretty cool... but yeah... watched it for the sack of watching it and get the hell outta school to so call get a life... probably should have rested more so i could appreicate more... but oh well... can't give a flying F... oh... did realise tat too much male bonding in that film lah... and the ending drags like siao... so many times i tot it is gonna end oledi...then something comes up... i am just being picky... but think it is pretty nice lah... esp the war shots... tot it was pretty cool... but i was so fatigue that i dun get the adrenaline rush from watching it like i usually would... ok... so i guess it was 10 bucks wasted...
Sat after 10 plus...
detour to meijer's to change my blardy bball... hope it won't screw up again like the last one... and yeah... will train once i get back... so watch out world!!! went to danny's after tat... had a nice supper.... chill... but ain't exactly in the best of spirit... tired? fatigue? or jus plain sianz? i dunnoe... but felt like only my skin was laughing... but at least i was laughing... so thanx guys for taking me out...
Sunday AM... can't remember wat time...
i have no idea wat i did on sunday... no i was no drunk... no alcohol... hmmm... i remember waking up at around 3pm... went over to satchi's place to cook maggie mee to makan... and if i am not wrong... i rotted there with satchi watching his TV and wasted the day away... hmm... i think tat is more or less wat i did... oh and i fixed up wat would turn out to be a "HOT DATE" for monday...
Monday morning 2AM...
yeah.. it was 2AM.. i had gone to bed early at 10 hoping i could sleep early and thus wake up early coz i had to go pick up tien huei and take her to breakfast at angelo's... then Dear Mr Chong Fooming called me on my cell and totally woke me up... beautiful... i tired so hard to hypnotise myself to sleep and after tat phone call... tat was it... i can't go back... so i woke up, showered, and watched BOB on my comp... watched like for 3 hours till it is like 6 plus when i doze off to bed... guess wat... i turned GREEN when i least needed it... and i turned off the computer (which is my alarm clock...) to conserve electricity in the midst of my extreme exhaustion by then... so while i was suppose to wake up at 9 and pick up TH at 10, i overslept and she had to call me at 1030 and demanded where i was... sigh... luckily it was not a date... and i am not like after her or anything... phew... if not i would hang myself really... but anywae... rinsed my mouth, washed my face and i dashed all the way over to her place... took the short cut of all shortcuts from baits to rush over to the huron river bridge near mitchell field where she was waiting... thank god she very nice to me nowadays and did not go ballitic... but yeah... ran like siao after so long in tat kind of chilly morning air and almost bursted my tiny lungs... sigh... but anywae... went to angelo's ate a TON... farmer's omelette, blueberry pancake, french toast and rasin breads... felt like a pig but totally satisfied... anywae me and TH jalan jalan around ann arbor... since the weather was really nice by then... later found out from fooming tat the temp was like 7 deg man!!! WOO HOO!! so now you noe why i call it a HOT DATE!!! 7 deg C here in ann arbor in the middle of dec man... how funky can you get? but anywae, me and TH just walk around downtown, went to lotsa cool shops and just sat around and tok... it was pretty cool... guys like me dun hang around chic all tat much... which is sad... considering tat i am on the gaysuspicion list still... dammit... if i am on the list and presumably gay, why ain't girls flocking to me like bees to honey?! shit... but anywae... yeah it was a wonderful day, wonderful weather, wonderful companion... and a great way to set off to Las Vegas and San Francisco...
posted by David at 12/23/2003 06:02:00 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2003
ya noe wat is the meaning of sianz? wat abt burnt out? or wat abt the feeling of overstretched?
this is exactly wat i am feeling rite now. the mad dash started last monday to prepare for the econ 401 and poli sci 339 on tat friday of tat week. and had one on tuesday and now still staring at this 369 baby tomorrow from 130 to 330. very mentally stressful and demanding. sigh... is this call mentally weak or wat? ok, go ahead, shoot me, ain't got the energy to fight back.
i think i have been unknowingly been eating meat you noe. the indo mee last nite tasted really weird. i am not sure tat thing was onion or my msgfilled egg or wat. but somehow last nite i had this dream where i was sitting with some ppl (can't remember who) then they start scrutinising me on why i go vegetarian. and i mean scrutinise. and i end up screaming at them to shut up and leave me alone n all tat. hmmm... i think it is a sign. yeah... it is a sign!!
p.s. expect a post tomorrow which celebrates the 600th days i have been away from home!!! events will include a huge dinner at dunnoe where, possibly a get drunk session, movies, and definitely calling my mom n dad and a huge crying session when i lock myself up in the room. all are invited except the last two events of course!!!
posted by David at 12/18/2003 02:51:00 PM
Monday, December 15, 2003
Me: Oi Batcha, dun ya have to prepare for finalz this week? why do you have the Harry Potter book half way thru?
Batcha: Oh, tat is just for me to read before i go to bed. I read 3 page onli i start to sleep.
Me: MUAHAHAH, tat's a good idea!! then shouldn't you try to read your textbook instead?!
Batcha: Oh, if i read textbook then too fast oledi!! i read one page oledi i doze off oledi. and tat is WAY TOO FAST!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
tat's batcha for you man!!!!
posted by David at 12/15/2003 10:59:00 PM
oh yeah... amazingly, i actually got 8 and 7 for my two posts for my poli sci 369. was actually expecting 7 and 5 or something like tat... MUAHAHAH... my Prof is really nice in this sense i guess!! hahaha
posted by David at 12/15/2003 06:48:00 PM
ripped off from Julienne's AIM away msg... this girl is totally hilarious!!
Why girls are like finals:
-you'd rather get an easy one
-you get in a lot of trouble if you get caught cheating on one
-if you are drunk when you do one, it takes a lot longer to finish
-the less they have on them the better.
-they suck and/or blow.
-when you finish one, you have to immediately start preparing for the next one.
-if you have more than one scheduled at the same time, you have a problem.
-you have to put in a lot of effort for very little reward.
-nothing about them makes any fucking sense
-when you are done you get up and leave.
-good curves make for a more enjoyable experience
-it's easy to bullshit one
-they jsut lie there and you have to do all the work
posted by David at 12/15/2003 06:46:00 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2003
It is now 7.17 in the morning... haven't sleep since 10 the day before... shit... this is bad.. just did two posts nonestop for my poli sci 369... one post tat blasted US left right up down which definitely will make ppl throw shit at me... the other one is just plain shit by itself so i can't be bothered already... iam so dead... and i am still going to play bball with francis in 2 hours time...omg....
posted by David at 12/11/2003 07:18:00 AM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
the Fudge Factory (shit... i hope i am recalling its name correctly...) is special coz it has a open kitchen, and the crew, while making the fudge cakes, (correction to my previous post, bakery BAKES... you dun BAKE fudge cakes... at least not according to wat i observe at the shop there...) will sings, rap and perform. it was really quite a site. well, they dun have grammy winning voices lah of course, but it was just fun and hilarious seeing them performing while working... (think STOMP, but not so "instrumental" and more vocal based)
i bought the first neck tie of my life there in union station other than the sch ties... and the second one, and oso the third one... yesh... i bought THREE neckties in one swoop. dun ask how much they cost... not expensive at all if you look individually, but when you add 3 together.... ooops... but i think it is (er... i mean THEY are) gonna come in handy very soon...
expect random side notes to the full-of-hole account of jebai's narrative piece that is worse than a swiss cheese... MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 12/10/2003 11:24:00 AM
the name of the stadium is Busch stadium an ice hockey stadium which i can't really recall the team's name... the bakery is the the Fudge Factory... (dude... bakery bakes CAKE onli lah...)sells good fudge, but dun buy the peanut fudge cake... coz it is too soft and becomes a pile of brownish sticky oblong thingy which is just disgusting... the loop serves more than just the students unlike its south U counterpart here in ann arbor... it caters to regular city folks oso and has more pub and nicer shops than south U. it is also longer and just to let you get the idea, it has TWO thai/siamese restaurant. Union station use to have 16 operational railway tracks (if i recall correctly) during its prime days... and yeah... his name is teddy... teddy purnomo... i have no idea why indo names are so act cute one... MUAHAHHAAHHAHAAHHA... jk...
posted by David at 12/10/2003 11:13:00 AM
i stole this from jebai's site Sorry... he was the official trip historian/narrator/storyteller for the St. Louis trip... so he is in charge of giving the debrief... so go kill him and send him viruses for putting up this post so late. anywae, photos are up now at www.umich.edu/~yll for the trip. Enjoy folks. jebai would like to say a big sorry for the delay in this debrief. MUAHAHHHAHAHAHA... jk
St. Louis is a great city. It is not as large as New York or as dark as Detroit. The city is simply pleasant.
I stayed at Washington University, crashing in Teddy’s place for three or four days. Teddy was a great host and yeah, his name is really Teddy as in teddy bear.
Before I describe the city, I would like to say a few words about the structures in Washington University, better known as Wash U. Some of the buildings are new but the focus here is the old ones. In the middle of the University, there’s a huge field and the University’s buildings concentrated around this open space. The architecture of the old buildings is impressive – it’s sort of like University of Michigan own Law Quad - castle-like - though the feeling of being in Europe is essentially expanded throughout the whole academic campus. One particular work of art is the arch on the hill, facing a long avenue with trees on both side of the space. Again, it’s like Michigan Engineering Arch down in West Hall though the size is doubled or at most tripled.
In contrast, St. Louis has a modern skyline.
Typical of American cities, St. Louis uses the grid system instead of a centralized one to plan out its city. Thus, walking around the cities street is actually a pleasant experience. There weren’t many vehicles on the road though I must admit that I wandered around St. Louis a day after Thanksgiving. Therefore, my description about the traffic might be misleading.
St. Louis is located on the west bank of the Mississippi River, facing the state of Illinois of which is situated directly across the river. There’s a city called East St. Louis on the Illinois’ side though it is no as high profile as Missouri’s.
Traveling around the city is pretty easy. The city's satellites are connected to the downtown by a rail transit system. The rail transit is reliable. There’s also a bus system but I didn’t use it. However, judging from the frequency of the bus, I am sure it is efficient. The city is well connected by road. There are several long bridges crossing the Mississippi River. To sum it up, St. Louis has a pretty good transportation system. Important to note however, new visitors might want to avoid shitty cabs because they do charge more that usual. David and I experienced that first hand.
Like every main cities that I’ve visited so far, St. Louis has its own Union Station. Compared to New York, Chicago and Los Angeles, St. Louis has a rather unique structure for its Union Station. From my travels to New York, Chicago and Los Angeles, the Union Station has the reputation of being a grand old building with the primary function to serve the respective city’s transportation needs. St. Louis’ on the other hand is a recognizable metal structure. It’s almost like a huge warehouse or hangar minus the walls. It’s more like a really big gazebo.
From far, St. Louis’ Union Station looked like the city of Detroit – rusty and poorly lit. Inside however is rocking like it's 1999. About half or a quarter, of the Union Station is occupied by a shopping complex. The term shopping complex might be an exaggeration but the complex is full of shops selling various souvenirs. Also, there’s an interesting bakery. The bakery is unique because not only you could buy its tasteful product, entertainment is also provided.
Typical Union Stations like I said earlier is a grand old structure. Perhaps St. Louis’ had undergone renovation as inside, there’s the Hyatt Hotel. The hotel is adorned with impressive work of art. I was further informed by Teddy that St. Louis Union Station used to be the busiest railways station in the world.
And of course, St. Louis is famous for its Gateway Arch. The Arch itself stands normally aligned to the east-west line. It’s to symbolize the west as St. Louis is closely related to Lewis and Clack’s famous expedition to the west immediately after the Louisiana Purchase. The Mississippi is about 50 meters away from the Arch’s base.
Nearby, an old building is erected facing the Arch. A park is also present. The only disappointing thing about it is the fact that an ugly factory exists directly on the other side of the river.
The city itself is very open. Among the tall buildings, there is a sort of boulevard starting from the Arch and almost all the way across the city. The city prominent old public structure all aligned to face this boulevard.
Finally, the city skyline is pretty normal from the west. Nothing impressive but the Union Station and a stadium of which I can’t recall its name stands out. From the east, the Arch is the eye catcher.
The nightlife is somewhat happening. I gave a place called the Loop a visit and there were many people there even a few days after Thanksgiving. I would imagine the place is packed with people during normal weekends. The Loop however is not the city itself but rather, a hangout place for college students, much like Ann Arbor’s South U St.
For food, St. Louis does offer great choices. I ate dinner with some friends at a Siamese restaurant and damn the food is good. It also has teh tarik! Additionally, I was told that a must try in St. Louis is its root beer. I tasted it but unfortunately, there was nothing great about it though at the price it was sold, it was definitely a huge glass.
Anyway, I hope that wrap up my review of St. Louis. To cut things short, I would like St. Louis if I had grown up there. It’s not too big and it’s too small. It’s just nice for person who wants a quiet life without leaving civilization.
All photos will be made available once somebody get his ass to work. :)
And before I make love with my bed, I would like to say thank you to Teddy for a warm treatment in St. Louis, to Ray for thinking that I could speak Chinese and finally to David for giving me a choice to have fun in St. Louis or to rot in the overrated Annarbour (pardon for the spelling. AAIO has a bad influence on me).
posted by David at 12/10/2003 10:58:00 AM
Monday, December 08, 2003
won't be going LA with armhawan as planned after all... kinda sad... hmm... ok.. really sad... planned for this for so long and it can't work out last minute. sigh... his mom loves him too much and armhawan is just too nice a son to learn how to say no also. sigh... can't be helped. but i wonder when i will get to see tat dude ever again... SIGH!!!
So Michigan's Rose bowl game is gonna be more than wat it is gonna be!!! USC became the no. rank team in the nation but darn computers dun allow them to play in sugar, so they end up playing in Rose bowl. so since the number one team is playing in rose bowl, then DUH DUH DUH, the rose bowl becomes the title championship game rite?!?! obviously it is something computers has yet to understand. but well... won't be going to see the game coz LA is not part of the cali trip plan oledi. and i will be celebrating new year in the las vegas airport also. how fun... no, i am not some hard core i-must-celebrate-newyear tat kind of person. i just want to party tat's all. and new year party is definitely one of the fun ones around rite!? well... double sigh... yet another good reason for me to blame arhawan for my misery. hahahah... jk
final is this friday oledi and my review pace is totally like shit. so far onli redo my midterm one's 2 papers and have no even restudy those slutsky and hicks crap. i am so freaking dead for 401. and i need to pick up my pace for china oso. the silly, environment and econ reform part is too shaky for my likings... lotsa work awaits.
tried to contact some dickfaces back home over the weekend but all of them had their hp shut. blardy chunyi, ah meng, kianping and mike kwan you idiots better get in touch and write me mails you shit ass. or i will very soon shaft your silly faces down the toilet bowls where they really belong!!! haha... jk... (or maybe i am not?! MUAHAH)
posted by David at 12/08/2003 04:07:00 PM
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
i am trying to cut down on the vulgarities i am using. Teddy said tat i seems to be using less of them now... which is kinda surprising. MUAHAH... should make more attempts to eliminate it.
the december cali trip is still dangling there. still awaits final words from armhawan and i am really praying hard for him to give me some positive replies. preparations of the finalz has begun last nite and is going pretty good. need to build up my confidence level or nothing will be achieved. should be more confident of the work i have done so i dun keep repeating them even after i am done with reviewing thru them and waste those times tat i could have used for other subjects like econ 401. will go on a ten day mega powerplay for econ and china and should make sure things get on track as much as they should. gambatte!!
oh, in case you guys still dunnoe, i am unplugged from the internet access from my dorm room. so i won't be able to chat online for the forseeable future. Thank you!!
posted by David at 12/03/2003 05:53:00 PM
understand wat tat cheena post below means? the essence is the last italised para. it mean, preassumptions usually affects a person's decision makings and behaviors. Oberve more and dwell more and you usually will have more unexpected discoveries.
i am always lamenting about this. but ppl nowadays are just so goddamn too busy too spend more time into figuring who a person is really like. i am definitely guilty of this crime on occasions. but then again, i try to really noe a person and find out as much as i can by myself. i think it is just sad. really sad that ppl usually got labelled thru their repu and some casual observations. hmm... maybe i am feeling so strongly of this coz i am usually the victim of such evil acts. haha...
dun say you noe me, coz you dun
dun pretend tat you noe me, coz there is no need to
dun tell me you understand, coz it is alrite that you dun
dun fake and extend superficial helps coz it onli makes me feel worse
it is ok to just leave me alone. i will be better off that way,
than receiving half-hearted helps which you dun really want to extend.
just leave me alone, it is my problem after all, thank you!!
posted by David at 12/03/2003 05:48:00 PM
在那個貧困的年代裡，很多同學往往連帶個像樣的便當到學校上課的能力都沒有，我鄰座的同學就是如此。
他的飯菜永遠是黑黑的豆豉，我的便當卻經常裝著火腿和荷包蛋，兩者有著天壤之別。
而且這個同學，每次都會先從便當裡撿出頭髮之後，再若無其事地吃他的便當。這個令人渾身不舒服的發現一直持續著。
「可見他媽媽有多邋遢，竟然每天飯裡都有頭髮。」同學們私底下議論著。為了顧及同學自尊，又不能表現出來，總覺得好骯髒，因此對這同學的印象，也開始大打折扣。
有一天學校放學之後，那同學叫住了我：「如果沒什麼事就去我家玩吧。」雖然心中不太願意，不過自從同班以來，他第一次開口邀請我到家裡玩，所以我不好意思拒絕他。
隨朋友來到了位於漢城最陡峭地形的某個貧民村。
「媽，我帶朋友來了。」聽到同學興奮的聲音之後，房門打開了。他年邁的母親出現在門口。「我兒子的朋友來啦，讓我看看。」
但是走出房門的同學母親，只是用手摸著房門外的樑柱。
原來她是雙眼失明的盲人。我感覺到一陣鼻酸，一句話都說不出來。
同學的便當菜雖然每天如常都是豆豉，卻是眼睛看不到的母親，小心翼翼幫他裝的便當，那不只是一頓午餐，更是母親滿滿的愛心，甚至連摻雜在裡面的頭髮，也一樣是母親的愛。
便當裡的頭髮
先入為主的觀念
往往影響人一生的格局，
多觀察、多探討
會有更多意外的發現。
posted by David at 12/03/2003 05:03:00 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Look wat email i have just received... how ironic and fun i am having nowadays with my computer!!! WHEE!!!
* * * PLEASE REPLY TO ALL * * *
It has come to our attention that your machine is infected with a virus or trojan. This code is able to replicate across the network independently of your actions, and needs to be addressed immediately.
Because of this infection, I have deactivated your network connection. This preventative measure is in accordance with the Conditions of Use that you consented to while registering your machine with the ResComp Ethernet program:
http://rescomp.umich.edu/Residential.Ethernet/NetGuide/Registration/Conditions.of.Use.php
I have included the University of Michigan's VirusBusters team (www.umich.edu/~virus-busters), on this message. Contact them at virus.busters@umich.edu - you will need to work together to disinfect your system. Their anti-virus services (virus removal and prevention) are free to UM users.
Once they certify your computer is clean, we'll re-enable your network connection. Be advised - they are busy, and deal with customers on a first-come, first-served basis. Depending on their workload, there may be a delay after the first contact.
Another option is to reformat your computer and start from scratch. If you do not follow their instructions(or reformat), you will not be allowed back on the network. They cannot reactivate your connection; they can only verify that your machine is sanitized.
Note: the VirusBusters group is very busy right now. They've given the following suggestions:
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[Last modified 30 October 2003]
DISCLAIMER: The U-M Antivirus Team supports the entire University; we are
not part of Housing. We can neither disconnect nor reconnect; our task is
to assist you and, once you are fully protected, to recommend to ResNet
that you be reconnected. We process cases in the order they are opened;
we process them all as quickly as we can. But since we are have fewer
than two staff member equivalents and we support all of U-M, please
understand that we may have hundreds of cases open at any one time.
There is no preferential treatment other than for the time the issue is
initiated: no benefit for faculty or staff over students, or vice versa.
Rest assured that we'll help you absolutely as soon as we can, and make
every effort to recommend reconnection as soon as it is safe for you and
the network.
Understood? If not, please reread the disclaimer; otherwise, let's
move on:
Please reply directly to the messages ResNet or members of the
antivirus team send you, so that we have all the information about your
situation. I'm dealing with many many of these at once. It's a good idea
to include virus.busters@umich.edu and resnet@umich.edu in your replies,
so that your case may be processed more quickly.
Also, please follow the instructions carefully and exactly. I know
that should be obvious, but you'd be surprised how many times we have to
ask for more info. The more back-and forth we have, the longer it is for
you -- and everyone who gets afflicted after you -- to get back on-line.
There are three phases: First, you use the Stinger tool to remove a
few particularly nasty viruses, if any. Then you fix some critical
Windows vulnerabilities. Finally (we hope!), you install VirusScan so
that your computer is protected, and then you send the reports of all
these phases to us for analysis. Details follow.
When your machine is clear to be reconnected, we'll alert the ResNet
folks, who do the actual connecting and disconnecting (remember: we're not
Res Hall staff; we support antivirus for the entire University). If at
that time I forget to send you procedures that go beyond the protection
that antivirus software provides, please remind me, and I'll send them to
you as quickly as I can.
Ok, now on to the detailed instructions; you may find it helpful to
print them first so that you can check things off as you do them. It
is important that you do them in the order specified:
1. Run Stinger on your machine
First, be sure to disable System Restore if you use WinXP
or WinME. If you need help with System Restore, phone 4-HELP or
has
information.
[After Stinger runs, you may re-enable System Restore, or not. I
prefer to leave it off; some of my colleagues prefer to re-enable.]
Browse to and
follow the directions there for for using Stinger. In brief:
Download Stinger to your Desktop, then double-click on the
downloaded application. Then, when the scan is finished, use
File/Save report, which will save a file named STINGER.TXT in the
same folder as Stinger itself. [I recommend booting in Safe Mode
before running Stinger, but usually that is not necessary.
** We keep a copy of the most recent Stinger at
** -- you can
** access this from the Housing network, even when you are
** "disconnected". We recommend that you get Stinger here.
Note: it's httpS, not just http.
2. Install the patches from the U-M Security CD, which you can borrow
from your front desk. If you browse from a computer connected to
the 'Net, has more info, as
does the readme document available through the CD's menu.
If you use Windows NT 4, you'll have to apply the patches
manually.
tells you what you need to know.
[Stinger is on this CD, but it is an obsolete version. Please
use the one on Neutralzone instead.]
3. Install the most recent version of VirusScan, available from
even when your
machine is disconnected form the network.
DO NOT USE Blue Discs! The virus definitions are too old,
and we'll end up sending you back to do it again. [When the U-M
Preconfigured VirusScan Installer starts, it should say that it
was created 26 August, 2003. If it doesn't, you have the wrong
version.
DO NOT USE the version from the Virus Busters web site: it isn't
configured for the Res Halls. More important, the versions on
Neutralzone are able to update their virus definitions to the
most recent version, even when you are "disconnected."
If you have Windows NT 4, 2000, XP, or 2003 Server, you must use
VirusScan 7.0. If you use Windows 9x or ME, you must use
VirusScan 4.5.1: VirusScan 7 works only on NT-class machines.
Be sure to use the proper VirusScan installer.
4. When VirusScan is finished installing and you have rebooted your
computer, please email the following to virus.busters@umich.edu --
and you may want to send a Cc: to resnet@umich.edu as well:
a. the STINGER.TXT file (or a *detailed* summary of what it said, if
you didn't save the log)
b. A relatively verbose report of what you did with the U-M
Security CD. A sentence or two describing what you did should
suffice.
c. the VirusScan "post install" log file. For VirusScan 7, that's
vs70pi.txt; for VirusScan 4.5.1, it's vs451pi.txt Use
Start/Search or Start/Find, respectively, to find this file.
Email STINGER.TXT and the post install log file directly, or put the
files on a diskette and send them from another machine. Attach the
files or copy and paste them onto your email. And don't forget to
include a brief description of what you did with the U-M Security
CD.
That will, with any luck, tell us whether you're ready to be
reconnected, or if more drastic steps are required.
-BPB
-----------------
Mr. Eldred Pickett
Network Administrator - HITO
University of Michigan
posted by David at 12/02/2003 05:41:00 PM
Ok... back in ann arbor for awhile oledi. probably should have blogged in more detail about my St Louis trip but my computer is severely screwed and i just can't use it the way i want it. So let me just start to give a detail history account of my computer.
it was bought by my dad in taiwan in early 2002. thus, it operates on chinese traditional ME and runs on PIII-850. It was given to me and brought over to US thru markadamang when i was desperately trying to get a computer that can hook me up onto internet using the ethernet of the UofM. the option of buying a LAN card is out otta the window coz my PCMCIA drive of my old laptop is consider to be broken just like the rest of tat poor baby.
after installing XP onto that baby. i found to my horror tat it can onli run at the speed of 300MHZ coz the engine was designed for ME and not XP. but i am use to 300mhz speed oledi so it was perfectly alrite. and it was all these while other than the fact that i can't send out files thru icq and msn coz it take foreva (but it is just coz the config was not suitable for the stupid westquad server coz the same config was perfect when i moved into baits this september).
the freaking problem started when i try to use the virus buster disk provided by the UofM to fight the WORM. guess i should have trusted myself and my computer more. i have been regularly updating my system and scanning it for virus to keep it safe and stable. but i just can't resist the temptation of giving my baby the MOST protection it need. so i decide to use TAT freaking disk and it totally wrecked my computer. after using tat disk which declare tat my computer is totally safe from all tat crap... it now takes FOREVER to boot up. so from the time i press the power ON button to the time it reaches the WELCOME to winXP tat screen, it takes around 30 minutes 3 out of 5 times i boot up. and it just plain sux. it is running like a 386 goddamit. and i just can't freaking stand it. this is not how my baby should be behaving and i am just plain sick and frustrated as i can ever be.
then came the gurus. ppl started bombarding me and nagging at me at the wonder of how reformatting my drive is gonna help. nag nag nag. ok fine, maybe they have their good intentions. i mean so many ppl are just flooding me with that SAME FREAKING sentence on either MSN, ICQ or AIM "please go format your drive lah mister, you will thank me for keep telling you to do this after it is done..." oh man... you noe how troublesome it is to do this crap shit when you dun have a CD burner? yeah, sure, can of course send to ppl and ask ppl to burn for you, but when you are asking ppl to do it for you, it means you can't do it the way you want it to be. you need to work on THEIR time and everything. it is just frustrating. but behaving just the way a nice guy would. i just keep telling these ppl that i am working on it even though i fucking hate it when ppl keep trying to tell me what to do and keep nagging and nagging and naggin. it sux... really sux.
but then again, i am really running out of patience both on my computer and on these ppl's advices. (ok... won't call it nagging anymore coz it is just plain rude. i assume they are saying it for the best of my interest and i should not be so mean and ungrateful for their assistance.) i decide to reformat. i took a more active stance and i got all the stuff i needed to reformat my drive. remember, every step tat i take to do requires about 1 or 2 hour for my computer to process it so here we go on the operations i let my poor baby went thru.
when i first install my XP, it was under FAT32. which was the same system the ME was installed under. under the advice of ppl, i decide to install the XP this time round under NTFS. which later proved to be a bad choice. coz later i realised that my computer did not format my drive at all, and merely installed XP under NTFS environment and under a new user name while the old portion of the HD is still there and i can't access those files oledi. this is bad. really bad. coz now i have onli like 2 GB of my total HD space to work with. so i decide to do more to it.
i figured after hours and hours of trying to enable myself to boot from my disk instead of HD. after tat is done, i decide to cancel the partition which i use to have and combine the HD into one lump 20GB space. so tat means i have to unpartition everything and make the HD into a raw space. ok... this is yet another mess i created unknowingly about is probably unavoidable coz by doing this, it wiped out ALL the disk information there is on the HD and when i try to reformat my HD using the XP cd, it says tat my HD is corrupted and not online and tat information required is gone. so, i try to repeat the reformatting process about 3 more times before sitting down and plan a new strategy to it.
i brought out all the disks tat was given to me with the laptop from my dad. it includes a driver CD, rescue CD for ME and a certain ASUSDVD2002 which i have no idea wat it is all about. ok. so now the plan is to redo everything from the very beginning. i will install ME and put the computer back to the way it was when it first came to me and i will install XP from there. sounds brilliant rite?! the Taiwantank once again puts its brilliant and ingenius problem solving ability to good use and to tell the truth, i am still at this pt in time very proud of wat i did and it COULD have worked just the way i wanted it to if not for this blardy thing call the CD KEY. yesh... brilliang beautiful. after taking like 2 hours to do a recovery work, it enteres a setup menu of ME asking me to key in username, screen resolution preference and of course, the 25 digit product CD key. er... and where is tat suppose to be? no, i do not have CD KEY and in an act of ultra desperation, i made a call to ASUS in taiwan to ask where the hell i am suppose to find tat baby coz the phonenumber for ASUS in USA given with the rest of the userkit is no longer in service. and after an hour of so, the conclusion i received from this non-english speaker in the english assistance department (who REFUSE to speak english with me even though he can't freaking speak english properly and he can't freaking understand me despite me speaking REALLY slowly and chew on all my words in my best ang mo accent which even my mom would have been proud to hear me tok tat way...) the conclusion was tat i do not need a CD key. and WOW... how brilliant is tat answer? but yet i am staring at the beautiful screen tat tells me tat i need to use a CD key and i have no other option to sidestep or get past it other than giving it tat 25 numbers which i was reassured that i do not need. hmm... fun fun fun... so ok... i key in rubbish and it says it was wrong and my computer got shut down by itself. i did it twice and got the same response the same number of times. beautiful.
so the tank sat there, smashed those useless manuals around in the room and chew madly at my ramen and came up with yet another brilliant strategy. which was YET again VERY brilliant but still failed to work due to yet another small tiny problem. ok... here is how it is suppose to work. since i can't fully install my ME, at least it is installed. so i shall force my way thru and continue with my plan. so i boot up again thru my cdrom with my xp cd inside and from the option. i brilliantly chose to FIRST convert the FAT32 system to NTFS first!!! this is really brilliant to avoid wat happened in the very beginning and obviously i remembered all the lessons i have learned, except for one. i must have grown so used to my computer being so goddamn slow that i forgot it is still running like 386 and tat it could crash ANYTIME. and just as fate would have it, after the convertion and installing XP under the NTFS environement (all these while, the taiwantank is just filled with joy and self pride at his achievement in defeating the machine after such long struggle and at the bright and successful future tat Agent Smith would call as INEVITABLE.) the computer came to the start of XP, with all its fancy music intro (which was lagging big time but was something the tank did not take heart to coz he was happily bouncing around in his room and throwing confetti around n such and cooking for himself yet another bowl of ramen to celebrate!!) and then went into the system setup page. well, this is where it hangs. it frozes. it went dead. IT WON'T FUCKING RESPOND!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... the tank was going totally insane and berseck at this pt in time. the ramen noodle was ready and it never tasted so disgusting. the tank has yet again been defeated by the blardy machine and this time round the defeat felt extra painful coz victory was brutally stolen away rite under the tank's nose. it sux... really sux and the tank was close to tears... the tank at this pt in time was totally pissed and angry with the horrible machine and is just really really really really pissed. and i mean pissed.
but he amazingly pressed on. ok... i am trying to make all these things sound really light hearted and fun to read... but i am just suffering from internal injury really bad. i am ready to blow my top off but on wat? on the stupid laptop tat just won't respond? or on those ppl tat only tried to help? but the tank is just pissed and internal bleeding like shit. and i mean really really shit. i have exhausted all options. i have tried all combinations and way of using watever resources i have on my hands and still it won't work and still the computer is running so slow. but yesh, i pressed on and restart my computer again. ok... and it did not go back to the unfinished set up page. and so my name is the administrator. the system is still totally unconfig and i had to manually config those things and bear with the super slow speed tat i am just too goddamn frustrated with to bother and scream now. i just sat there like a dejected asshole and amazingly still trying to think of ways to salvage the situation. oh, and brilliantly, kelvin msged me asking me to bring my computer to epol to get it done and get his help coz epol would noe how to do it better. ok... epol is not gonna be of any help coz he will be working on this issue with as much resources as i had. and i have genuinely tried all methods of solving and approaching this issue tat one could possibly do with the amount of resouces i have on hand and no to mention also that i dun wanna drag epol into these frustrating one hour super slow cycles. and yesh... i was gay close to making kelvin the sorry scapegoat of all my misery thus far and i guess i was sensible enuff not to kill him (coz tat would dirty my hands will all his alcohol filled blood and all tat alcohol will be just too cold for me in this kind of cold freezing weather... heehee) and just told him not to mention any more on the computer issue. but of course this buddy here dun understand the intensity of things and keep pressing on the issue and i had to diver his attention to the bball game later today to make him stop tokking about it. i pray for his life tat he dun mention and keep pressing on this issue when we meet later today. it is not gonna be pretty and will be pushing my level of tolerance and patience to new great level. *take deep breathe*
do rite now, my computer is still running super slow and may not work any time (coz during one of my bootup sessions, it says that it cannot detect my HD and cannot move on...) and i have done watever i can to salvage the situation. so wat is the future plan? rite now i am really have enough with this thing oledi. so with exam coming up, i will be spending more time in media union and library to study anywae and away from the computer/room to prevent reignition of my flame of anger as much as i can. and after my finals, since the internet connection will be gone anywae, i will send it to have it serviced to check on my HD, my ram and my processor. coz there is no way tat the problem can be fixed thru reformatting and tackling it from the software's method. the problem is with the hardware and its basic programmings. i may not be a computer genius, but after struggling and fighting with this issue for so long, this is as much as i have realised. yesh. and i have done as much as i can to give a detail account of my frustration thus far and the misery tat i went thru. if reading all these is bad enough, imagine having to live thru it and stare at the blardy monitor all these whiles. it is not fun and i am just numb and trying really hard to shut these outta my system. and yesh. tat is the official stance i have on this issue and pls stop bugging me for both my and more importantly YOUR dear life and mentally wellbeing. coz i have had just about enuff. if you wanna do more to this issue, you are more than welcome to take my laptop home and work on it and not bugging me and telling me wat i should do. coz i ahve done all i could to do it and i am not willing to spend any extra energy on it. yesh... thank you for your kind patience to read thusfar and your generous understanding. xie xie.
posted by David at 12/02/2003 02:17:00 PM
Friday, November 28, 2003
oh man... it is now 2.44 St louis time, which is like 344 ann arbor time and i am still awake and trying to do a post for 369. am i hard working or am i just stupid? ARGH... can't think of anything to write laaaaaah. so stupid. i cannot access the online course reserves to access those assigned readings so there is no way i can like do a rebuttal base on what is written in the readings and MY way of interpreting them using the world i see it. which is wat i have been doing. argh, crappy St Louis and UofM linkage. supposedly onli those with UofM ip address can access... which make no sense... wat abt those using comcast? dammit... this is lotsa BS. going to the gateway arch tomorrow at 9 some more. this really sux bad.
hmm... i think she is reading my blog. and tat's all there is to it.
posted by David at 11/28/2003 03:48:00 AM
Hey yoz... i am in St Louis now with my TEDDY!!! hahah... it's been an eye opener really. the sch is really different from UofM... DUH... got good and bad lah... but let's just say that i think ann arbor still rockz!!! though many ppl out there would beg to differ (look over shoulder to see jebai... heehee).
the dorm is really nice and new. no narrow short ass corridor like we have in michigan. it is like east quad i think? but onli better. some of these dorms are onli built in 1998!!! and they are gonna tear down this OLD dorm which is like 30 yr old? and build on new one soon. WOW... but i realise that the incoming freshie is onli 1600... which make the entire campus student population about 8000 maybe?! tat is just insane... tat is like the amt of freshie we get in a single year. so you probably would imagine this place to be really small. but no so!!! the academic area is as big as central campus or even larger and i would say it is nicer!! think law quad style and spread it across the whole campus!!! yesh... excessive use of !!! but wat can i say? i am just impressed and impressed. MUAHAH... well, the weather here is really nice oso. was weather a tshirt with a Wash U (hmm... think the sch need a new short form leh... Wash U? wat abt a back scrub to go with it!?!?) sweatshirt tat Teddy bought for me. MUAHAH... yup, the weather is really nice. heehee!!!
yeah, and coz the freshie grp is so small, every one noes one another, which is nice in a way but just not impossible to be done in UofM. but i guess tat really bond eh? hmm... so tat is one thing.
one thing tat REALLY fascinates me the MOST and i really realll like about Back Scrub, er... no i mean Wash Me... nonono... U not Me... (okie... lame...) is tat all classes in the sch is taught by faculty members. no GSI (or TA as they call it here). discussion, lecture and everything all done by Prof. which is really something amazing. faculty to student ration is like 1 to 7. imagine how fantastic this is!! awesome i say!!! but yeah... it is a small school and you can get this kind of things to happen. but hmm... nice rite nice rite!?!?!
okie.. the bad things. if you think (you, not me hor) ann arbor is boring, this place would be hell for you. there is no South U or shops around this place. and i mean none. forget abt the "horrible" briarwood coz the nearest mall is 1 hr drive away. and you have to drive there, coz there ain't no bus and you gotta get thru a highway so no bikes sorry. bunch of cafes selling coffee and munchies and tat's abt it. things are way overpriced here coz the sch sells everything. the onli have two fast food here, Taco and Subway, but one closes at 5 and the other at 8. hmm... bs rite?! the onli late nite ones are the cafes. and yeah, the nearest nearest form of makan and grocery place is call the loop and it is 25 minute walk away. errrrrrr... 25 minute walk in snow during winter? I THINK NOT!!! so no lousy nactos, no lousy brown jug, no lousy wendys. MUAHAHAH... man i feel even more lucky now!!!
i probably should blog abt my journey here oso rite?! tat would come later when i am in the mood or something like tat. but yeah. i am still alive and enjoying meeting up with Teddy again. armhawan, you dun freaking disappoint me ok!?!?! you better travel around cali with me dude. and yeah, can you pls pick up the phone wheneva i call you or at least have the courtesy of calling back when you see those miss calls? argh.. *slap*
posted by David at 11/28/2003 01:15:00 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Less than 30 min to go before the bus ride. Can't hardly contain my excitement. hmm... understandable right? but imaging how i will be feeling when i am about to go back home after all these is done? wonder...
Brought some readings with me to keep me from always sleeping thruout the busride. think it is better to spend time this way.
Just realised tat i have the most screw up finalz schedule in the world. Two exams on the very first day of the exam. three days later one more. then have to wait another 4 days to take the lastpaper on the final day of the paper and immediately get chase out of my dorm. wonderful...
sorry bunch of random thoughts. can't blame me. blame teddy lah of course... dun wanna apply to michigan tat bear... MUAHAH... if he come here then i dun have to travel all the way there to see him right... aiseh... all his fault. MUAHAH!!!
ok... pray tat i have a safe journey. a comfy one. a happy one and a memoriable one.
Happy Thanxgiving and hope you guys have fun!!!
posted by David at 11/26/2003 06:48:00 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
In less than 24 hours, i will be on my way to St Louis Missouri to see my pal Teddy. Absence makes the heart grows fonder. hmm.. ok... shuddup your fags out there. sorry to disappoint but you will never get someone as high standard as me. MUAHAHAH... kk.. i am just really happy about this thingy. jebai will be coming oso. i tot he is gonna be like epol and tell me no money after their extravagant trip to Yosemite and Cali this summer, but i guess the chance of going to St Louis to just to irresistable to pass out on eh? good job dude!!! you didn't let me down!! but no lah... dun go also dun mean let me down lah. but i just think it is an opportunity tat should not be wasted. alamak. thanxgivin stay in annarbor and do wat? study? erm.. i think onli freshies will think tat they can do tat kind of thing. but it is just not acceptable to hear this kind of thing from sophomores and up liao. no money? ok... this is excusable but oso not really valid. just like wat my dad told me last nite when i told him i dun go canada unlike my other friends coz of the visa is gonna cost me like 60buck a year as compare to doing it in my own country which gives me as long as my passport allow with the same cost. i mean, a few more years and i am getting the fuck outta US oledi. so the next time i go St Louis or canada, it is not gonna be a 120 buck greyhound bus rite or a 2 hour drive to the canadian border lor... it is gonna be at least a thousand dollar air tix liao. think of it this way and the money is really not an issue liao lah. but of course tat dun mean travel like siao and use money like fake lah. but i just think it is worth the money lah. hmm... but i guess i am just not persuasive enuff to make other ppl to agree with me eh? hahah!!
also, next time dun book your greyhound tix online. coz it is useless. it is not a reservation at all so tat means even if you do tat, they dun guarantee you a ticket until you go pick it up from the station and they charge you extra even though it is 4 buck. but tat 4 buck means nth coz you still ahve to go down to the station to buy the ticket and if they sold out oledi then you oso won't get a ticket anyway. understand? so tat is 4 buck tat is freaking wasted on me. so folks out there, dun book or buy your tix from greyhound website!!
btw i got into GIEU. and now i need to choose a field site. rite now onli beijing, mexico, honduras, Vietnam and Philippines looks interesting. some other areas need languages like spanish and german so i dun think i can get it anyhow... but top choice? still beijing. dunnoe leh... got until dec 5 to decide.
just realised tat i have to do polisci postings this thursday. which sux... tat means no sleep for me tonite liao... sigh...
posted by David at 11/25/2003 01:13:00 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2003
book my tix to St Louis oledi... cost me a whooping 120 buck... hmm... it is worth it without a doubt. get to travel and see teddy somemore, shiok leh?!?! finish my paper and all midterms liao... phew... almost died doing tat baby... but such a blast and challenge that i really enjoyed even though i almost died. HAHHA... i had to refocus and re-re-research my paper for like 5 times... from doing a specific case study of one of the western province, to the tension between the classes within province, to blah blah blah... can't remember liao... well, your brain tend to go funny when you hardly sleep for 2-3 days and sit in front of your computer for so long tat you had leg cramps... MUAHAHAH... okie fine... it is coz i have fat thighs you happy?!?! heehee...
so now till 12 dec will be a peaceful time liao... will start mugging after i get back from St Louis on the 29 Nov. but will bring some books with me over to read oso lah... should at least finish up more of the Hays readings... lagging quite a bit... the china one is still doing fine so tat is good!! yup, must do more for Hays... esp must finish tat goddam Gilpin book... argh... die... it is such a horribly dry and uninteresting book to read... but bo bian... esp when your prof declare tat he worships Gilpin MUAHAH!!
on a bad note, my computer is screw up even more. i try to reformat the drives over the past few days, and the onli thing i did was to reinstall XP again under a different user name, so all my former documents are still inside the HD but only now i cannot access them... how fun eh?! so now i am without a alarm clock, coz my HD is full liao so cannot install any new programs and MP3s argh.... HELP!!!!!
hmm.... andy and daphne both bloged in cheena about love n such... wah... jia lak... and sound so love sick somemore... yet restrain unlike some idiot *slap myself*... so wat is MY situation now? hmm... i oso dunnoe... like wat i have always say, it is crush. nth more than tat. she is someone tat i tot is interesting and would really like to noe better. but my shyness (yesh, stop laughing you idiots... i tend to suddenly realise there is such a thing call SHYNESS in the world when it comes to girls... sigh...) always stop me from tokking to them... couple with insecurity, lack of confidence and other serious crap shits so i will just foreva sit around and drool onli... MUAHHAHA... but like i told this other girl the other day, i tend to sit on my ass when it comes to love. perhaps i do wanna fall in love n stuff like tat, but i just tend to feel too lazy to make the moves n stuff... so of course won't expect to have anything with this kind of attitude lor. MUAHAHAH... aiyah... rite now i just dun feel anything about those things about love like waiting patiently for someone, thinking about someone despite the break and all tat stuff.. DOWN WITH LOVE!!! hahaha... i mean, i am really not in tat mood rite now for any of tat sensitive stuff... or some ppl call it the matters of the heart... sigh...
i shall sound cheena and cheem oso with this song here... MUAHAHA... HARLEM NO. 1 !!!!!
春泥 - 庾澄慶
漫天的話語紛亂落在耳際 你我沉默不響應
牽你的手 你卻哭紅了眼睛 路途漫長無止盡
多想提起勇氣 好好地呵護你 不讓你受委屈
苦也願意 那些痛的記憶 落在春的泥土裡
滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
迷霧散盡 一切終於變清晰 愛與痛都成回憶 遺忘過去
繁花燦爛在天際 等待已有了結局
我會提起勇氣 好好地呵護你 不讓你受委屈 苦也願意
落在春的泥土裡 滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
落在春的泥土裡 滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
讓我們懂得學會珍惜
posted by David at 11/23/2003 01:54:00 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Like the Hoobastank song i put here? dun want to loop it lah, can't say for sure everyone like this kind of music rite. but i guess you can say i really like this song. yeah man... crawling in the dark... everyone is doing just tat. you may think you have it all figure out... but i really dun think so... bunch of singaporeans out there think they have it all figure out that they gonna get their 5Cs and wat not. are those your onli purpose in life? wat the heck are we doing here in this world anyway? religion may provide you with an answer, your mom may tell one something and your life experience may suggest another. but tat still dun help at all. crawling in the dark... hmm... how's ya journey so far?!
Hoobastank
Crawling In The Dark
I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
posted by David at 11/19/2003 10:36:00 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
I am thinking really hard about what class to take next term. i am really really sick of theories. rite now ppl are asking me to take Jude Hays class again next term. easy credit they say, 20% is already covered this semester so we are getting a head start. but the thing with that class is that it is so theoretical. trade theories, social theories blah blah blah... shit man, one things i hate abt school is tat it tok so much about those how-it-is-suppose-to-work kinda crap. i rather do case study first then learn from there. Prof is trying to balance the two but it is more like 80% theory and 20% real life stuff. and even tat 20% i can't exactly vision it... so it is bad.
maybe that is y i am haveing so much problems with econ. all those models are just not making sense to me. ok fine, we calculate all the preference set, monopoly rules and all tat shit. SO? how the fuck in this world are you gonna noe wat kind of preference curve you are gonna use? how do you noe wat kind of budget set your customers are gonna have? this ain't making sense at all. then all tat 102 thing about close econ assumption and blah blah blah... er... it is just like tat ridiculous joke about a trapped economist on an island trying to open a can food by "first assuming we have a can opener"... wtf... this is just frustrating... well... it is just my temper eh? it is just me eh?
how can you sit in a room whole day and tok theory and theory when you noe for a fact that half the time it ain't gonna work in the real world. no disrespect to those academics out there. but it is precisely this kind of teaching that you produce students like janet that believes has NO IDEA that japan has one of the strongest and most advance army in the world coz "aren't they not suppose to have an army?!?!?" omg... yeah... those horrible theories that i am sure they memoriesed by hard and hold on dear like a holy guide. sigh... i am not disputing the need of these theories. coz it gives a systematic way of analysing a situation. but i think current academic is just so freaking engross is trying to systemise EVERYTHINg tat did they eva pause to think if it is even gonna work in practise? and tat is precisely why the freaking IMF and WB failed miserably during crisis time. you get a bunch of academic tat is top of their profession. full of theoretical understanding of how things work and you dump them into real life situations. and see wat happened? everything tat is suppose to work in theories failed to materialise in real life. and in the end, you get ppl like Mahathir that seems to have the last laugh but did tremendous damage to the prestige of the international institute. what Mahathir did in the financial sector to IMF and WB is exactly wat Bush did to UN. by acting unitarially, and disregard the current world order, it sets a very negative example and deeply discredits the international institute that governs the world in tat aspect. ok.... so Mahathir "proved" that capital control in extreme times is a good effective way of weathering thru such crisis... and so does Bush "prove" that the i-strike-first method is the best way of defence for a country. so next time, countries as and when they deem fit, can just shut of their market from foreigners, nationalise all foreign investments like Cuba and claim that it has proven by Dr M tat it is needed under the current situation their country is facing... and once China has upgraded its army enough, can launch missles and attacks on countries like Pakistan or Taiwan and claim tat for the security of the country, it needs to strike first to safeguard the nation and the world from "renegade" (renegade coz it say so, coz it want to say so... you got a goddamn freaking problem with tat?!?!) states like those it is after!! what kind of world will this be then?
so back to my original pt. learning all theories are really fucked up. i am like ONE STEP away from the real world out there and i am still spending 80% of the time learning how it is SUPPOSE to work and not how it IS working? this is just BS and loada crap to me man. luckily i am taking Prof Lieberthal's class to keep my sainity. and if you look at it. so far i am onli doing well for this type of classes and getting average grade for those tat give 20% of the real world insight... and the rest are just shit. sorry... i just ain't cut out for all these nonsense and at this stage of my life, i dun feel tat there is a need for me to take this shit anymore. so... the plan now is find a REAL class and perhaps mix them up with some of those 20% classes. yup... tat's the plan. or should i say the theory of how i plan to work?!?!? MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
posted by David at 11/18/2003 04:30:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2003
Yet another parody of Matrix... but this one is for a cause... so go and watch it
http://www.themeatrix.com/
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:41:00 AM
added some pix and music to the site. which means those 56k modem ppl are gonna have a hard time accessing my site and probably will get the usual timeout/page unavailable thingy. hmm... oh well... it is my site after all... so as long as i can access it... MUAHAHAH... *evil*
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:32:00 AM
Hmm... anywae for those curious out there... and have not heard from me yet, Saturday nite was quite a blast. The food was good and it got to play some bball after so long.
That is... if you remove her outta the whole equation. SIGH....
it really ain't fun when you try to crack a joke on her and everyone laughed but her.
it ain't helpful when you play like shit in bball which use to be your forte and can't even shoot from under the basket for your dear life. while others are all playing like SHENZ and you are doing EVERYTHING but impressing her...
but like i say, tat is onli if you put her into the equation. it was fun to be able to play bball again with such a large grp of ppl. aiyah... should not think so much about it coz it is just a silly crush after all... will get over it sooner than i think i will. it will rite?!?! it better be!!!
but my body is STILL SORE till now... shit man... those guys are playing like a bunch of dudes running wild on raging hormones... MUAHHAHAH... jk... but so long neva exercise oledi and then one nite play 3 games nonstop... shit man... tot i was gonna die on the court... but at least i still manage to grab some rebound... hmm... but tat was all abt it.. oh... and i had to fight off two big dudes under the basket and was playing sumo wrestling with them half the time (the other half of the time is spent catching my breathe... MUAHAHAHHA) but yeah... it was fun.
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:31:00 AM
Finally, after so long, manage to find this song which i was TOTALLY crazy and memorised by hard even before i could memorise the mulitiple table... MUAHAHHA... enjoy!!!
少年狂想曲 -- 黃舒駿
為什麼我會這麼聰明 為什麼我竟然什麼都行
有種強烈的預感常在我心裡 成為偉人好像命中注定
天生麗質難自棄 有時候想起自己就蠻感動的
自古英雄多寂寞 難怪他們都故意看不起我
總是莫名其妙對我搖頭 年紀太小 懂得太多
苦悶太久 內傷很重 胸懷大志 但有點懶惰
我要沉的住氣 莊敬自強 處變不驚
我要趁他們發現我的厲害之前
再偷偷努力 我要沉得住氣 不可以得意忘形
總有一天我要他們所有人跌破眼鏡 都跌破眼鏡
我要精通數學 物理 將來拿個諾貝爾獎學金(咦?)
還有英文一定要流利到嚇死你 我還要多念哲學 歷史 社會 經濟
政治 法律 心裡 健康教育 以後才能在電視上和別人罵來罵去
四書五經不可忘記 多背一些優美的詩句
多看電視還要多背書名 沒事就研究星座 算命
和女生約會無往不利 想到這裡我就暗中竊喜
除了這些我還不放心 要熱愛藝術 要拜師學藝
琴 棋 書 畫 唱歌 跳舞都要練習
還好!我喜歡上體育 有些運動千萬要熟悉
籃球 網球 尤其高爾夫球最引人注意 當這些通通學會
就要開始學習謙虛 表現悲天憫人的胸襟 把握短短的青春
學習如何去愛一個人 這樣才算最美的人生 哇!無窮的信心
多完美的人品 我要趁他們發現我的厲害之前
再繼續努力! 能者多勞 天經地義 不管他們冷言冷語
總有一天我要他們所有人跌破眼鏡 都跌破眼鏡
posted by David at 11/17/2003 01:57:00 AM
I walk alone...
posted by David at 11/17/2003 12:01:00 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2003
sitting on my ass again during work. suppose to come in and do my research on proquest for my 15 page paper tat is due ONLY THIS THURSDAY... brilliant... now is oledi 1.30... work is done by 5... and after tat got TWSA thingy... so effectively if i dun get anything done during this period, i am done for. coz i go back onli will start sleeping or some nonsense and got all those distractions... argh... this is crappy...
abt the comment for the cheena personality survey hor, let me just say ONE THING. during first 3 mth in RJC, i took this test which i think is call 16PF or something like tat... suppose to tell me a whole lot abt myself... or perhaps, my subconcious self. so anywaez, this baby tells me tat i have a strong flair in maths and sci stuff and a good career path would be one tat involves mathematics coz i am suppose to be systematic n all tat... hmm... it threw me into a fuss then... coz i really hated all maths n sci stuffs... and prefer the more humaninites stuff... ok fine... so after coming to college and trying out engineering for a year, i think by now i need NO MORE confirmation tat i really suck in sci and math and all tat related things... but according to this LATEST test, i am still suppose to be good in tat area and will succeed in tat... can someone explain to me how i can succeed in tat when i am getting big fat Cs in tat kind of classes? *scratch head*... i really dun understand how this whole logic works...
posted by David at 11/15/2003 01:38:00 PM
after work at five, will be going to Taste of Taiwan... probably won't have anything to eat so the main reason is still that she is gonna be there... ARGH... she is going to be there!!! *da tank screams like a little girl and run and hide himself (herself?) in total embarrasement like a pussy*!!!
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i am a disgrace to mankind when it comes to dealing with woman... think my manhood is suddenly robbed from me whenever this kind of things happen... SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH...
posted by David at 11/15/2003 09:52:00 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2003
個性
你有很好的平衡感，偏重邏輯式的思考方式。在想要某東西之前，都會冷靜的判斷自己的經濟能力。你不會勉強的貸一筆鉅款去買房子。你是一個在心智上完全臻於成熟的人。每天精神奕奕、充滿自信，同時又很受到朋 友們的信賴。但是相對地，你對日常生活乃至人生的態度稍嫌嚴肅了一點。或許是因為 你給別人的印象就是如此，而你也刻意地去表現出這一面。不過，如果你能更加任性點 ，偶而輕鬆一下，不要固執地想要一直去扮演完人的角色。說不定反而能提高你的聲望也說不定。 你是那種即使明知道吵架是自己的不對，但還是 有意無意會把責任推給對方，彆扭地不想認錯，你是那種稍微低頭也不是很願意的類型。你很會存錢，常在不知不覺的情形下，存了很多錢，而且方法也很合理。你對金錢的態度，認為該花時就不該太吝嗇、但不用花的錢，你也不會花，是個心胸相當大的人。表面上看起來，你好像是一個很好說話的人，其實最最固執的人，就是你了，一旦發起牛脾氣來，任誰也拗不過你，因為在你的內心是封閉和害羞，冷漠就是你用來掩飾害怕和人群接觸的自然反應！你是個講理的人，希望能好聲好氣與別人商量事情，基本上，你彬彬有禮的態度，通常都可以與人為善。但這世界上還是會有一些說不通道理的惡霸，這時候，你也不會被嚇得退縮，你會去找合乎法律程序的途徑來解決問題，讓人家輸得心服口服，你的柔性兼具理性的策略，總是可以奏效。你是心地非常善良的人，但與人相處時為了不想暴露自己的缺點而設了一道防線，所以有時會被人誤會為不容易親近之人，雖然朋友不多，但能擁有深厚友誼。再者有優秀的數字能力，能在理工上一展長才。你這種類型的人,是經歷過各種的苦難.悠煩而建立屬於自己的人生觀,是越挫越勇的人再與人交往方面算是相當順利的,因大多會站在對方的立場體諒別人,很容易受他人的信賴與親近,朋友都喜歡找你傾訴心中的煩惱。思考問題條理分明，對你而言，周圍的人覺得很怪異的事情，你也能理出頭緒，並找出解決辦法，注意不要太固執己見。
愛情
你的感情表現常常是勇敢、開明、自由的，因為你非常的坦然，因此從來不喜歡猜忌或懷疑別人對你的態度和心意。你對人有很好的包容力，如果遇到實在不喜歡的人，採取態度是迴避，不會直接衝突。暗戀是你最拿手的戀愛方式!永遠只在遠遠的地方看著心儀的人,幻想著有一天他會主動來約你.愛他就要勇敢說出來!加油唷。先天上你就是一個會掌控戀情的人，不管是怎樣的戀情，一但讓你遇上了，你都能順利地照著自己的意思運作；而且你非常地瞭解異性的心理，知道什麼時候該撒嬌、什麼時候該使性子，這也正是你的魅力所在，所以對方很快地就會被你吸引。只站在遠處觀看，是不會為自己帶來任何機會的。但是，也許有第三者會被你那謹慎的態度所吸引，這時，即使那個人長得不帥，仍然會使你被他的真誠所感動。有智慧、沉靜、三思後行，尊重人，有修養的個性，是你之所以喜歡他的原因。一旦與他認識，你會希望與他共處一生。你的個性比較沈靜，可是你卻喜歡上陽光、活潑，甚至做事有點傻勁的異性，你們之間像是互補的組合，讓人充滿了甜蜜和期待的感覺。你會使用柔性策略來誘引愛人入甕，因為你知道太過強硬只會造成對方的反彈，就像是無法吹掉旅人外套的西風一樣，你寧願散發溫暖的光芒，讓愛人衷心願意留在你身旁。不過，你也是非常講理的人，只要是必要的活動，你不會限制對方去參加，而且願意成為支持者，真是個明事理又貼心的理想情人啊！你會因愛人的言行舉止，而產生許多迷惑，你不能肯定他是否真心愛你，也不知道愛情會延續多久，所以你時常為了這個問題而煩惱不安，其實你不必這麼懷疑對方，應該以信心和誠意來對待他，才能共創永恆的愛情。基本上你算是很專情的，只是你好像不太願意去承認這些事，只把這種愛慕放在心裡，面對性時，你只是像個孩子一樣，雖然笨拙，但也純真得可愛！你給異性的感覺是個喜歡交朋友的人，所以跟你較相近的對象也應該是個悠然自得、懂得享受愛情的人。你們兩人很可能成為令人近羨的鴛鴦夫妻。在交往的時候你會有結婚的念頭，尤其是選婆婆的意味更濃。因此，以結婚為前提之下，會努力地去尋覓另一半。你從某方面來說可以算是非常理性和冷靜的，嫉妒心非常的薄弱。
事業
看來這裡面最聰明的就是你了，你是一個有城府的人，做什麼事，都會經過詳細的計算和籌畫，可是最不按牌理出牌的人也是你，可能在笑臉的背後，隱藏著什麼重大的陰謀噢！可是你把全部的聰明全放在人際的周旋，相對的，卻對業務上的助力短缺，小心聰明反被聰明誤！你有點太高估自我能力，認為自己才能足以領導大家，很嚮往得到有權有名的滋味，也花上許多時間去爭取，得到後姿態擺得也粉高，卻不知自我才能其實平平，根本無法服眾，這點需要注意。
人際關係
無論遇到甚麼人，你也會真誠相對，實話實說，可謂有點天真爛漫。不過，在某些場合上，卻因過份的毫無保留而令對方感到尷尬。因為 性格率直無機心，所以很受朋友歡迎。為了顯示實力，也會向別人提供不少八卦秘聞，總之有你出現的地方，就絕不會有沉悶場面。工作上，率直的性格令你成 為上司的好助手。你狂狷的性格總為自己帶來一點麻煩，惹得別人對你的死硬脾氣有點感冒。人家覺得不是很重要的小節，在你眼中，可是了不得的大事，要是觸犯了你的禁忌，十年不相往來是很有可能發生的事。雖說如此，你對於合得來的知交，卻是好得不得了，願意以寶劍相贈知己，出手闊綽，令人咋舌。你是那種很看重友誼的人，對朋友很好。
posted by David at 11/13/2003 02:12:00 PM
oh... and can some folks in singapore pls tell me where the hell did tat idiotic "Teo Chee Haen" come from? see lah... this wat i mean by pathetic singaporeans... what to fake oso dunnoe how to fake... and why the heck in this world would someone think of such a brilliant idea? damn stupid until cannot make it... sigh...
posted by David at 11/13/2003 01:55:00 PM
i think this is really crappy... after Teh and Nanim, this singaporean dude was critically injured and now under ICU in some ypsi hospital. fucking shit man... and yesterday got another girl got knocked down by the UofM bus outside the Mleague... this is ridiculous... so many traffic incidents one after another... how screwed can you get?! argh...
posted by David at 11/13/2003 01:11:00 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003
Went to Chicago over the weekend. The trip was really a blast. million of thanx to kelvin for taking me there and slept in the car with me. MUAHAH... the two of us just wonder around the streets of chicago. ate some really good deep dish pizza from the famous Uno and had dim sum in chinatown for breakfast. Chicago is amazing. really. love the architecture. it was really cold on saturday nite. the coldest nite so far since fall (or should i say winter?!) but i was so busy and awed by the things around me that i really dun feel tat cold. yes. it was that good. esp after all the shit i had before the trip. spent alot of money. but it was worth it.
actually we had the car since friday afternoon. but kelvin's computer screw up on him (us) and he had to retype his paper again. so friday was spent with me driving around. yesh... my first driving lesson. lotsa stuns, lotsa sweat but nth is broken except some macro breaks in the neck area due to horrible brakings from yours truly. MUAHAH... but it was good. drove for like 4-5 hours? it was good... hope to get the chance to drive more. we'll see.
so other than the driving lessons on friday, we oso went to makan around. went to zingerman's for sandwich. i tell you. the place serve fantastic food. can't help but keep thinking how much my mom is gonna love this place. freshly baked cake and break. loaves and loaves of them just stack behind the counter. it was heavenly. ordered a eggplant cheese sandwich. totally yummy. the bread tat was used is really good. not some mass produced stuff. or maybe it is to some extend but it was good, very satisfied with the 10 dollar odd spent on it. and i oso bought a cake. sourcream coffee cake for 10 bucks. it is good. love the way the cake is baked. and the combi of taste is marvellous. i think it was the best ang mo food experience i've had in recent times. yeah... i think the dinner with jeff at palio's was kinda crappy as compare to this had we not ordered tat saute mushroom dish. my lagsania was just terribly not worth the 13 bucks.
for dinner we went to this Thai restaurant. ok. cute and sweet thai waitress is serving you meal is always a plus and makes the dish good. again spent about 10 bucks on the dinner. kelvin insisted on eating vegetarian with me. think he kinda regret it. coz the tofu we ordered is really tofu. and tat's it. got sauce and stuff which was pretty nicely done, but i think we paid for like 3 cubes of tofu tat is cute into slices for 10 bucks... dun think it is worth leh... but yeah... cute sweet thai waitress... heehee
ok... i am trying my best to sound relax and stuff but to tell you the truth, i ain't. was in such high spirit when i reached ann arbor. totally fresh and stuff. but after the nice dinner with tien huei, i got back to my room and the first thing i heard was that two malaysian girls were killed a few moments ago. Teh and Nanim. met both before and chatted with one of them oso. They are good friend of farrah and other malaysian girls. hmm... it is neva good when something bad happen to ppl you noe. i am just troubled and sadden by this whole affair. yeah, i dun noe these two girls. but hearing Deera's totally troubled voice when i was trying to find out what happened and imaging Farrah in the situation of havin to identify both body is just... too emotionally disturbing is probably the way to describe it. I mean even though at times like these we can seek comfort from the religious pt of view in tat they pass away during the month of Ramadan and somemore it was right after their break fast prayers. so they probably pass away in the best possible way and oso since it was instant death coz the lorry hit them full impact. but still, you can feel sad and feel that perhaps it is just a little too early for them? that perhaps their presence in this world is needed just a little longer? and perhaps it could have been in a different way? rationality tells us that death is inevitable and it comes one day. but still... the girls are loved and will definitely be missed. we are humans after all. really dun dare to go over to Baits I and see the guys n gers. i was on an emotional stirred high after the trip and i knew that if i see the gerz like farrah and ayun, the emotion is going all the way to the opposite end and i will have difficulty restraining it. no, i dun think i need to let the girls see it when they are not having it easy and i probably shouldn't be displaying so much emotion over it. get wat i mean? probably should be like everyone else tat dunnoe the girls personally so i should just display "normal" level of sorrow since someone passed away. but me, being way too freaking emotional for anyone to understand, and already emotionally stirred... dun intend to find out wat silly things i could have done had i not stopped myself (actually it was the -11 deg temp outside tat paused me on my way of running to Baits I in my tshirt and shorts...) from going over last nite. will go over tonite and see what i can help with. the malay malaysians are pretty close, must all be pretty sad and overcomed to sort things out. hopefully i am a little more cleaer headed and give a hand in whicheva way i possibly can. Al Fatihah. may their soul rest in peace and find happiness in where they may be right now.
posted by David at 11/10/2003 05:14:00 PM
Sunday, November 09, 2003
★ 巨蟹座 ★
巨蟹座在什麼情形下最容易感受到壓力 ----
當巨蟹座失去安全感，或受到委屈時，很容易讓自己陷入壓力當中。
巨蟹座對於不熟悉的人事物需要有一段適應期，如果不能讓巨蟹座有充足的時間來調適將會造成蟹子的「水土不服」。
哪些星座最容易給巨蟹座壓力 ----
牡羊座，天秤座和水瓶座，容易帶給巨蟹座壓力。
動不動就發脾氣的牡羊座，粗魯地對待巨蟹座，將會造成「水火不容」的超級壓力。
天秤座的理性卻讓巨蟹座覺得冷血無情，而水瓶座的不穩定性，帶給守舊的巨蟹座極大的心理壓力。
哪些星座容易幫助巨蟹座紓解壓力 --
天蠍座，摩羯座和雙魚座可以替巨蟹座減壓。
天蠍座和巨蟹座都具有重感情的特質，讓蟹子覺得格外溫暖。
穩重的摩羯座往往能夠帶給巨蟹座信心，而雙魚座的柔軟可以讓巨蟹座享受被呵護的擁抱。
巨蟹座的壓力徵兆 ----
向來好說話的巨蟹座一旦態度轉為比較強硬時，就是巨蟹座表現出正受到壓力的開始。
巨蟹座最易用什麼型式發洩 ----
巨蟹座需要找到一個能夠聽蟹子發牢騷的人，釋放積壓在心裡的壞情緒。
巨蟹座的抗壓與減壓祕方 ----
巨蟹座必須要拓展自己的交友圈，並且學習和人做有效的溝通。
posted by David at 11/09/2003 10:34:00 PM
Friday, November 07, 2003
摘自黑道白皮書
編按：
我們都知道，當一個人已經當到大哥，他通常是不再親自參與一些比較暴力的行動，但是殺人的血液依舊在他們的血管裡不安地流動著，這是沒有辦法改變的事實。
就是基於這樣子的認識，「福爾摩殺協會」的民調中心，日前針對二十位大哥做了一系列採訪，讓大哥們發洩他們心中有關殺人的終極秘密，並整理出來下面這個「大哥們最想砍的對象」的排行榜。
在協會保證大哥們絕對不會洩漏他們身份的情況下，大哥們各個暢所欲言，其結果則讓我們不寒而慄，因為我們發現，殺人的血液不知道什麼時候會讓大哥成為一個突然爆發的活火山……
大哥們最想砍的對象排行榜：
10. 電影院裡一直解釋劇情給女朋友聽的男生
理由：我女兒有這麼笨嗎？
9. 穿著囚犯造型的衣服自以為很酷的小鬼
理由：有人會穿上那種衣服，是因為曾經砍人，我想讓他知道，穿那種衣服不一定是砍人，也可以是被砍。
8. 經常跟老爸老媽大聲頂嘴的鄰家小孩
理由：跟爸媽頂嘴當然不對，頂嘴的時候還說什麼「你們再逼我，我就去混黑道」，那根本是欠砍。
7. 公車上霸著博愛座並且假裝睡著的年輕人
理由：你把他砍成重殘，以後他坐那個位子就不會有人說話了。
6. 盯著老子細姨胸部看的人
理由：我怎麼知道他看的是她的胸部，還是她胸部上面的金項鍊，先砍再講。
5. 模仿吳宇森拍黑道片的導演
理由：吳宇森真的把我們黑道害慘了，現在要出去搞大規模的火併，不但要帶白鴿子，還要像體操選手一樣表演手握雙槍斜飛出去的絕技，像話嗎？一個吳宇森還不夠啊？我倒想看誰敢模仿他。
4. 下載機關槍聲音當作手機鈴聲的人
理由：任何會讓老子緊張的人，最好都先除掉。
3. 開金龜車的黑道
理由：大哥就是要開雙Ｂ，開金龜車，裝可愛嗎？還是耍氣質？
2. 褲子穿得很低，露出半個屁股的青少年
理由：大哥也要有社會責任，幫別人的父母教訓他們子女就是一種社會責任，當然，砍人也許不會是一些父母用的手段，但是看到那些股溝，手真的很癢。
1. 超級市場裡推著購物推車亂竄的小孩
理由：砍小孩真的不是大哥應該做的事，但是，從名列「大哥們最想砍的對象」排行榜第一名的事實來看，這樣子的小孩真的不得人緣。
posted by David at 11/07/2003 01:55:00 PM
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Ok... so we lost to japan in the end. i really tot we had a chance, but given the kind of performance we put up, we really dun deserve it. was it panick? was it inexperience? or was it just fate? well, probably all, probably none. but we lost, and tat is sad. so sad that even the taiwanese flag i hung up on my wall dropped down. yup, it was tat sad. but still, it was worth staying up all nite just for it. worth every minute of it, no matter the frustration, the matter the sorrow and no matter the blardy econ 401 midterm which is gonna take place one hour from now and i barely have a clue of wat is going on still... well done.
i am a sports freak. and i think freak is a very nice word to use coz my relationship with sports is really damn weird. used to play Bball like mad while in primary sch. was really good at it. was good in swimming too. in sec 1, made into bball team in RI but not the swim team coz i dunnoe how to do freestyle.... bleah... silly... hahha... but anywae, has fate would have it, i just stop these two sports all together and started to pick up soccer. now, when i was good in bball and swimming, i have NO IDEA wat was going on in the big sporting arena of these two sports. i.e. i dun follow basketball or swimming i dun learn from any ppl, dun read books, no idea how they aredone in the prof world, but yet, put me against most ppl, and i can beat them. simple as tat. or should i say, as weird as tat. MUAHAH, then soccer, was really into it. could name every player in the english premier league and all those teams in world cup blah blah blah... understand all the technical stuffs, rules, regulations and wat not... but i really suck at tat game. and i mean REALLY suck... so the relationship is hor, the more i understand about a sports, the more horrible i am in playing tat game. which really dun make much of sense... but oh well...
so what has tat got to do with baseball? see... even though ppl always laugh at me when i say baseball is a national sports in taiwan and taiwanese has baseball flowing in their blood, i truely admire tat sports. but in singapore, there is no baseball, only softball. but still betta than nth, in fact, softball was the onli interhouse sports which i dare to invite my dad over to see me play (of course the other sports which my dad dun see will be rugby and all tat "nonsense"... hahah) and my dad even train with me on the day itself and play catch with me and stuff. it was really fun, really love those times. and yeah, did i mention i played first base and was that MOFO tat struck out Alex Ho and Ezekiel Sim (well... they are only like the 2 fastest sprinter in our school... MUAHAHHA) and i was one of the heavy batters. it was a fun game. can't say i was damn zai in them as compare to my peak for bball and swimming in pri sch. but playing the sports make me feel so good. wheneva i slip on tat smelly glove from the basement of the PE storage, it feels like i am COMPLETE. and when i play the sports, it feels like something that hasn't been there came back and made me whole again. yup. it was tat shiok. really shiok!!
the first touch i had with so call real baseball thing was in pri sch when my uncle gave me a autographed baseball (which i still have) tat was signed by Lin Han and this other dude (some Ke Lin or Lin Ke guy which were foreign players playing in the baseball league in taiwan then...) love it like crazy and it was my baby, but still dun dare to touch and play too much with it coz dun wanna smugged the autograph. the second REAL experience was i think in 2001? when taiwan hosted this international baseball tournament. was in nov-dec tat time so i was naturally back in taiwan. remembered i went to the nite market by myself tat day when taiwan was playing. it was so fun. imaging me squatting by the roadside with a bowl of taiwanese o-wa-mi-sua in my hand, sipping and chewing and cursing away in taiwanese with one whole bunch of strangers in front of a BLACK AND WHITE tiny portable monitor and watching the game. and in tat game, Chen Jin Feng blasted two homeruns and the whole atmosphere in the nitemarket was CRAAAAZY. imaging. one whole street packed with ppl cheering and chanting "HONG BU RAN! HONG BU RAN!!" man i tell you... it felt so good. and i guess from then on, i try to catch taiwanese baseball news as much as i could. but still, reading all those news report of wat happened is NOTHNIG like watching the real game itself... so imaging my ecstasy when i came over to US when i get to watch some real baseball match. but i guess all tat reading was good. coz now, after being so familiar with wat slider ball, curve ball, blah blah blah and all tat foreign technical terms. i can now apply them easily and analyse the game play really well as i see them unfold in front of me. muahhaha... it was so fun
so essentially the Taiwan VS Japan match i saw this morning was the second match i seen tat Taiwan is in action. so imaging the excitement when i was again able to hear the national song and see Chen Jin Feng in action again. so wat it was a bit disappointing and the guys like Chen Zi Yuan did not perform like all those news i read about him which made him so god-like. but still, it felt great. really great. but i guess onli a fan with such weird long relationship with this sports and this national team can ever truly understand the emotion here. so seriously, dun care about 401. dun care about sleep. i have a patriotic duty and life time passion to fulfill and nothing is gonna stop me. MUAHAHAH!!!
but even tat said, i think the first and onli major criticism i want to make for the Taiwan team yesterday was the choice of the starting pitcher. seriously, i think ANY other pitcher in the bullpen would have done a better job.
why?
coz tat dude is playing in the pro league in japan which is where most of our opponents drew their squad members from. and if tat guy had a terrible season this year pitching against these dudes, psychologically speaking, how tough do you think he can? and the amount of pressure he is facing? nah. cannot deny he is a good pitcher. the balls are all in the 140km region. means got standard. but, the lack of control of the ball shows just how messy and uncontrol he is. the first comment when i saw the starting lineup was, y this guy. i am serious. this is all i wanted to say. it really made no sense to me. but then again, i am not the coach, but i dun think my arguement is invalid in any sense.
the opposition pitcher really too power liao. really good. hope he can go to Major League. think he can make it. his control of ball is dead on. i mean they are actually just the same thing over and over again. drop ball and fast balls. but they are just so dead on and fast tat we just cannot strike it. so full credit to the japan starting pitcher. Chen Jin Feng was living up to his worth. beautiful strikes. oso hope he go onto Major league next season. taiwan defence really dunnoe wat to say. like i mentioned earlier. unlucky? inexperience? or just panicked? oh well... i am an offensive guy. so i am most concern about the pitcher. i think our bad choice of starting pitcher was very very bad decision.
posted by David at 11/06/2003 07:17:00 PM
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
5：4 中華英雄棒 高麗菜栽了
YES WE WON!!!!
next up, japan you are going DOWN!!!!!!!!
posted by David at 11/05/2003 12:16:00 PM
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Brief Summary
Your first name of David has given you a very practical, hard-working, systematic nature. Your interests are focused on technical, mechanical, and scientific things, to the exclusion of interests of an artistic, musical, or social nature. You have a rather skeptical outlook on life and rather materialistic standards. In reaching your goals, you are very independent and resourceful, patient and determined. You can be so very positive and definite in your own ideas and opinions that others sense a lack of tact and friendliness in your manner of expression. You are inclined to be rather demanding and self-centred in your personal wants, and your own desires can be so overriding that you fail to recognize or appreciate the feelings, opinions, or desires of others. As a consequence, difficulties in relations within the family or with close associates can arise.
Apparently the first sentence is all wrong except for my first name. MUAHAH... ok fine, i am practical, but i guess tat is just a nice way of saying i am unimaginative and unromantic rite? hardworking? nah.. systematic? well, just take a look at my room. the interest part oso super off. i love music and nature and technical, mechanical and sci stuff just bores me big time. the outlook part is dead on accurate but materialistic? hardly... though i understand the importance of money but i dun think tat qualify me as being materialistic. Independent? not for my own standard. Patience has nth to do with me. though i can be resourceful and determined AT TIMES... the opinion part i think quite true oso. but the demanding part hor, i really dun think so. i think i am pretty lax 99% unless you ask me not to lax then i will not lax and make sure you let me lax. MUAHHAAH... but i guess tat is problem isn't it? i look like a pushover most of the time, but when there is something i really want, or when ppl interfere or mess with something i hold personal, they are often surprised by the amount of "aggression" and the uncompromising stand i take on as compare to normal. so is tat wat it mean by me being self centered in my wants? oh well... dun see tat as a crime or something i should lose sleep over. as for relationships hor, hmm... recently i have realised tat i am having difficulties being emotionally attached to someone. let me phrase it in another way. nowadays, my ability to link up with ppl emotionally in a in-depth way is much less than before. getting more reclusive and the enthusiasm to meet new ppl and getting to know ppl better is just almost non existance maybe? good? bad? oh well...
posted by David at 11/04/2003 06:12:00 PM
wah lao eh.... Man U trashed Rangers 3-0... wah lao eh... Old Trafford is Old Trafford after all. Let's hope the Wolverines can say the same thing about the big house when we take on Northwestern and Ohio State. Woot!!!
posted by David at 11/04/2003 04:45:00 PM
Taiwan National Team is up against South Korea National Team in a few hours time.
驅韓抗日 中華隊GoGoGo！
posted by David at 11/04/2003 04:32:00 PM
Monday, November 03, 2003
ok... in order to combat my sleeping disorder and to regain control of my health, i am gonna impose a straight sleeping, lights out curfew watnotfreakingthingyoucallitgoddammit!!! on myself. i am gonna sleep no matter wat by 2.30am the latest. And if i can't sleep coz of wat is now my officially declared SCREWED UP body, i am gonna just do jumping jack until i freaking drop dead or something. yup. probably get tired after like doing 2 of those, but doubt tat is gonna be enough to make me go blank... heck, dun care, screw it made up my mind liao.
do you write on bday prez you give to someone else? i don't. and apparently SOME ppl out there think tat is really stupid. hmm... the way i see it is hor, i am giving the prez to show tat i remember and tat i care. so if you remember and you care, then will remember that i gave the prez to you. if you dun have the heart to remember and care, then y should i force it onto you by writing my name big big with those wishes on it? dun see the pt. but yet again, this is just part of the Taiwantank philosophy/way of looking at human relationships. And yet again. i am not asking you to agree with me. MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 11/03/2003 11:38:00 PM
婓眈郣腔傑庈 譎囮眳ヶ
扆梑珨桲侔崠眈妎腔螺
挍婓忒笢腔瑞鵱 剿賸盄
岆秪峈扂腔敷蠕 斕符堤珋
遜岆斕腔湔婓?襞眢埡?
埽爺 軗徹腔旯晚
曹傖湘翹儂猀堈腔隱晟
泫蹲 婓襞酵腔珨侘潔
隱狟賸淩妗腔佷癩
珨僇①憩夔蟀れ謗跺?佽騷?
珨沭繚憩夔?藪螂鶲?
价饒眳潔 韜堍飲蜊曹
硐猁堋砩眈陓 憩夔眈獗
珨舒濡憩夔結蛂謗跺?佽騷?
耀緇扂扂弝盄
網遢覂斕腔靡趼植れ萸隙善埻萸
謗沭す俴盄軞衄蝠頗腔珨毞
岆韜堍婓蛌曹 斕符堤珋
遜岆斕腔堤珋?襞珚覺?
珨跺 б磁腔砩俋
曹傖珨部郔硒覂腔譎蟋
泫蹲 婓襞酵腔珨侘潔
隱狟賸淩妗腔佷癩
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:40:00 PM
seriously... i have no idea why, but up to now, econ is always the one giving me the problem and no my poli sci class no matter now much reading i have to read and all tat. this is just not cool. not cool at all.
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:10:00 PM
you guessed it... after the last blog which was the nite b4 my 102 midterm, i basically went into some shitty state of being. probably still in one rite now. sigh... this is bad... 102 flunked again. below mean tat is... sigh... and now got 401 coming up. econ is really kicking and ripping my ass apart. screw 102. now i need to focus on 401 and salvage wateva grade i can. but this just dun look hopeful at all. darn.
like reported in the last blog, flag football was the onli thing on the agenda tat day. was in a pissed off and tat whole day after getting back my results. so i slept the whole friday away until the flag football thingy. and guess wat, it was suppose to make me feel better, but i end up feeling like blowing my tops off. essentially i was told not to rush again. i think asking a DE not to rush is like asking the QB not to throw. the whole strategy is wrong for both offensive and defensive plays. it was plain frustrating. i have no idea why the "coach" keep insisting that the the opponent's offensive line is TOO BIG when i am easily making the 2 ppl guarding me flying away. i have no idea why. then the DEs were told not to rush. not to rush, effectively gave the QB so much time to slowly pick his options. wat was the "coach" thinking? i have no idea, other than being a stupid or inexperience, i have no idea why he is doing such things and making such calls. i noe alot of malaysians look at my blog and i am sure one or two will go aroung telling ppl wat i say, but i ain't bother at all. if there are some MOFO with the intention of screwing me up is reading this, you might as well go around telling ppl tat i am not playing for the team this friday coz i am going to chicago to get away from all these BS and about the play-offs, nah, forget it, i will be busy writing my papers, and rite now, i dun think it is worth my effort and time to do this kind of activity.
wasted the whole saturday and sunday doing nth but playing FFX. brilliant, just brilliant. i feel like slapping myself really hard but rite now i am in a really really murderous mood and i dun freaking feel like studying. but shit i still have to figure away to get my 401 straight. but this shit ain't gonna be easy man. being re-reading my notes and the progress is slow as hell and i dun think i will eva finish it. yeah, i should blame myself for wasting time on FFX rite? but i guess it is like taking drugs, i desperately need to take my brain off the crap shit of hws and academics so i turn to FFX, the fun is there while it last, but rite now i am just suffering from the withdrawal symptoms tat is the lack of time. ok, you noe the BS of "neva mind, now tat your brain is fresh, you can study betta" ain't gonna work for me. at least i dun think it is gonna work for me. feeling fucked means feeling fucked. nth goes inside my brain means nth goes inside my brain. but shit i am still gonna study. and study the shit out i am gonna do.
i think i am falling sick again. went to bed at 2 and i cannot sleep until like 430 in the morning. yeah, i missed my 102 and 401 lectures today which are essentially all my classes. but wat the heck, if i pull myself out of bed at 7, i would be sleeping in the lectures anyway. so might as well stay in my room and sleep. need to do something about it. my body is really screwed up now. need to take care of it. need to take GOOD care of it. if not, nth else matters if i dun have my health.
oh... i noe this is not suppose to happen... but i THINK i am having a serious crush again. yeah, you noe, tat type of crush which i always have which i just stay at one side to look at this girl tat is impossible for me and it just make me feel all shitty and lousy inside coz i can neva be up to her standard. sigh... come one guys, by now you should all agree with me tat i need a big big big big slap. and yeah, i really ain't feeling all too good.
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:04:00 PM
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
shit man... missed 401 this morning. really cannot hear the alarm clock oledi. mental weakness dammit, argh, somebody give me a slap!!! (but onli at around 7am to wake me up... or you'll get it...)
review for 102 is on its final stretch. not as on schedule as i hope it would be. should have cover the previously done hws last nite (or should i say this morning...) but i can't get past the review notes of chapter 7. went cranky so productivity drop like mad. at the advise of ivan, did the extra readings for a while, finish them and now i am left with 2 more pages to go. tonite is gonna be fun man...
after tonite, tomorrow, wednesday need to chiong 401 hw again. in fact after lecture tomorrow i better go for OH. if not i sure die one next thursday. or is the midterm on tuesday? darn crap. then still got poli sci readings to do oso... yup, you noe wat tat means, no sleep and going insane very soon.
friday got flag football. tat is the onli thing on the agenda for tat day. coz 102 discussion cancelled after midterm this week and prof lieberthal's lunch session is cancelled since he need to go funneral. i think i should still play DE. even though Epol seems to be doing a good enuff job... getting 2 guys to pressurise the QB is more effective in making him misthrow coz i think we still need to work on the coverage at the back. so i think at least for next game, we need 2 DE. but i am not the capt. so i will just fulfill my duty and play on the offensive line. oh well... actually got TWSA halloween nite. but er... halloween ain't exactly my fav kinda festival... let alone "celebrating" it... so i think i will just drop by for the pumpkin contest maybe but not the others... haha
posted by David at 10/28/2003 01:59:00 PM
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