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Saturday, September 20, 2003
HECK!!!! I had like 9 shots of hard liqour (barcardi? vodka? no idea wat shit Ron poured me...) and 11?!? cups of beer? like i am suppose to be REALLY drunk, but i still managed to share a piece of my mind with Tien Huei, and WALKED... get this... WALKED back to Baits for half an hour from Central Campus. Like i am suppose to bo freaking wasted by now and like dying somewhere along the street coz i am suppose to be so drunk. Yet, i am so angry now coz i am not doing tat, i can still think logicaly, type precisely and as if i am not drunk. dammit... WAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!
posted by David at 9/20/2003 03:41:00 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
yet again, i am procrastinating and blogging. hahah, blogging takes all the blame for me not wanting to do my work. A combination of super spicy diet over the past few days and total lack of sleep has finally resulted in me having a bad throat and a worse nose. Not feeling well at all, so i went to bed early yesterday at 2am. MUAHHA... did i just said tat going to bed at 2am is consider EARLY?!?! seriously man, this is quite sad, but with so much readings to do, sleeping 3-4 hours is not uncommon ya noe. But once i start to fall sick, tat is a different matter all together and so i need to figure out how to eat fast, yet healthy so tat i can enjoy the JOY of staying up late into the nite (or should i say EARLY into the morning and see the sun rising?!?! MUAHAHAH)
Reading really alot. It is not like read oledi then ok you noe. I keep telling myself, if i am gonna do poli sci for a living, then HELL i have to know my shit well and inside out. So right now i am doing my readings REALLY REALLY slowly. It is not as if i used to just whack thru my readings and forget everything. no. I have pretty good memory of wat i read when i used to read like 3 times faster. but it is kinda like a very broadstroke of wat is going on. so now i am trying to read more slowly, hopefully more carefully also, so i can remember the details more clearly. Hopefully by doing so I can learn more. If it really dun work out, then i will switch back to my usual method after the trail period ends after the first midterm. Wat happen to my usual philosophy of if-it-aint-broke-i-am-too-goddamn-lazy-to-fix-it ???? hmm... i oso dunnoe. maybe i just really really dun wanna screw things up and wanna make a real serious effort of making things better. hopefully things work out. we'll see.
Ok. So the Taiwantank is getting sick again. So let's blog abt something interesting to lighten up the mood and spirit shall we?!?! YES YES!!! and wat else can be more interesting, more joy and brings up the spirit of every male than the talk/though of galz?!?!? YEAH BABY BRING IT ON!!!
let's start with something i promised to blog the last time round, abt women and age. No, not gonna talk abt how woman look more disgusting as they age. in fact, it is abt women and how as guys age, they look different to them. Ok, you noe last time you can look at girls and kinda tell roughly if they are your age or something like tat? from the way they behave, like if they more mature than you, then they are probably older or vice versa... but it is just something i observed lah. but this system of observation of figuring out if a girl is around ya age dun seem to be working nowadays you noe. like when i worked in ILL. The girls there all look (to me) like fella college girls n should be around my age. Then to my surprise (and a little horror actually...), one of them is like married (then divorced) oledi, the other one is married also and into the mid 30s and one more is going back to school after a break of 2 yrs to do her masters. HMMMM... so all these ppl are at least half a decade older than me. and in the first case, which i initially just tot of her as one of those party college girl, is like a decade older than me!!! how shocking is this? have i come to an age where every young woman on the street is gonna look like MY AGE (i.e. my range... if ya noe wat i mean... hahah) ?!?!?!?!?! so the range is like from 15 - 30 all look compatible. wah lao eh... something is seriously wrong. any guys out there have any idea abt it?!
hmm... the lower range of the age thing is kinda off. a 20 yr old guy after a 15 yr old girl is kinda off. REALLY OFF. but rite now, there is a 22 yr old guy going after a 17 yr old girl tat i noe of. so we are still tokking the same proportion of age rite?!?! so this brings me to the next pt abt older men HUNTING/PREYING on younger girls. kk, to be more precise. SENIORS preying/hunting on freshies. i mean this is damn common rite? takes two to tangle. freshie girl need someone to look after, and old senior need company. sound damn off rite? kk... so you basically know my pt of view on this. some ppl just argue things like "aiya, can click wat so wat is wrong with tat?" kk... tat is ALWAYS the excuse those guys use. can click can click... f off lah!!! 99% of the time is just coz the freshie is hot and pretty onli lah you Fcuk face. of course there are exceptions lah so got tat 1%. but most of the time is purely superficial lah. can click my ass lah. freshie sitting there listening to all your thoughtful insight on how college life is dun consider as clicking lah you dick. kk... getting very psych up now. coz i really think those ppl are losers you noe. can't impress girls from their own batch/year so must prey on younger ones. tat is like how sad?! and worse, they are so proud and full of it. parading their new prey around as if they very good/impressive. but pls lah... you guys noe how many ppl are luffing behind ya?! no doubt having a pretty girl beside ya as you slowly walk down South U does make ppl envious lah, but PLS GET SOMEONE YOUR OWN AGE!!! argh. low standard, cannot make it.
but then again. who really gives a shit rite? as long as got hot chic who really care rite? like Nik say, if can cover the face and fire the base, wat is wrong with going after younger girls rite? i mean this is a superficial world. takes two to tango, so if the freshie want a "dependable" (honey i need to go meijer! sure dear, be there in 5 minutes to pick ya up in my second-hand '91 Honda Civics-- very dependable.), "happening" (knows like everyone and got access to frat parties) and "smart" (come, let me tell you a story... when i was a freshie...) and the guys just wanna have a hot chic to get him thru his last cruel winter here in Michigan, then why should any asshole like me bother with them rite?!?! aiya... i very super diplomatic one ok. classic example. I sat in the bubble tea the other day, totally bored until cannot make it while a senior try like siao to impress a freshie girl. kk... this girl really look quite good. a lot of senior very onZ abt her. she looks pretty even for my super stringent criteria. very nice eye, face shape look nice (i dun like the sunken cheek type lah... so... kinda like Kyoko Fukada face shape, but just a little less fat.) and pretty cheerful personality. but nope, still not my type, coz she too sophisticated and obviously too damn rich liao. trying to hit on this type of ppl just make me feel stupid. so yeah, i was just there sitting coz i promised to go back with her to bursley together. of course she ask me to go first lah, but aiya, not as if i go back to my room got anything to do. and secondly, i really dun think it is a good idea to let a girl go back by herself this late at nite lah. So anywae, sat there like a freaking extra (no... i WAS an extra!!!) until 2am until tat guy oso damn tired liao (Andy came into bubble island towards the last ten minute so i manage to divert my attention somewhere else instead of suppressing the burning desire of laughing at how silly tat senior is as he try so hard to impress... *evil*). but yeah... the whole experience only reaffirm my believe just how annoying it is for a senior to prey on the freshies. very annoying
kk. so wat is the conclusion of this suppose to be spirit-lifting blog entry? so we have learn today that i am at a weird time of my life when all female looks like the within my range, and also the fact tat it is a despicable crime to prey on freshies (and the fact tat there are alot of hot/sweet/nice/decent taiwanese freshies out there... MUAHAHAH... EAT THIS YOU SINGAPOREANS HERE IN UofM!!!). So wat is the conclusion again? the Taiwantank is still leading a very enriching life just pio-ing girls and being cynical on this whole issue of BGR and relationship. He is making steady progress in terms of being more comfortable around girls but the fact still remains tat most girls find him sexually unattractive and a weirdo. MUAHAHHAAHAH... actually no one has dare risk their life to say tat to my face but basically tat is the kind of vibe and info i gathered from the way they treat me. well, anywae, Econ 401 hw awaits and the lecture is in 1hr 40 minutes. Shall i try to make an attempt to do it (think i really should) or pull my hair out on wat to eat for lunch. (shit man, i actually got cooked packed fried rice for lunch today, but i woke up late (coz seriously not feeling too well) and rush outta my room without taking the thing from my fridge... didn't even take shower in the morning, but luckily i took it last nite b4 i go to bed... heng ah... MUAHAHAH) hmm... i think this is wat i am gonna do. I shall spend the next 5 minute scan thru the HW, then go to OH after this to try to fish something outta my GSI. when all else fails, i shall give dear Yikai a buzz... MUAHHAHAHA... but tat still dun solve the problem of makan... *scratch itchy hair* (just kiddin... how to have itchy hair when you are botak?!?! you retard MUAHAHHA)
posted by David at 9/10/2003 11:30:00 AM
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
Will the REAL TAIWANTANK please stand up?!?!
Just got back to my room after going over to a friend's place to seek help on Econ 401. Before i get into business, let me just say that Econ 401 really blows and note to self, DUN EVER EVER EVER ADD ICE INTO YOUR HOT COFFEE IN THE MORNING EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE TRYING TO RUSH FOR CLASS!!! by doing so, it gives you really really bad stomach tat last you a good half day!!! kk... to business!!
While in my friend's room, he suddenly popped this out "Hey dave, wat happened to you? The impression you gave to me when i first met you was like you are a genius?!?! wat happened?" hmm... i wonder... (I REALLY should not be blogging now, coz i have 401 HW due tomorrow at 12 and need to type a response for Poli Sci 369 online discussion... but you noe me... when i get into this mood of self discovering, nth can stop me... so here i go...)
Tat friend of mine is definitely not the first person to say such kind of things abt me. It seems that I always give ppl a kind of first impression that they later found that i dun live up to it. I really lost count of how many times i had "let ppl down". From My chem teacher in RI whom i did not delivered a A1 for and thus went hiding from her for almost a yr until i went back to say goodbye b4 i came to US and asked for her forgiveness, to my folks for not doing well enuff academically, not able to get into 9 sub class (miss the cut by 0.2pt), not able to get all A in Olevel, not able to get into RJ, not able to do engineering etc etc. Then you have the most recent experience of me failing to live up to the expectation of 3 ppl i used to fondly call friends coz i was not the suitable roommate they had thought i would be. One year of impression and experience with me totally shattered (from their pt of view) within a period of less than a month. And of course, now this friend of mine. WHY?!?!
I neva try to package myself in front of others or anything like tat. I am who I am. And i pride myself in being true to myself and do things the way i want to do and not add any pretence to it. If tat is the case, why am i having so much trouble living up to the expectation of everyone? (including myself at times...)
I will perfectly understand why this is so, IF i had set high goals for myself or impress upon ppl that i am zai and god-like. But tat was seriously neva the case. However, I do believe that i am a person with a lot of potential. Call it arrogant or wateva, I know i can achieve things when i set my minds to it. Even though i had met with devastating results recently beginning with my failure to get into RJ and now deciding tat i am just not the engineering material even though i tried my best to do things, i am still confident that should i focus my attention, i can do wat i wanna do/achieve.
However, this is still some great difference between me meeting my own potential and meeting the kind of expectation others have of me. And worse, some of the expectations were formed coz of the first impression i give to ppl. Amazing ya noe. Like i have mentioned several million times in this blog. The kind of impression i give to ppl is UNBELIEVABLE!!! from antisocial, to cheerful, to playful, to smart, to "bo chap" (can't be bothered), to this n to that... i seems to have form a different kind of first impression in every different ppl i met. AMAZING EH?!?!?!
So who's fault is it really that i have time and again disappointed those around me coz i fail to live up to the first impression i gave to them? perhaps i had tried deliberately to give them tat kind of false impression? or wat? i dun think i have, but maybe i did. Tat friend of mine probably thought highly of me coz of the kind of things i did in RI. Of course i did those things. SO?! it is still the same old taiwantank tat worked his ass off in Bayley house comm as to the Taiwantank tat is freezing his butt off here in UofM wat... so WHY is this happening?!!?!
A different layout was suppose to be under construction with the help of another friend of mine, but so far no news of it yet. So blogs like this, where i would greatly appreciate feedbacks and ppl slapping things back to my face will remain the way it has always been... a monologue... MUAHAHHA... but yeah... for those of you who knows my email n stuff, pls drop me a note telling me wat ya think. Dun just read oledi then neva comment. for other posts it is fine. but not for this kind... since i am like pushing my other priorities aside and put so much energy into this. So pls... hola me back yeah?!!??!
posted by David at 9/09/2003 12:06:00 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Prof Hays (at the beginning of lecture at 2.30): "Hmm... as you can see, this classroom is not very well suited for the amount of people present here. I had planned for a class of less than 80 people. But obviously we have more than 120 here. So, either most of you have to drop this class or I will need to find a new classroom. Thus, I shall take the first step of giving you a good idea of what this class is all about, and hopefully in the process, convince most of you to drop the class."
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Prof Hays (at the end of the shortened lecture at 3.30): "Oh... i would suggest that you guys go pick up the books fast from the bkstores. You have around 60 pages to read before the next class on Thursday. Alternatively, you can always drop this class!!! Have fun with the readings *evil laughter*...."
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dun ya just love the kind of Professors UofM has?!?! MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 9/02/2003 06:32:00 PM
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posted by David at 9/02/2003 02:06:00 AM
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