ok... i am kinda pissed... ok... maybe i was in fault also... but here is how it goes...
an online assignment was due at midnight today... i called a friend of mine and told him that... first he told me that i was dreaming and that it was due on tuesday... ok... then i went online to check it out, and i was right... so i called him again and told him that... so i suggested that the two of us should do the assignment together...ok.... the time was 2 hours before the due time... anyway... he told me that he has some other work to do which is also due midnite that day... that thingy has a one hour time limit... so we AGREED to work on the assignment together... so i started doing the sums... and after an hour, i try to find that person, he is gone... very nice... so i try to do them... so i cannot lahz... okok.. .here is the thing... i know i should not depend on ANYONE for ANYTHING and it was my fault that i delay the work till such late hour....i was doing other works... but then again... now we are talking about something that was AGREED upon... and i am pissed.... and you know what, this is not the first time... but then i let the previous time go coz i know that person is really absent minded... i really really dun care about others... not in a selfish way like i would think... but just that other people are generally not in his consideration... he is always thinking about himself and he will think of some thing to make him guilt free of not thinking about others... and you know what is the best part? he belief SO MUCH in his tale that if anyone challenges his theory, he will get angry... even if that person is not accusing him of anything... so i am pissed... coz i had a bad day... in fact, i had a bad week... i have so much work to do and it never seems to end... i am ALWAYS sitting in front of my desk 24/7 doing my work and i am telling you i am freaking frustrated... and you know what... i am not even preparing for a prelim or any major exam like you JC folks are doing... this is MY LIFE here... and i am pissed... yes... i know i am not here in US to have fun and enjoyment... but all work and no play make ME a very very ANGRY boy... i think it is getting on my nerves... seriously... but then i have no option... i still have to go on... shit... okok... but then again.... i am not as MAD as i sound... i am just frustrated... i need to SHOUT OUT... coz if i keep it inside i will go really mad... this kind of thing will pass... and like i say... i just need to let it out... and you know what... i dun really have someone to talk to about it... i have really really good friends here... really really good... but then they dun know my past... the important part of my past... so i really dunnoe how they can help when i get into this depress/frustration mood... hell... i am on this alone... well... maybe this is wat they call by growing up... hahaha....
I will be fine.... (i hope...) dun worry.... well... wat's the worse that can happen????
posted by David at 9/15/2002 01:16:00 AM