CRISIS
Was suppose to have finish moving to Martono's house yesterday... I had everything planned out... I even went to check out th apt on Monday to see everything was in order... I did not want to bring Bacha and Hafiz to a place that has some screw up problems.... I checked, everything was in place, and we were on our way to the great moveout.... then things gone terribly terribly wrong....
Bacha got a car from the ever so kind Syawal... we packed all our staff (actually it is mostly Bacha's...) into the car for the first shipment which started immediately after lunch... went to Mart's place.... went to the door, and guess what... the key is not working... can you believe it... those same set of keys that I used to get into his apt just like 3 days ago is not working... so I panicked... I mean if it is just me, then I am alright you noe... coz shit happens.... but right now, I am dragging two other guys into this shit with me... so never mind.... I kept my cool abit and I found out the phone for the landlord... she told me she will come down at 2.15... (it was 1.30 then...) so me and Bacha waited..... and really the best part was just about to start....
the lady arrived around 2.20.... opened the door, and told me that the key I am holding is not the one... anyway she still let me in.... but then.... she told me the best news I had ever heard since Janki told the whole Bayley comm that we were disbanded.... Mary (that lady's name...) told me that Martono's lease will end on the 19 of Aug and not 31..... WOW.... this is sooooo nice.... and where the hell are we going to stay... perfect... all my plans are dashed... and the best part of it was that I had dragged two other people into this HUGGGE pile of shit with me.... nice....very nice.... I was sooo shocked... so where the hell am I going to stay???? and the best part is... that stupid Mart actually have lots of staff that he left in the apt... so now what???? I was suppose to just move in and stay there... and NOW I HAVE TO HELP HIM MOVE!!!!! just very nice.... it was seriously my day....
so never mind.... no choice... so have to go.... we managed to grab some staff for Mart, shoved it into the car and drove back to Markley at around 3 (which was the time I had planned that all the moveouts will be finished and when I will start my revision for my Calculus today.... hahhaha) but cannot.... still need to find a place to stay before we get all chased out from Markley on Saturday rite.... so in the end we thought of Betsy Barbour... a double room will cost 42.40 (w/ tax) for two person.... A DAY!!! no food included.... wat the hell.... so the three of US contemplating staying together in the room and share the cost lahz.... but now is the problem... since we have to pay the rent by cash... it means Dr M won't be paying for Bacha and Hafiz... and without the support of Dr M, they will not be able to afford!!! so this is just very nice.... we had now placed a room for tonite... (Fri) so that we have somewhere to stay first.... and now we have to think of a way to squeeze out the money... just very nice... and I seriously dunnoe how that room will fit all three of us... if it is just the three of us then of course no problem lahz... but will all our luaggages... WOW.... dun even think we have place to stand.... you noe wat I am so pissed about this whole thing??? is not Martono.... Not tat I dun have a place to stay... I am so pissed with myself.... for freaking dragging two other people down with me.... shit.... I dun really plan things.... but when I plan... I expect them to work down to the smallest detail that I had planned.... freak.... I even went to vacuum the apt on monday... coz Mart's place seriously in horrible condition... and I did not want to bring Bacha and Hafiz to such a shit place... and guess what... I got them into more shit.... damn.... it is not a problem of bruised ego... hell... wat ego??? I just dun like things to screw up when I had planned for it... and yes.. I know things do screw up.... but even if does, I dun like to drag ppl down with me.... damn... I was so pissed.... I wanted to help Bacha and Hafiz... and now looks like I got them into more shit and may even need them to help me to find a place....
damn... it is now 2 more hours to my calculus exam... studied till 5 this morning... feel like shit... got back my english final grades... got a B+ overall... which is slightly above expectation... was expecting a B... so right now I am safe... the GPA has gone above 3.2 liao.... now I just pray that I will not screw up again for my Calculus and I will get the expected A+ to my GPA to above 3.4... hell... so far things are always screwing up at the last minute for me.... dunnoe why.... last term also.... was Aceing all my way... then shit happened... but wat to do??? I never complain... coz it is my fault... should have kept my concentration.... if something goes wrong this term again for my grades... I also won't complain... coz it is still my fault.... and I am suffering from it.....get my point??? but I feel really shit for this moving out incident coz like i said so many times... ppl are suffering coz of my fault... if shit happens... I want to suffer the consequence alone... not dragging someone down with me.... hell... I am justed pissed... and worried.... I dun want to stay in the park.... please... somebody help!!!!!
posted by David at 8/16/2002 02:01:00 PM