Actually i dun noe why i am such "GOOD" mood now... seriously... feel relax... not doing anything... while in actual fact... my ass is burning like crap... i am the biggest ass in this whole... seriously... just yesterday, i went to my calculus exam WITHOUT MY CALCULATOR... WOW... i am so proud of myself... coz this is the SECOND TIME IN A ROW LIAO.... brilliant... just brilliant... you see, the point about the calculator is not the calculator itself... it is the "CHEAT SHEET" tat i put in MY calculator... see... everyone gets to bring a 3"x5" notecard with all the info they can squeeze onto both side of tat card... which DUH... includes the formulas, example questions.. etc etc... beautiful... so i did my exam without tat crap... tat crap which took me 2 hours to do... the essence of my whole bloody revision... brilliant... i am over-joyed... so i did my exam with a borrowed calculator from the GSIs... and of course without my cheat sheet... hahah... beautiful... i love myself to DEATH man... REALLY!!!
And work is just beautiful too... econ midterm is coming up next... wednesday... you noe the crap about econ? we had TWO in class test so far... the first one was tat crappy simple supply and demand curve basic stuff... which was easy... i studied.. HELL YEAH i studied... and if you include my memories of tat topic still fresh as new from RJC 2001, that will be the second time i studied tat crap... and WOW... i bombed that test... brilliant... and to rub salt, i was below the class mean... CRAP... ok fine.. so work hard laaa... so i studied for the SECOND one... which was elasticity... BEAUTIFUL... i dun really get like half of the questions... the basic i noe laaa.. but somehow i dun FEEL wat i was doing... ya noe wat i'm saying???? it is like i just PLUG the values into this framework tat just stick in my brain... but dun exactly noe how the BEEP it works... unlike the basic crap... so i was not confident at all... but i noe i can nail it... and yesh... i nailed it... FULL MARK... and guess wat... the so did most of the class... beautiful... the class mean was 10.5 out of 12... wonderful... ya see.. i dun give a HOOT about wat the class did... i wanna get the mark i deserve... how come i screw up on the first one??? i am NOT SUPPOSE to screw up when i am not ready to screw up... ok... this dun make sense to ya all right?!?!? kk... put it this way... let say ya study k??? how do you noe when to stop??? you dun CHEW AND HUG the book all day long right??? so when do you stop??? well.. i would think that one should stop when one feel tat he can do watever question that he was given (i.e. the questions at the back of the chapter...) and KNOW wat he is doing... coz unless you use such a judgement... er... you are just wasting your time stressing yourself out... RIGHT??? TAT IS PRECISELY MY POINT... i knew my material for quiz 1 inside out, inch by inch just like i noe pamela anderson's body... (ooops... hahaha... bad example... but ya get wat i mean?!?!? dun ya?? hahah) and i screwed tat quiz up... i did like not just questions from the homework, but also in the textbook itself... (coz ya noe mah... first few week extra ON one... hahah) and for quiz two, i only LOOK thru the HW... WoW... beautiful.... so with an midterm this wednesday, which should i cover??? the one which i KNOW or the one which i SCOREd... taking into considerations tat there are 2 more chapters other than this two crap... ??!?!?!? time is running out... and so is my mood for studying....
and next we go to IOE 201... ah... beautiful course... just beautiful... screwed my midterm... no one to blame but myself... i was trying SOOO HARD to memorise the FORMULAS... tat i ignored other details... wat details??? LIKE WAT ARE THE CORRECT CRAP VALUES TO PLUG INTO MY FORMULA!!!! and ya noe wat is the REAL beautiful part??? I DUN NEED TO MEMORISE TAT CRAP FORMULA... i should instead just use tat (P/A,i,n) thingy... dun make sense??? SAME HERE... i thrust formula... formula is my best friends... tat crap dun make sense to mean even though they mean the same thing and is basiclly a short cut for the calculations... best... just best... so well... i plugged in the wrong formula... too nervous coz it was like only the 4 week of a 16 week term... and i am already having a MIDterm... and nightmares from last sem is still haunting me.... so i rushed thru the paper... and only when i reached the last question did i paused to think about wat crap values i am getting... e.g. invest 1000 with an interest rate of 12% compounding daily and i can get 10 million dollar in 4 years... wait a minute... tell me where i can get such a good deal ?!??! DARN... so i went back to redo the whole crap... managed to salvaged as much crap as i could... but i forgot to recalculate some of the actual interest rates used and just plugged the APR for calculations... i am sooo screwed... and couple with tons of UNEXPLAINED... WHY... SHOW... comments scribbled in red ink all over my paper... hahahah... i am just over-joyed...and the HW... crap... HW grades are getting from bad to worse... some how i always dun get the theory fast enuff to apply them into the hw... but i try... so 60% screwed... but hey... got do ok... so must clap for me... so check with other guys for tat remaining 60% laaa... but you think my team all genius issit... hell no... we screwed up the hw2 together... hahah... and the beautiful part was??? while trying to rush out the draft for the team project, one of my teammate actually said "i dun give a crap about this 2 credit course... i got more credits to worry about...." WOWOWOWOOOWOWO... this is SOOO comforting to noe tat you are doing a project with someone with this attitude... but i am just praying tat guy was just stressed out.. please.. DUN TELL ME OTHER WISE -pull out my swissknife-
I am soooo dead... ya all get the picture of this whole BS??? i am NOT focused enuff... period... i lack the concentration... so the big question IS??? WAT THE CRAP WAS I THINKING??? wat is distracting??? nonononon.... no girl this time... girls are OUT... but tat dun mean guys are IN... buzz off... nononon... no loud music... Tearron is still MIA... nonononono... not EXACTLY falling sick... but i AM getting sore throat now and then..... and tat is kinda irritating... so wat is it?!!?! wat is SOOOO bloody distracting??? well... nothing really.... GET IT??? NOTHING!!!!! argh i hate myself... i just dun feel the DRIVE... i am like all packed up and good to go... but i dunnoe why i am just not KICKING IT!!! it is probably like IMPOTENCY... i noe my aim... i wanna kick ass... i wanna screw the courses... but i am JUST NOT KICKING IT!!! lazy??? er... probably... but i got do my homework wat... but the focus is just not there... like i am suffering from tat attention difficiency syndrome or something... crap... i need to get this crap over and done with ASAP... considering going to meijer to buy some health supplement to eat... yeah... might just try it... NOPE... i am not screwing around with my body... no booze no drug no nothing.. esp no booze... without the exercise i had in spring and summer i am already feeling the unhealthy effect liao... booze is only gonna make it worse... so no booze... yesh... so i'll see how... SEE... this is the whole point... right now the destiny is really in my hand... unlike some crappy game slogan... hahaha... so yeah... it is really up to me man... we'll see...
posted by David at 2/07/2003 10:04:00 PM