About movin' on
Two incidents...
1. Send a mail to Alim.... and he replied commenting how gay it is for me to use the Rafflesian Principle of Honour as my email signature...
2. Went to Satchi's room and found out that his IM nick is "Proud to be a Wolverine"...
this two incidents really got me thinking... Ben Lee had told me a zillion times about moving on and forget about Raffles... ok... well... i am in a new school... and really i can finally put matters related to RI to rest... after my juniors won the house championship this year... i consider my job done for RI... i dun owe them anything liao... maybe next time if the school calls for me, i try as much as i can to help... but the point is... i just feel i dun have to actively do things for them liao...
but then again... look at people like Satchi... such pride in his school... peopel around me... such pride for this university... so the big question is... WHY have such pride??
I think it would probably boils down to the issue of loyalty... something like supporting a football club... e.g. do you only support a club only coz they are good??? are you only gonna be loyal to it only when it is doing well?? are you going to be with friend and be loyal to a person only coz you have something to gain??? and when situation turns and he became who he no longer is, are you still gonna be your friend?? hmm.... obviously some ppl will say that if a "friend" is no longer who was... then you probably will reconsider the kind of friendship you have with tat person lahz... but call me stupid... call me naive... call me ANYTHING... i still think for the old time sake... he will still be my friend no matter wat... even if he turn his back on me and do all sorts of horrible thing on me... i seriously find it damn difficult to "return him the favor" so to speak... seriously too difficult for me... i think this is kinda very important now... coz i am definitely experiencing such situations now... ppl that i once can totally thrust and depend on are seriously making me suspicious of their credibility now... i dun like to doubt ppl... but if the situation is really obvious that something nasty is going on... er... i am not THAT dumb hor... so obviously i will notice right... so wat should i do??? return him the favor?? ignore him??? or wat??? and also all the info i am getting about how some of the closest ppl i know are changing like mad... and totally not like the way they once where... what do i do??? do i still show they the same amount of loyalty and friendship??? same amount of thrust??? it is damn hard for me to change lahz... so once i call a person to be a friend... it is hard for me to change liao... i must admit i am a little picky when declaring if a person is a friend or not... but once declared.... i really find it difficult to change the "status"... hahaha... tough choice....
Did i digress??? i dunnoe... i just find this whole issue of moving on and "growing up" really a pain in the ass.... you are who you are... why change??? i am 19... going 20.... so wat??? i still enjoy pulling off pranks on people.... making myself look ridiculous and foolish... laugh like a hyena to irritate people.... sing boyband music the way they sound to crack the windows and drive everyone around me insane... throw occasional tempers and mood around just for fun.... so wat about tat???? acting childish??? not grown-up enuff??? not mature enuff??? hahahaha.... pls hor... i really really think life is far too short to think about such things.... so pls... DUN TALK TO ME ABOUT MOVIN ON AND GROWING UP... it's my life... i am who i am... so to put it very very gently to those who want me to "grow-up".... hmm... pls leave me alone... it is better this way.... (or i will bite your leg like a mad dog and chase you away.... hahahahahaha)
being a busy week.... damn tiring... so totally neglected this blog thingy... but now weekend liao... so can spend some time here.... hmm... anything new this week??? not much.... usual stuff... the TIMELESS debate of WHY I DUN HAVE A GALFRIEND.... my roommate Nick and Tearron had officially put me onto their homo-suspicion list... hahahah.... and it really does not help the matter when i told them i came from an all boy school.... never had a gal-friend.... (and of course dun have all the related stuff like kissing etc etc lahz....) and the fact that i scored like 75% on some "how much of a gay are you" test.... hahahah.... yeah right.... i am probably too "horny" to be gay lahz.... eh... dun think dirty hor... just tat i definitely prefer galz to guys... of course my soul mates all guys lahz... but still.... this is the result of not knowing any gal well enough wat.... not my fault right.... anyway.... since Nick and Tearron want to play so i just play with them lahz... hahaha... as if i will turn into a gay just because they suspect i am one... hahahahaha....
My parents back in Singapore liao.... hmm... so??? i also dunnoe... just thought that this is important.... in case i stupid stupid and call them in taiwan again... hahaha... eh... dun laugh... this kind of thingy not say never happen before hor... last time they went back to taiwan and left me in Singapore, i still blur blur and call back to my singapore home to tell them that i was caught in the rain and ask them to bring me umbrella... hahahaha... yes... i am dumb.... HAPPY?!?!?!? hahahhaah....
and btw... i changed the signature of my lycos email account... it is now the chorus of Michigan fighting song.... quite nice leh.... but i still retained the same thing for my Raffles.org account... hey... it is a raffles account... wat you expect??? some horrible lousy motto like "the best is yet to be"??? hahahahahah... YEAH!!!!
posted by David at 10/25/2002 08:32:00 PM