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Wednesday, October 30, 2002
Friday, October 25, 2002
About movin' on
Two incidents...
1. Send a mail to Alim.... and he replied commenting how gay it is for me to use the Rafflesian Principle of Honour as my email signature...
2. Went to Satchi's room and found out that his IM nick is "Proud to be a Wolverine"...
this two incidents really got me thinking... Ben Lee had told me a zillion times about moving on and forget about Raffles... ok... well... i am in a new school... and really i can finally put matters related to RI to rest... after my juniors won the house championship this year... i consider my job done for RI... i dun owe them anything liao... maybe next time if the school calls for me, i try as much as i can to help... but the point is... i just feel i dun have to actively do things for them liao...
but then again... look at people like Satchi... such pride in his school... peopel around me... such pride for this university... so the big question is... WHY have such pride??
I think it would probably boils down to the issue of loyalty... something like supporting a football club... e.g. do you only support a club only coz they are good??? are you only gonna be loyal to it only when it is doing well?? are you going to be with friend and be loyal to a person only coz you have something to gain??? and when situation turns and he became who he no longer is, are you still gonna be your friend?? hmm.... obviously some ppl will say that if a "friend" is no longer who was... then you probably will reconsider the kind of friendship you have with tat person lahz... but call me stupid... call me naive... call me ANYTHING... i still think for the old time sake... he will still be my friend no matter wat... even if he turn his back on me and do all sorts of horrible thing on me... i seriously find it damn difficult to "return him the favor" so to speak... seriously too difficult for me... i think this is kinda very important now... coz i am definitely experiencing such situations now... ppl that i once can totally thrust and depend on are seriously making me suspicious of their credibility now... i dun like to doubt ppl... but if the situation is really obvious that something nasty is going on... er... i am not THAT dumb hor... so obviously i will notice right... so wat should i do??? return him the favor?? ignore him??? or wat??? and also all the info i am getting about how some of the closest ppl i know are changing like mad... and totally not like the way they once where... what do i do??? do i still show they the same amount of loyalty and friendship??? same amount of thrust??? it is damn hard for me to change lahz... so once i call a person to be a friend... it is hard for me to change liao... i must admit i am a little picky when declaring if a person is a friend or not... but once declared.... i really find it difficult to change the "status"... hahaha... tough choice....
Did i digress??? i dunnoe... i just find this whole issue of moving on and "growing up" really a pain in the ass.... you are who you are... why change??? i am 19... going 20.... so wat??? i still enjoy pulling off pranks on people.... making myself look ridiculous and foolish... laugh like a hyena to irritate people.... sing boyband music the way they sound to crack the windows and drive everyone around me insane... throw occasional tempers and mood around just for fun.... so wat about tat???? acting childish??? not grown-up enuff??? not mature enuff??? hahahaha.... pls hor... i really really think life is far too short to think about such things.... so pls... DUN TALK TO ME ABOUT MOVIN ON AND GROWING UP... it's my life... i am who i am... so to put it very very gently to those who want me to "grow-up".... hmm... pls leave me alone... it is better this way.... (or i will bite your leg like a mad dog and chase you away.... hahahahahaha)
being a busy week.... damn tiring... so totally neglected this blog thingy... but now weekend liao... so can spend some time here.... hmm... anything new this week??? not much.... usual stuff... the TIMELESS debate of WHY I DUN HAVE A GALFRIEND.... my roommate Nick and Tearron had officially put me onto their homo-suspicion list... hahahah.... and it really does not help the matter when i told them i came from an all boy school.... never had a gal-friend.... (and of course dun have all the related stuff like kissing etc etc lahz....) and the fact that i scored like 75% on some "how much of a gay are you" test.... hahahah.... yeah right.... i am probably too "horny" to be gay lahz.... eh... dun think dirty hor... just tat i definitely prefer galz to guys... of course my soul mates all guys lahz... but still.... this is the result of not knowing any gal well enough wat.... not my fault right.... anyway.... since Nick and Tearron want to play so i just play with them lahz... hahaha... as if i will turn into a gay just because they suspect i am one... hahahahaha....
My parents back in Singapore liao.... hmm... so??? i also dunnoe... just thought that this is important.... in case i stupid stupid and call them in taiwan again... hahaha... eh... dun laugh... this kind of thingy not say never happen before hor... last time they went back to taiwan and left me in Singapore, i still blur blur and call back to my singapore home to tell them that i was caught in the rain and ask them to bring me umbrella... hahahaha... yes... i am dumb.... HAPPY?!?!?!? hahahhaah....
and btw... i changed the signature of my lycos email account... it is now the chorus of Michigan fighting song.... quite nice leh.... but i still retained the same thing for my Raffles.org account... hey... it is a raffles account... wat you expect??? some horrible lousy motto like "the best is yet to be"??? hahahahahah... YEAH!!!!
posted by David at 10/25/2002 08:32:00 PM
Sunday, October 20, 2002
Hafiz just brought to my attention this really really cool site... it is the MIRROR site of google.... literally... so for those of you that dunnoe.... click on the real google link to see the real thing... then click on the mirror site here to see for yourself and have some laughs!!!!!
posted by David at 10/20/2002 03:31:00 PM
Friday, October 18, 2002
WHAT HAPPENED???
I just had a dinner tonite with two singaporean officials from A*STAR. The dinner was held in this posh Italian restaurant at South Main Street and seriously, after that dinner, i was totally confused on WHY i was there...
I was told that these gentlemen are here to talk to Singaporean students on their view of education in US and what are some things that can be used in Singapore and also to take resume for those interested in joining their scholarship program of something like that... at first i was like,"i am not singaporean or PR... why am i getting this??" then i was told that i should just go down and see what those officials have to say coz they also receive applications for foreign students... ok... I KNOW that my grades are not fantastic YET... and i say the word YET.. but still, i thought why not right... just go there and hear what are the expectations or ANYTHING that these representatives have to say... so i went....
ok... so i am totally confused now coz during the dinner, NOTHING even close to wat i was told happened... no resume was given, no feedback, no NOTHING... in fact one representative was like just chit chatting with these few singaporean SCHOLARS... i mean... look.... these people are scholars already... you have them in the pocket already... you want more people to work for you??? then why the hell aren't you talking to people like me??? alamak... not say i ego or not lahz... but it is OBVIOUS that this particular official is kinda acquainted with these three scholars that he was talking to... and check this out... the whole conversation is really kopitian chitchatting in my opinion... ok... fine... maybe it is an attempt by singaporean officials to be friendly to scholars... but er... HALF WAY ACROSS THE GLOBE and TREATING IDIOTS LIKE ME IN SOME POSH ITALIAN RESTAURANT USING SINGAPOREAN TAXPAYER'S MONEY??? er... is it just ME or is something JUST NOT RIGHT??? now you ppl see why i am totally in a daze when i left the dinner??? SURE... i had a GREAT AND EXPENSIVE DINNER!!! but then again, i am really not there for the food... i had expectations for this meeting... and i am just totally disappointed in this whole business... seriously... i have NO IDEA what it was all about....
but of course this whole incident is not all that bad lahz... i got to talk to this ME professor that is like TOTALLY NICE.... he is so fun to talk to... so i was like talking to him the whole dinner... actually kinda pai seh lahz... he was asking me about whether i have read this report from Stanford about how useless MBA is.... ok... i did read part of it... but i think i sorta give him the impression that i am like totally familiar with it... and he seemed kinda impressed... lol... so sorry... i always feel kinda bad when dealing with nice people like this... when i gave ppl the wrong impression of how good i am... hahaha... seriously... really feel bad... hahahaah
posted by David at 10/18/2002 01:27:00 AM
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
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posted by David at 10/16/2002 10:48:00 AM
Ai seh... went to the library to mug yesterday... hell... dun like it at all.... i mean last time in RI got study in library b4 lahz... but the place feel more comfortable and by being smaller and knowing everyone there feels sooo much better and at ease... but at the graduate library is like totally different lor... ok... fine... i was in this small cubicle all by myself... but still i feel being watched... it is a public building... and i just dun feel alone... or at ease... of course i did some work... (no lahz... actually A LOT of work...) but still... ARRGHH ... i dun like it...
that crazy sniper is going on the hunt again liao... but i just wonder is it sniper or sniperS... kinda scary leh... and to make it better, UofM is having its share of trouble lor... last time got that fraud email that is like super anti-palestinian and i just sense something big is behind it.... hell... the source of that email is traced all the way to california... and why stop there??? scared??? hmm... not good... and with all these pro-Isreal and pro-Palestine rallies going on... seriously... i have reasons to fear for my life.... damn... i mean, look.... UofM is one of the biggest public university in US... if some cranky terrorist want to DO something, this would be one of the beautiful targets to have wat... right??? hmm... think i just a tweeny-weeny paranoid... but then again, i got the right mah.... anyway....
posted by David at 10/16/2002 08:42:00 AM
Monday, October 14, 2002
THE HEATER IS ON!!!
ok fine... call my a wuss... but i was frozen to death yesterday... the temp went down to -3 deg C... i left my room's window open and i was out till like 1 am... damn... i closed my window but the damage was done... and i end up wearing woolen socks and SWEATER to bed... and yes... thermal long pants.... alamak... and was still shivering in my bed till i absolutely got tired and fall into coma... hahah... but YES... the central heating system is now on!!!!!! YIPPPEEE!!!!!
posted by David at 10/14/2002 04:05:00 PM
Saturday, October 12, 2002
Hmm... alone in my room... Tearron and Nick had gone back home for the fall break... Hong had gone to Wisconsin to meet his gal gal... Went gym with Weehong and James yesterday... seriously... i like the way i look AFTER i worked out... hahah.. with the muscle all tensed up... hahaha... man... i set the standard for being a hunk!!! but then again, still not good enough... coz though my biceps are big, they are STILL not define... but wat to do... i never work out regularly... it is like one month very on... then slack like mad for two month... like that i can never get my bicep wat even though the strength is definitely there... alamak...so sad... but hey... just for that few minutes after i worked out... i really like the way my body look... haaha... wah lao... sound damn sicko... lol... sound like some psycho guy who is like self obsessed with his body or something... hahahahaha...
I JUST found out wat the heck was that Friday Five thingy that alanna is putting on her web... hahah...so here is mine...
1. If you could only choose 1 cd to ever listen to again, what would it be?
My Harlem Number 1 CD by Harlem Yu!!!
2. If you could only choose 2 movies to watch ever again, what would they be?
The Godfathers and LOTR
3. If you could only choose 3 books to read ever again, what would they be?
a. Da Di (this is suppose to be orginally an English novel by this author by the name of something Pearl ??? but i read the chinese version and it was translated to this...)
b. Rainbow Six by Tom Clancy
c. Anyone of the book by this Taiwanese author call Liu Yong
4. If you could only choose 4 things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be?
My mom's food, my dad's egg fried rice, my grandma's super oily/salty pork and turnip soup and my own cooking that is done with any item (i.e. sauce, type of cooking equipment, type of flame/cooking machine etc etc...) that i want...
5. If you could only choose 5 people to ever be/talk/associate/whatever with ever again, who would they be?
My Dad, My mom, my grandmas and my grandads
posted by David at 10/12/2002 09:31:00 PM
Thursday, October 10, 2002
PROTEST!!!
This is getting outragous... in Taiwan's Double Ten National Day this year, a designated overseas chinese spoke on behalf of all overseas chinese in the annual STATE ceremony held in front of the Presidential Office. It is an annual tradition that such speaker will speak and I have no objection towards that... BUT... this year, an overseas chinese from Japan was chosen... again, i have nothing against it... what I am protesting is that that speaker made the speech in a DIALECT... hey... and i thought it is a STATE FUNCTION!!! yes... i know that it is a dialect spoke by a lot of taiwanese... but still, even if the president were to speak, he must give a speech in BOTH Mandarine and whichever dialect he wants to... but NO... that speaker spoke in dialect... ok... fine... and here is the best part... SHE CONTINUED HER SPEECH IN JAPANESE!!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! YOU GOT SOME PROBLEM???? YOU FORGOT WHERE YOU ARE NOW??? YOU GOT SOME IDENTITY CRISIS???? YOU ARE ATTENDING THE STATE CEREMONY OF TAIWAN AND REPRESENTING OVERSEAS CHINESE FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD, AND YOU FREAKING SPOKE IN JAPANESE??? ok... let us just for a moment try to ignore the fact that the Japanese had occupied Taiwan for ONLY 50 years.. and till now they have not make a really convincing apology for what they did... fine.... but what is THAT SPEAKER'S PROBLEM??? if she is speaking in her own capacity, i have NO PROBLEM with any freaking language she use... but here is a STATE CEREMONY... you FUCKING AH-BIEN want Taiwan to be recognised internationally as a sovereign state... and yet you allow this kind of JACKASS people to use some language other than what is "YOUR SOVEREIGN STATE'S RECOGNISED OFFICIAL LANGUAGE" to make a speech in such occasion.... THIS IS A DISGRACE TO ALL TAIWANESE BOTH IN THE ISLAND AND ABROAD... there are occasions that allow such speakers to make speech in his/her native language... but not here... she is here as a member of the Overseas Chinese Affair Official in Japan, representing, first of all, THE REPUBLIC OF CHINA (which, the last time i check, DOES NOT INCLUDE JAPANESE AS A OFFICIAL GOVERNEMENTAL LANGUAGE!!!!) and secondly, the overseas CHINESE in Japan... and not JAPANESE that look that chinese, DUN SPEAK chinese, and only speak Japanese... which ever way you look at it, it is wrong... if she CANNOT SPEAK CHINESE, then she should not be giving a speech, I DUN GIVE A FLYING FUCK IF THERE IS ANY POLITICAL MOTIVE BEHIND MAKING HER THE SPEAKER.... THIS IS A FUCKING STATE FUNCTION AND I WANT SOME STANDARDS TO BE OBSERVED AND SOME SELF-RESPECT TO BE MAINTAINED WHEN DOING THINGS THAT CONCERNS NOT JUST SOME DUMBASS POLITICIAN OR PARTY.... in case for those of you that still dun get it... I AM PISSED... it dun matter whether you are pro-unification or independent... by making a speech in a non-governmental language in a STATE FUNCTION, she has offended everyone that loves the REPUBLIC OF CHINA and the island we live in call TAIWAN. THIS IS A FORMAL PROTEST THAT I AM MAKING TOWARDS THE ORGANISOR OF THE DOUBLE-TEN NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION IN MY OWN CAPACITY. I DUN GIVE A DAMN IF PEOPLE THINK I AM DUMB OR FOR THE FACT THAT NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT WHAT I SAY HERE. I AS A PROUD CITIZEN OF THE REPUBLIC OF CHINA HAS BEEN DEEPLY INSULTED BY THIS INCIDENT AND I DEMAND AN EXPLANATION AND APOLOGY FROM ALL PARTIES INVOLVED IN THIS INCIDENT.
P.S. The taiwantank will be now looking for an official way to lodge an complain towards this incident, if you happen to know a way to do this, please email the taiwantank at yll@umich.edu or cool_liu@yahoo.com. Thank You !!!
posted by David at 10/10/2002 02:03:00 PM
Wednesday, October 09, 2002
Something Stupid...
In case you needed further proof that the
human race is doomed through stupidity,
here are some actual label instructions
on consumer goods.
On a SEARS hairdryer: Do not use while
sleeping. ( and that's the only time I have to work on my hair.)
On a bag of Fritos: ..You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details
inside. (the shoplifter special?)
On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would
be how??...)
On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's
"just" a suggestion.)
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on
bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh!)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating."
(...and you thought????...)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but
wouldn't this save me more time?)
On Boot's Children Cough Medicine:"Do not drive a car or operate machinery
after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of
construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with
head-colds off those forklifts.)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and... I'm taking this
because???....)
On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as
opposed to...what?)
On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts:
"Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)
On a child's superman costume: "Wearing of this garment does not enable you
to fly." (I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one.)
On a Swedish chainsaw:"Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or
genitals." (..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)
Contributed by John Lim
posted by David at 10/09/2002 10:52:00 AM
Tuesday, October 08, 2002
The temperature outside now is ONLY about ONE/SATU/YI degree celcius... hmm... remember last time how i use to die when i go back to Taiwan in December... and the lowest temperature back then was still above 10 deg... and most of the time it is around 12 - 15... hmm... i just hope i recover fast enough b4 snow comes down... hmm... this is always the problem with me... i dun really fall sick often... but once i do.. hahah... hell it is man... takes me forever to recover... hmm... and the current workload i have is NOT helping me at all... *sign*...
Got my ear-phone liao... PERFECT!!! heehee... was listening to my music happily in the room and doing my work without interference... well... at least... MINIMAL interferece... hahaha... YIPPEEE!!! but right now i am in the computer lab lahz... coz 1.30 am liao... roommate need to sleep... and i still got tons of work to do... so must come down here... hmm... but heehee.. i got my ear-phone with me... so not too bad siaz!!! hahah... hmm... ONLY need to do my physics assignment and ONLY need to type out my Poli Sci essay... hmm... need to pull of a miracle to night again... hahahahah
posted by David at 10/08/2002 01:40:00 AM
Monday, October 07, 2002
I am still down with fever and bad cough... the weather is killer... supposedly snow will start to fall in 3-4 weeks time... hmm... bad....
Trying to do my practise sums for tomorrow's calculus examination... slept for the whole weekend... was half dead coz of the fever... not on medication... coz i dun like to take medicine... so was drinking lots of water... was feeling much better... but then i think the work on Saturday sorta stretched me kinda thin... hmm... not confident of the cal exam... not enough practise... but trying not to think negative... but still.... just trying to do lahz...
That pair of Jensen ear-phone should arrive by today... can't wait... then can listen to my music without bothering Nick and Tearron... hmm... but then again... did they realise that sometimes their music and TV is bothering me a little??? Oh well... i can't really say much... coz i myself listen to music when i work... so just because listening to R&B music or having the TV flashing all the time bothers me doesn't mean Tearron can't listen to his Tupac or Nick watching his TV when they work right?!?!? so must give and take lahz... in any case with my ear-phone i can probably just bring my Discman and go to the library or something like tat... hmm... but then again... the LONG time psychological barrier of NOT being able to study in my room is.... argh... killer.... but then the choice is obvious... stay in the room and get distracted every other minute and not being able to study... or go somewhere else and be able to concentrate... hmm.... not a really hard choice actually....
posted by David at 10/07/2002 10:42:00 AM
Saturday, October 05, 2002
In Memories of My Grandfather
My grandfather passed away in 1999... which is 3 years ago coz I (i.e. my family) follows the chinese lunar calender... so today, is his death anniversary... hmm... been 3 years liao... seriously... but then depends on how you look at it... 3 years may be nothing to a person but to others it may means a lot...
My grandfather is your really traditional asian grandfather... he really adores me... when I was young, he will always bring me around, and show off to others... seriously... i think he kinda spoilt me... not say i am a big piece of sh*t now lahz... but just that i think i sort of took after his notorious big temper from him, his stubborness and etc etc... my grandfather is a good man... but then again, every man is entitled to some kinda of short-comings... my grandfather has a very good heart... but sometimes the kind of things he do is really puzzling....
But then i really like him... but the screw up things is i guess the puberty thingy tat i was going through at that time kinda make me stayed away from him... he is always scolding people... scolding and cursing... i think he is doing this to get the attention he want... but the more he do that, the more i wanted to stay away from him... kinda like a vicious cycle... really... call it regret?? call it guilt?? i dunnoe... i really should have spend more time with him... sometimes the unforgettable image of him sitting in his room playing card by himself or staring at the ceiling really really kills me... and to think that when i was young i always turn to him when i got into trouble... hmm... and i was not there for him when he needed someone... hmm... i am not crying... the tears kinda dried... everytime i go back to taiwan, walking past his room will always be something i dread... the screw up feeling just kills me... it is like he live on the 2nd floor and mine is on the third... so everytime when i climb the stairs up to my room... definitely will see his room... but only now he is no longer sitting there... no more sound of him banging the table as he curse and swear... no more of him spitting on the floor and letting my mom to wipe it for him...
I miss him... i only dreamt of him twice... but i forgot how it was like in the second time i dream of him... i just remember each time waking up with my pillow soaked... hmm... i chanted a sutra for him early this morning... not that he will need it... coz i noe he is in a good place up there... despite what my grandfather may seems on the outside, he is a great person deep down... that is all that matters... so he is in good place... i am sure... me leh???? hmm... i dunnoe... not a good person yet... not good enough... still must control my temper... the thing now is that i dun ACT when my temper comes up... so that can have two interpretation.... one is that i am getting better... or maybe the fact that i am just numb... but eventually my goal is not to have any feel of anger at all... i can do it... my temper is really the biggest problem that i have... i really must conquer it... then i can say that i am a better person... yupyup...
posted by David at 10/05/2002 09:48:00 PM
Thursday, October 03, 2002
Stupid
A tank was doing his work when he realise (magically... coz he is usually too "care - less" to bother about checking...) that he made a mistake... when he could not find the appropriate equipment to erase the pencil mark, he turn to his roommate and asked :"dude... do you have any rubber to lend me??"
His roommate, upon hearing this, said to the tank :"hey man.. y do you need it for??"
The tank replied:"I need it for my work."
His roommate, upon hearing this, said to the tank again "you gigolo or something?? why in this world would you need RUBBER to do your work???"
The Tank:"..............................." (still in the process of vomitting blood....)
posted by David at 10/03/2002 02:33:00 AM
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