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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
shit man... missed 401 this morning. really cannot hear the alarm clock oledi. mental weakness dammit, argh, somebody give me a slap!!! (but onli at around 7am to wake me up... or you'll get it...)
review for 102 is on its final stretch. not as on schedule as i hope it would be. should have cover the previously done hws last nite (or should i say this morning...) but i can't get past the review notes of chapter 7. went cranky so productivity drop like mad. at the advise of ivan, did the extra readings for a while, finish them and now i am left with 2 more pages to go. tonite is gonna be fun man...
after tonite, tomorrow, wednesday need to chiong 401 hw again. in fact after lecture tomorrow i better go for OH. if not i sure die one next thursday. or is the midterm on tuesday? darn crap. then still got poli sci readings to do oso... yup, you noe wat tat means, no sleep and going insane very soon.
friday got flag football. tat is the onli thing on the agenda for tat day. coz 102 discussion cancelled after midterm this week and prof lieberthal's lunch session is cancelled since he need to go funneral. i think i should still play DE. even though Epol seems to be doing a good enuff job... getting 2 guys to pressurise the QB is more effective in making him misthrow coz i think we still need to work on the coverage at the back. so i think at least for next game, we need 2 DE. but i am not the capt. so i will just fulfill my duty and play on the offensive line. oh well... actually got TWSA halloween nite. but er... halloween ain't exactly my fav kinda festival... let alone "celebrating" it... so i think i will just drop by for the pumpkin contest maybe but not the others... haha
posted by David at 10/28/2003 01:59:00 PM
Monday, October 27, 2003
i think this kind of trip hor, the biggest problem is always the commitment part. once you get ppl to commit oledi, then things should just follow. kk, logistic oso very worrying. but if commitment level is there, tat can be overcomed. getting 5-7 ppl to fly over to the same place all by themselves is a little bit of a logistic headache. imaging, 5 ppl, let say teddy and whoever UofM guy can't make it for the trip, then anna, beatrice, andrew and me will all be connected onli thru armhawan. man... i think tat guy will find himself in a Pig Eight Prohibit looking at mirror situation and get caught among us big big time. so tat's y i think impt for me to rope in two of my kaki in oso to take some flame off tat dude. hahah... but tat is the worse scenario lah, dun worry armhawan, i won't let tat happen to you. i shall silence any trouble maker before anything can happen. MUAHAHAHAH.
Think this is a welcoming diversion from the fire tat is currently burning my ass. looks like i am gonna miss out on another 401 hw tonite again. coz need to study for Econ 102. or maybe i will just squeeze out an hour or two to just chunk some stuff into the paper to at least have some thing to submit and at least see the maths tat is going on abit. if not... next week midterm i think i am going to cry again... sigh... Thanx to Ivan, 102 is getting back on track. tonite should be done with all the revisions and move onto redoing of the hws. hopefully can sleep by 4 tonite. by the time get off work and get back home and settle down at least 11 liao. spend 2 hour max to finish the readings. 1 oclock oledi. slakc abit and do some econ 401 hw abit, 2 hr. hmm... like tat 3 oclock oledi so tat means wont be able to sleep by 4... hmm... so looking at 5 instead... wah lao eh... siiong man. can tahan or not?! i wonder... so i think must be more power pack abit lor... no choice... sigh...
posted by David at 10/27/2003 09:36:00 PM
planner for the cali trip this dec.
Stage 1 : Road to Hollywood
estimated time of departure: One or two days after the last paper on 19 Dec. Reach LA to get armahwan
to do list before that: Get armahwan to confirm the commitment of his 3 friends, anna, beatrice and andrew. one flying in from NY, one from singapore and one from Leeds. tough job, so must leave to armhawan. not because he is good in handling tough jobs, but becoz i dun want to do it. MUAHAHAHAHAH. deadline for it 22 Nov
on my part, planning to drive down to St Louis to get teddy to commit to this. oso, trying to rope one guy here from UofM to come with me to it. should be doing it around 16-17 Nov. so can meet the deadline for 22 Nov with armhawan.
scouting for air tix. but i think tat will have to wait till after 22 Nov coz need to confirm when to go down and the schedule of others oso. but no harm looking around abit for air tix. but i think 200 bucks won't run away. but of course, other alternatives are oso on the table. if got like 4-5 days in between my last paper and when the other folks go over to LA, then perhaps i can even drive there?!?!?! MUAHAHHAHAH
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Stage 2: Operation Cali-nator (tentative coz it is really too lame even for me liao...)
Period: Anytime between 21 Dec to 4 Jan.
things to do b4 tat: find out where the hell to go in Cali. Jeff oledi offered verbally to show us around if we go Bay area. thanx so much dude!!! but other than tat, my instinct tells me that it is very likely tat we are just gonna rent like two cars, arm with a map and some crappy tour guide book and just bump our way around cali or something... hohoho... this is a bit insane... maybe we should like assign some reading for everyone then we pick up some of those spots and do some pretrip agreement on wat kind of stuff we wanna do there... if not... i think it is gonna be very troublesome and potentially very problematic... hahahahah
posted by David at 10/27/2003 09:05:00 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2003
Just read this BS...
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WASHINGTON (Reuters) - The United States, which has just implemented a program requiring foreign students to register when they enter the country, now wants to charge a $100 registration fee, a senior official said on Wednesday.
Asa Hutchinson, undersecretary for border and transportation at Homeland Security, said the department is proposing a one-time $100 payment from each foreign student who registers in the Student and Exchange Visitor Information System (SEVIS).
"The fee will generate over ($30) million that will be used for system maintenance, personnel to work with schools and for compliance efforts," Hutchinson said in a speech to the U.S. Chamber of Commerce (news - web sites).
The visa registration program is part of an effort to improve records on foreign visitors, including students, after the Sept. 11, 2001 hijacked plane attacks on the United States. All 19 hijackers entered the country on valid visas -- and two on student visas -- but many had stayed beyond their expiration dates.
In a briefing with reporters after the speech, Hutchinson said the department needs the money to fund efforts that will ensure compliance with the system.
He said "thousands and thousands" of leads were being generated from the program, but the department needed to have the investigative ability to sift through that information and see what was worth pursuing.
In its first full year of operation more than 800,000 foreign students and exchange visitors registered with SEVIS.
Hutchinson said more than 200 students were refused entry when their visa information did not match up with information provided by the school they were supposed to attend.
Although Hutchinson said the department believed the students "posed a risk to America and our way of life," he said they were not necessarily terrorists but were refused entry because they were trying to come in under false pretenses.
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this is some serious BS man... y do we have to fork out the extra cost? we are already the so call CLEAN people after being scrutinised and get fucked over by the officials in the respective ambassys. if we are clean and consider to be of no treat, why the hell do we have to fork out the extra money to provide security for this foreign country? ok, from an govt point of view, this is all very convenient. if they charge it on their own citizens, ppl start to complain and lobby against. but if they charge it to foreign students like us with no political backings? we just have to take wateva shit they give to us and shut the fuck up. you call this fair? no man... this is load of BS. this kind of treatment towards foreign ppl just reminds me of the One party in australia lead by tat hanson woman. all the shit goes to foreigner, all the blame goes to them. come on man, civilisation has evolved for so many centuries oledi and yet we are still using such low tactic towards ppl. argh... isn't this disgusting?
my anger towards the establishment seems to be getting stronger and stronger. the way i see it, govt are just packed with too much assholic ppl making all tat stupid decisions tat are making the whole govt image into some kind of circus and backsliding the progress of human civilisation. you see foolish policies like the one mention above, and you see how fucked up bush went to war against iraq even though it is clear that there is no WMD and who the hell are they to act like the police of the world when even the rest of the world dun think they should do it? yeah, iraqi ppl suffering under saddam, but so are many other countries in africa and in asia under their authoritarian leaders. y dun you go attack each of these countries one by one? fuck you, all you want is oil and just coz you got the freaking muscle, you use it. good for you asshole, let's see how long you can push your weight around and force things to be done your way all the time. and not just in US govt, singaporean govt with their social democracy theory, and taiwanese govt tat does nth but fucking fatten their own wallets and do nth to the dying economy. if human beings are gonna be ruled by this kind of silly ppl, it is just an insult to our intelligence and me might as well all go back to the caves and screw the govt, since they are just parasites tat suck our blood (taxes) and make themselves fat and yet run away faster than anyone else if anything goes wrong. you think Ah Bien is going to be there at the frontline fighting those communist if one day we provoke china enough for them to nuke us or something? shit, it is the common ppl tat dun get to buy those expensive airtix tat is gonna stay and die in Taiwan. all those assholic politicians are all gonna be on their way to US and seek political asylum and fight the war from abroad. wat bullshit. to let 21 million taiwaneses' life be determined by the bunch of assholes is just too dangerous and should not be the way. i dun mind being the first one to eat bullet and get nuked for taiwan if those fucking commies are gonna attack taiwan, but i will neva die a clean death if tat happens becoz some fucking politicians with small penis problem incited the crisis in order to serve their own puny little political goals. never
posted by David at 10/23/2003 06:42:00 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Brian Mcknight - One Last Cry
My shattered dreams and broken
Heart are mending on the shelf.
I saw you holding hands standing so close to someone else.
Now I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone.
I'd give my best to you
Nothing for me to do?..
But have one last cry.
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind,this time-
Stop living a lie.
I guess I'm down to one last cry.
I was here,you were there.
Guess we never could agree.
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me.
Still, I sit all alone,
Wishing all my feelings were gone.
Gotta get over you?.
Nothing for me to do?..
But have one last cry.
I know I gotta be strong,
But 'round me
Life goes on and on and on, and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have my one last cry.
posted by David at 10/22/2003 03:26:00 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
let's tok about nature today. dun ask me why. but i shall be a tree hugger today... in some sense.
yesterday's weather was exceptionally good. even though i froze my ass off when i woke up at 7 to prepare for my econ 102 class. by 10 oclock after i got out of the lecture, i had to start stripping down to my tshirt and was wishing i was wearing my berms. and it was onli 24 degree max yesterday. guess tat has to do with the theory of relativity. after getting frozen for so many days, the slight change in temperature in the RIGHT direction triggered such a feeling. obviously, human beings like me ain't the onli one sensing such change. and perhaps it was a change tat proved to be too much or something, but insects just start appearing all over the place from out of nowhere.
kk... not say annoyed by those insects so i mentioned them lah... but among them, the most noticable one are the ladybirds. all sorts of color one... black, red and yellow one flew all over the place doing nth but fly around you (or is it just me... but i got bath in the morning wat...) kk... so tat was yesterday. then wat happened today? they all died... i woke up this morning and go to toilet to do my morning rituals, and the floor is just full of those ladybirds. counted at least 7 of them even without my specs on. think this is quite sad lor. i dunnoe wat is the normal life span of ladybirds, but i am sure it is longer than 24 hours rite?! so obviously the reason y they all just died overnite must be coz of the sudden drop in temp in the WRONG direction this time round.
think mother nature is damn evil. obviously these poor bugs appeared from nowhere thinking tat warm weather is here after all tat cold nonsense. and yet, after enjoying one day of fun annoying ppl like me, they suffered the wrath of nature and died. i mean, by now they should not even be around rite?! i mean michigan weather is different, there is hardly no fall here. the weather kinda switch from summer straight into winter. so the onli fall we get is days like yesterday. and apparently those poor bugs got TRICKED into thinking the nice weather is here and came out to play. think this is damn sad. and i think this apply to other things oso
the role of government. kk... cast away all those conspiracy theory of how uncle sam or uncle lee is watching over you aside. (yes, we all noe they are true, just tat we can't exactly prove it.. MUAHAH) but those pretty obvious things tat govt are doing to fool you or to get things done their way is kinda like wat mother nature did to those bugs rite?! govt give you some BS statistics, give you false hope of the economy, then you go out to buy stocks like Enron or Temasek holdings, then if everyone buy enuff, consumer confidence high enuff and ppl purchase enuff, we might just escape some crap recession. if not, oops too bad, then they throw at you all sorts of nonsense explanations which common folks sitting in kopitiam have no idea wat tat is all about one. so wat are you suppose to do? average ppl can onli noe so much, and handle so much info. even for college students, we mug like siao, do all the readings, but how many of us can still remember wat we learned two sems ago? i bet some of you out there forgot how to do integration by parts oledi. no... answers like "i can roughly noe wat to do" is not good enuff. it is either you noe or you dunnoe. why so strict one? coz when you are only half sure, assholes out there is gonna confuse you by telling you weird things tat you think you noe, but you dunnoe. get my pt? this is wat govt propaganda is all about man. let's look at some real life situation.
Taiwan. apparently the green alliance is gaining on the blue alliance according to the latest poll. and some EXPERTS say it is coz the blue alliance is not focusing their agenda on wat the ppl really want, while the green alliance has been doing tat. wat rubbish. those things said by the green alliance over the past few weeks have been nth more than utter nonsense and unrealistic talks. wat new constitution, you think wat crap use tat has got? econ reform form until now end up confusing foreign investors and drive them away onli. the candidate keep going back on his words over and over again until everyone is fed up with him oledi. (but oh wait, he is still the prez, so his word still got weight... or maybe not, or maybe yes, or maybe not... argh.. wtf...) then wat else? getting a whole bunch of small time politicians to act the role of snipers at the blue alliance hardly impress ppl oso. so basically, if i am to sum up everything tat has been going on in taiwan poli scene so far, it is really nth but bunch of political talks and maneuvours. nth substantial tat is gonna guarantee bread and water for the ppl of taiwan. So? did the taiwanese ppl forgot about their need for the dough in the midst of these poli BS? of course not rite? but apparently all these poli dramas are distracting them from the real issue long enuff for these crappy politicians to do some serious work and provide some serious statements. and crappy politicians refer to both the green and blue alliances. the onli reason i am support the blue alliance now is coz i still believe they have the means of running the country and i dun want taiwan independence or any action tat is gonna drift us away from China more. even in the 2000 election, i knew tat the DPP got no means of running the country. it is a decent opposition but it just dun have the political history and ability YET to run the country. look wat it has done so far. yeah... dun worry if you can't think of an answer, COZ THEY HAVE DONE NTH!!! no growth means negative growth in this world coz everything is all relative and comparative. but other than tat, all the politicians in taiwan are essentially all shitface and like one analyst said, they all deserve to go to hell... man... you use ppl's money and wat nonsense have you done for them? so this is BS. this is wrong. politics is a tool to get things done. wat thing? things like making life of the ppl better and improve the society. but apparently these folks in the parliament are true politicians to the core liao... all they care are politics and them being heard and re-elected. this is just plain wrong man... i really dun think you can build a country tat is gonna last for generations and provide generations of wealth if those in charge whole day onli concern about their own face and their own silly agendas.
ok... i have digress... and i have no idea wat happened along the way. think i started wanting to tok about nature. hmm... wat happened? kk... nature... hmmm... oh yeah, i just bought orange juice the other day. think the brand is Nature'sFarm or something... comment about nature?! hmmm... the weather sux... so F*CK you matha nature!!!
posted by David at 10/21/2003 06:39:00 PM
Monday, October 20, 2003
just got off tokking to ying yi... wah lao eh... this girl is amazingly chirpy. kk... of course i got see her depress mood/mode before and tat is just scary like every other girls when they get their PMS. but seriously, long time neva hear such chirpy and a conversation tat is just bombarded with *grin* and hehs. such sweet girl isn't it? wonder y her bf still not get diabetes now... oh... i forgot his name is JEM. MUAHAHAH... kk.. tat is lame...
7 articles which i need to categorise into and 40 odd definitions tat i need to figure out and familiarise myself with. did the 3 sample mcqs, not too bad, manageable. but tat is onli 3. wait till the 30 of them jump onto me then see how i am gonna stare blankly at the script. ah.. did i forget to mention the fantastic essay which until now i still have no idea on how to handle it? beautiful isn't it? think i betta go do something about it now...
weather today is crazy... really din feel like going for the 830 econ class. but my EVIL side got the betta of me and i went instead. MUAHAHAH... damn cold... heater oledi on full blast liao still cannot make it. argh... and tat is if i stay in the room. outside is just mad... and the real deal is not here yet. my gosh...
posted by David at 10/20/2003 11:56:00 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2003
OK... just one entry today before full steam on Poli Sci 369 preparations. but it is still about things tat i wanna say/reflect before i can focus my mind on the preparation.
First up. Friendster. this thingy here seems to be playing an increasingly bigger role in my life since it allow me to "socialise". Which is a pretty screwed idea. interaction with ppl thru tat thing? oh com' on... ya got to be kidding me. let me share the experience with you.
Start off with Karen, ben lee's gf whom i dun really noe tat well, but i find her to be pretty pleasant, asking me to join.
then with onli one name is alittle pathetic so i start to scout for ppl i noe thru Karen's list.
i believe Justin Lee is the next up. this guy is true bud so die die must get "CONNECTED".
Hapiz here in UofM long time ago asked me to join oledi, but i kind a neva responded coz i deleted thinking it was a junkmail. hahaha... (not too far from truth actually eh?)
then Anthony (thru karen). ah meng's friend. got hang out with him a couple of times and got played around in RI last time. but apparently he forgot about me oledi... so it was damn paisei.
then god noes how much time i spent on the network, and i managed to find markadamang tat is here in UofM, gundy, mianyi, travis, Junren, Melvin, Lionel. Alanna declared to the whole world she succumbed to peer pressure just like me so added her to lend some moral support. but i think i kinda stopped after adding people like shiwang and huimin.
why?
coz i think i am pan yuan in most of these occasions. kk... it is JUST me and the way i am brought up in my family. i dun like to take photo with ppl i dun really noe. i dun like to act all cosy and friendly with ppl tat dun deserve tat kind of level of socialising. in another word, i dun like to fake fake relationship with ppl. but i guess in my desperate attempt of linking up with familiar faces back home i end up trying to position myself way too close to them than i should. it is both an act of disrespect to them and me. and a greater insult to the word friendship. i was probably really close to some of these people last time. last time.
and tat kind makes me so ashame of my own action tat i kinda stopped going around adding or looking for ppl to add. like i said. it is just me. then suddenly somehow the "pandora's box" was opened. and mabelle jie requested me to add her.
pandora's box got "" outside the phrase coz it is a pleasant surprise to hear from mabelle jie. she is such a nice girl. seriously. used to tok to her quite often online and she is always so cheerful and update me all the time on what was going on in my former JC class. it felt really nice when she went out of her way to link me up with wat was going on when i was making bad attempt to distance myself from those happy memories. but tat was about 2 years ago?
i think mabelle oso realise how much i have changed. disillusioned was the word she used. haha... after wat i went thru, i think i deserve some level of disillusioned feeling. onli i noe. yes, muh as wat other people would say, i think at the end of the day, i am the onli one tat can truly feel the impact of wat i went thru. it is not like i dun share. i complain, i bitch, i cry to my friend all the time. but i will be eternally grateful if anyone out there can even feel 10% of the amount of pain tat went thru this body. a body tat always gives ppl the first impression of being impressive and strong, but is nothing more than an unwanted front, a legacy left from a distant glorious past that the timid, weak and troubled soul tat now resides in. how many people out there can really appreciate this?
mabelle's entrance onto my list is followed by a couple of faces tat is both familiar yet distant... tienhuei, yewsen, ying yi, ying shuang, wenduan, jia hwee, ben. some of these ppl are really close to me -- wenduan and ben for example. but the others? i wonder... like i said. memories of a glorious past tat i am having trouble living with and haunts me more than the happy joyful memories tat they bring.
so wat is the point of this post? am i angry tat ppl are linking up with me even though they dunnoe me?! hell no hell no. it is great to see those faces again. so wat the shit am i doing this? nothing lah... see.. how little you noe of me. this is just yet another random thoughts in my mind tat i wanna let out. i am onli a confused youth. probably suffering from split personality. kinda like tat scene in matrix reloaded where neo is in tat room with the creator and the monitors show like all possible emotions/reactions tat neo can possibly have after hearing wat the creator said. same thing really. when i encounter something, all these thoughts from all possible angle, all possible train of thought swarm together and threatens to explode in my head. dun mind me. i just want rant and let some steam out. hope you dun have a problem with tat. else, you can always buzz off and neva return to this personal and idiotic site of mine. i dun mind you laughing at me being so silly and return time and again to see how naive i can be and how pathetic i am. coz this is just me. and i dun think there is a need for me to hide myself in a place tat i consider personal. in fact, if you have failed to realise it sooner, you are in a personal space. so please, show some respect eh?
ok... i think i have said enough. time to nap. OH WAIT... I AM SUPPOSE TO BE STUDYING AFTER THIS RIGHT?!?!?! hmm... aiya... neva mind lah... the books and notes are not going to run away anywae... kk... nap time!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
posted by David at 10/19/2003 03:39:00 PM
Frankie J -- Don't Wanna Try
dont wanna try dont wanna try (try try)
dont wanna try no more
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try
i cant believe u had the nerve to say the things u said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i cant believe it ..4 years go down the drain
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i tryd to save it so many times but you still couldnt see
u kept insistin and resistin that u would not fall again
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and ur tryin to come back home
ur tellin me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love
u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and u tryin to come back home
u tellin me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love
(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try..oo)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try)
(dont wanna try no more)
(dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more ooo)
posted by David at 10/19/2003 05:19:00 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
oh yeah... tat was ripped from Ron Hertsen. one of the coolest dude around UofM campus. haha
posted by David at 10/18/2003 03:30:00 PM
"Well you see it's like this... A heard of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the heard is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the heard as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members.
In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive intake of alcohol kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that is why you always feel smarter after a few beers."
I think i am on my way to become the smartest man in the world. and the only obstacle is the fact tat i am not 21 yet. MUAHAHHAHA
posted by David at 10/18/2003 03:28:00 PM
ok... enuff self test for today. coz the conclusion which i came to after all this is tat i am really messed up. which ain't exactly a bad thing. coz ppl will just leave you alone and dun mess you up coz you are already mess up enuff liao. MUAHAHAHAHAHAH
posted by David at 10/18/2003 02:29:00 PM
so i am both extro and intro... tat makes me having split personality!!! YEAH!!!
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posted by David at 10/18/2003 02:20:00 PM
hmm... i think i am evil... (look below...) but then there is a foundamental flow in this quiz. it is all yes or no answers. and not the 1 to 5 kind of rating. so whichever area i click yes they just give me load of points for tat. but wat the heck, i am evil. so be it! hahhaaha
posted by David at 10/18/2003 02:16:00 PM
AND WE WON!!!! THE BROTHER ELEPHANTS WON THE TAIWAN BASEBALL LEAGUE CHAMPIONSHIP FOR THE 3RD CONSEQUTIVE TIMES!!! HURRAY!!!
posted by David at 10/18/2003 12:21:00 PM
yesterday nite was quite a blast. quite thankful for it after such a shitty week. well, it is shitty coz i more or less made it shitty thanx to my insecurity n stuff. but oh well... it is now over and weekend are for relaxing. here's a reaccount of my day
finish the horribly useless Econ 102 discussion. i totally dun get wat the GSI is trying to say now. no wait.. i do understand... but wat he says has mimimal relevance to the homework assigned. ok fine... he toks one step ahead... but can't he see tat majority of the class dun even have solid foundation with the current set of hw yet? and onli this genius indian girl keep asking n asking those qn and distracting him... he do sound interesting and even when the class trying to pull him back to the hw, he just drift off to la la land... yesh... i noe IVan... i should have switched to your section. but according to Mao, if a individual is motivated and mobilised enough, all obstacles can be overcomed!! OH NO!! I AM POISONED BY MAO NOW!!! ARGH!!!! oh yeah... me and my RI senior cracked a joke on our Poli Sci GSI in the discussion the other day. she asked us how was our break and we told her we had too much Mao in our STUDY GROUP sessions. Now we are BRAINED WASHED after all tat STRUGGLING SESSIONS and now we can't think of anything else but MAO. MUAHAHAHAHA
then i got back to my room at around 1. slack around basically and did some casual readings. then i had to went back to central for review session for poli sci 369. man i tell you... this class is hard man. all tat poli theories and readings are choking me big time. the review session oso turn out to be quite useless. and to make it worse, i sat beside this dude which i later found out to be a debator for UofM. well, in true debator fashion, tat guy tok NON STOP. nono... nth against debators, just tat i think these people can really tok. tok tok tok tok tok... so basically everyone looks at my direction or should i say scown at my direction. coz tat guy keep asking the same question but just rephrasing it a different way. throughout the whole review session, he is just obsessed with how to interlink the points. the prof already told him tat he can do tat in the essay and it is a good idea to do tat. so he, obviously got his act together long time ago and started the mugging oledi unlike me, just start sitting there and keep doing this "i have a question, about the hegemon theory and the leadership theory, i am thinking of blah blah blah blah blah" and tat blahs go on for about 2-3 minutes which essentially covers EVERYTHING tat possibly needs to be say. and the class at first looks at him and go like WOW... then after tat, ppl just get fed up. dude... got office hour, go and clarify wat ya wanna do in the exam in private. ppl are more concern in the review session on GROUP stuff. i.e. how to get the basics right first, and not listen to your (actually i think he is quite zai) profound arguments. in fact, the prof oso get damn fed up with him until towards the last half n hour or so, tat guy would be giving his "lecture" on yet another interesting way of linking up the theories, and the prof would just turn to those around him and ask them if they have other question and start giving one on one chit chats teachings while tat guy keeps rambling on. and tat guy still clueless like mad and goes ON and ON and ON... wah lao eh... champion!!!
finally when it is over, quickly rush back to my room and cook dinner. invited Satchi over to makan with me. hohoho... my cooking still just gets better each time!!! now my stir fry is really fantastic liao MUAHHAHHA!!! yeah... basically just sit there and crap with Satchi lah... the two of us vegetarians not easy to get good food here. well, i not lazy to cook even though i damn tired so i am fine. but i suspect if satchi really cook all tat regularly. even if i dun cook a standard meal, i add lotsa veges in my maggie mee to make it healthy. hahahah... but it was fun to makan with ppl. and we ate so much. i think i am eating way too much rice for my own good. yesterday cooked like 6 cups of rice. i think i end up eating 2 cups of rice. cup as in the uncooked form one hor... but yet i still 75 onli leh... how shiok is tat eh?!!? MUAHAHAH
after the dinner, was about time to go prepare for the more fun part of the nite. Bowling nite by TWSA. hahah... my average always around 70+. ALso, on my way back from the poli sci review, i met Danny, Aka Xie Ting Fong on the bus back, and we were still making fun of each other being better at bowling n such. but seriously , i would think he would be able to bowl better than me. after all he spend so much time in pool... always have this impression tat pool and bowling goes together... but oh well... my silly stereotype eh?! but anywae... end up my first game i shoot up to 145 man!!! wah lao eh... first time in my life i bowl until so zai. the previous record was i think 121 when i bowl with the malaysian gang and teamed up with Epol. MUAHAHA... shiok lah... but tat obviously surprised all the undergrad ppl coz they tot i some kingpin or some rubbish. obviously my explanations were ignored and Danny keep making screaming at me for lying to him... argh... then like always, i start to mess up my later 2 games and average onli 60 something... which is damn lousy. i would rather average the scores abit and look more consistent... and not caused ppl to think i how power... oh well...
but hohoho... just when i tot the nite is gonna end, the grad students took me out to supper. hahah... i have to pay lah of course, but coz i was in their car when i came over mah, so i just tag along lor... it was cool coz long time neva looklookseesee oledi... so get a chance to ride around in car was quite shiok. hahah... yesh... i super easy to satisfy and made happy. just take me out and drive me around and i very happy liao. i think this runs along in the family. well anywae, at first went to Denny's but tat place was packed. and apparently the whole undergrad contigent oso came, so there was no way of fitting everyone. so the grad students being the more classy type, decide to go to great lake while the undergrads went to Steak and shake i think. it was kinda weird coz 8 grad and onli 1 extra undergrad which is yours truly were present. MUAHHAHA... but they are nice people lah... and sit there and tok nonsens. they tok i listen, they sing karaoke i listen and they thirsty i pour tea. MUAHAHAH... i dun mind lah... go back early probably just watch movie or chat online onli wat... which is kinda boring since i can do tat all the time but i dun get to pour tea for ppl all the time mah... MUAHAHAHA... but they are nice people lah. yesh... Irving and Kelly and Ah Bao. hohoho... i think if i dun remember the name i will get kicked out of the car next time liao. MUAHAHAH...
then they even very nice and sent me all the way back to Baits. i hope they found their way home fast enough. but yeah, after this after all tat chinese tea, i really dun feel like sleeping, so i went over to batcha's to play FFX. MUAHAHA.. play until 4 something?! then go back to my room and chat chat chat online until 5. MUAHHHA... crazy nite... EVEN WITHOUT THE BOOZE!!! but yeah... it was fun... and people super nice even though we hardly noe each other. at least they make effort to know you unlike some other people in some other student organisations. or maybe it is coz i was with the grad students and thus more mature and noe how to treat people better. but yeah... it was a fun nite nonetheless. can't complain. hahaha
posted by David at 10/18/2003 12:18:00 PM
Friday, October 17, 2003
I need to be more concious. I need to be more aware of myself sometimes. I think i am just like floating thru my life. I think this is not making much sense. I wish i can figure out what is going on more often. I wish i can procrastinate more. I want to take a firmer grip on my life. I want to end this lousy attempt to make my post have a rhyme to it.
HAHAHAHAH
Oh, i am done with Mao liao. at least for at least another week. I wanna have NOTHING to do with it. MUAHAH... kk... so how did the exam went yesterday? hmm... i think i probably will get 90 - 70 - 70 for the 3 respective qns i answered. First question answered 4 solid pages. then followed by TWO, then 2.5 pages. wah lao eh... really panicked. dun have anything to write oledi just sit there with 20 more minutes to go. The 2nd question is essentially asking us to describe wat is the Yan'an model and the Soviet Econ model. i use about 3/4 page and write finish oledi wat... then the second part of tat qn just ask us to figure out which model is distinctively used during the period of 1949 to 1968. of course Soviet lah... wat else you want me to crap about? but of course in TRUE rafflesian BS fashion, i managed to BS and stuffed a chunk of shitload info inside it to drag until damn long. Think this sux... those points are not exactly irrelevant. but to me they are considered redundant. so i have no idea wat the Prof and GSIs have in mind when they give us this kind of qn and expect us to write nonstop for 30 minutes.
The last qn i picked was on the decline of Qing dynasty due to Western Imperialism. Kk... the points should all be there. wah lao eh... if after going thru this topic under 2 Prof still cannot remember must go knock my head against some tofu oledi. but maybe it was due to me getting enuff wrist warm up oledi or something. write pretty fast. but then again, the points dun really translate into page numbers... yes... i noe it is silly and dumb to judge your performance according to page numbers... but i am just worried tat even though my points are there, i ain't elaborating enough or something like tat. so tat just plain sux... i oledi squeeze my brain juice out like siao oledi... argh... sob sob...
but tat is over. tonite going bowling with the TWSA. hahah... this should be fun!!
posted by David at 10/17/2003 11:10:00 AM
OH YEAH!! THE YANKEES WON!!! ORDER IN BASEBALL HAS FINALLY BEEN RESTORED!!! NOW THE BROTHER ELEPHANTS SHALL CONTINUE TAT TREND AND KICK SOME MOFO BULL ASS!!!
posted by David at 10/17/2003 03:28:00 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
oh, i just got RECONNECTED to mabelle jie. thru the love-hate thingy friendster. then thru mabelle jie, saw a couple of familiar faces.
well, it is good to noe tat those girls are still clicking and connecting. would like to think tat i did a good job last time eh?! MUAHAHA... but oh well, think everyone has changed so much. and yeah, i saw tat girl again. hmm... was quite crazy about her even though i did some really stupid things which i should probably shoot myself for doing tat to such a nice person. seems tat she is doing just fine. still very sweet looking. oh well. nth to do with me now rite?! everyone has their own life to worry about. or for ppl like me, worry about the LACK of life eh?! haha...
yeah... i think i am destined for doom. i should be remugging the shit for the exam later tonite and yet i am blogging and surfing thru friendster and daydreaming like i got nth else to do. and yeah... blogging too. hohoho... i am so screwed, but i am still just happily sitting on my big fast ass and not doing anything but waiting to die. how fun eh?!
posted by David at 10/16/2003 01:53:00 PM
hmm... i think i forgot wat i read last nite b4 i go to sleep oledi... this is so much fun.
i think i am really damn freaking lazy and not motivated enough. kk... maybe more of the lazy part than the motivated part. if i am not lazy then i won't be sitting on my ass waiting for ppl to motivate me but try to motivate myself rite?! hmm... this is bad. shit, everyone wanna do well n so do i. but something ALWAYS get in the way when i am trying to do something. y y y y WHYYYYYYYYYY!?!?!? *pull hair*... oh wait... i dun have hair wat... so nth for me to pull. hmm... shit.
this is a sad world man. the cubs got screwed by their own fan, the brother elephants get screwed in the last inning. and i think Yankees also gonna die very soon. this is a bad bad bad baseball season for me man... hope this won't affect my academic season. DARN!!!
posted by David at 10/16/2003 01:35:00 PM
The time now is 3.14 am.
i have just re-read chapter 4 of governing china. the chapter on The Hair-ist Ideology, the Great Leap Backward and the Great Poorlitariate Cultural Devastation. This is the area tat i identify as my potential archilles heel. so i re-read it to consolidate my knowledge a little more.
So am i feeling more confident now? NAH... far from it. why? coz i will be depending ALOT on my pre governing china knowledge and wateva knowledge i gained during lectures. and of course, my on the spot reactions. this is screw up tactic to use when you wanna do well. but on this, i have onli one statement to say
i have had enough of Mao for this week. I am going to meet Zhou now regardless of the consequence. no, not Zhou Enlai dammit, Uncle Zhou from the Warring State period. I am not going to depend on caffeine like i did for tat econ week two weeks ago. screw it. nth is worth me over-screwing up my body n mess around with me health tat way. kk, Long Live Chairman Mao in your glass coffin. i am gonna rest now in my comfy bed now. Nite!!!
posted by David at 10/16/2003 03:20:00 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
expect lotsa random, stupid, weird and taiwantank-like short posts throughout this nite. just my way of screaming out to the freaking world tat ain't gonna pay shit attention to me anywae. MUAHAH
posted by David at 10/15/2003 09:42:00 PM
see, i am really trying to relax but not focusing too much on the work load i have infront of me. i dun think this is all tat great an idea coz it onli means i am getting all freaking distracted and may not be able to absorb in all those goddamn points. but i am damn pressed up and feel like exploding liao think either way oso cannot get anything in. so i might as well try to make myself feel a little betta eh!? but i think i just need to figure out when will be a good time to get back to serious work again or i may just waste the whole nite feeling good but not doing anything substantial... argh...
posted by David at 10/15/2003 09:42:00 PM
stupid Yankees just lost. wth, with the kind of squad they have, how can they lost like this to some stupid team from some silly ulu city?! argh... then the cubs oso siao... yesterday when i got off work at 10, we were still leading 3 to nth. then this morning i woke up and saw that freaky eight thingy. wtf. they betta win tonite, else there is gonna be riot in chicago. wtf... losing to the Marlins? no way man... serious no way...
posted by David at 10/15/2003 09:39:00 PM
I need a massage. i am too freaking tense. how do i know? coz i just had neck cramp and am having a headache and stomache cramp now. this ain't good...
going thru the discussion questions which we did in class. no problem at all. but still feeling like crap.
relax relax.... WOO SAAAAA!!! (from Anger Management by Adam Sandler n Jack Nicolson)
posted by David at 10/15/2003 09:37:00 PM
Dun ya just love U2 songs? love all of them ever since i heard the first one "staring at the sun". well, i know i started slow, and supposedly tat album is one of their lousiest. but wat the heck, like means like, no matter what others would say. but nowadays the lyrics just get betta and betta doesn't it?!?! kinda strikes a tune when you feeling trashy and messed up. in line with my old philosophy... sometimes i really hope these songs won't strike a cord with me. tat means i am neva in tat kind of sappy, sad mood. but guess everyone has their down times eh?
the pressure is there. i can seriously feel it. i am really trying to heck care abt all other things in my life right now. but it is damn hard. think i have a problem of focusing, or maybe i am just too goddamn duo xin (many heart) for my own good. trying to juggle too many things at the same time may well cause me to end up with nothing at the end of the day. hmm... poli sci midterm tomorrow. i so very want to do well for it. wanna kick some damn ass. i just hope i can remember all those goddamn points fast enough. it is like all the readings, all the reviews are just not making me confident enough. the pressure is slowing down my brain you noe. if you let me think and give me time, i can come up with everything, but not in the current agitated and frustrating mood now. argh... help!! hohoho, as if i am gonna get any. getting really used to not getting any help now. in fact, i feel lucky as long as no idiots come up and create more problems for me. darn. this can't be good. this ain't the way it is suppose to be.
posted by David at 10/15/2003 09:08:00 PM
U2 - Walk On
And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring...
And love is not the easy thing....
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind
And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong
Walk on, walk on
What you got they can't steal it
No they can't even feel it
Walk on, walk on...
Stay safe tonight
You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom
Walk on, walk on
What you've got they can't deny it
Can't sell it, can't buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight
And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on
Home� hard to know what it is if you've never had one
Home� I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is
I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on
Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
All that you scheme�
posted by David at 10/15/2003 11:29:00 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
Got Midterm this Thursday, short essay oso due this thursday. and i am not even tokking about the in lecture quiz for econ tomorrow. TIME NOT ENUFF!!! HELP!!! so y the heck am i still blogging? coz yesh.. you guess it... i am in one of my reflective a.k.a. self destructive mood. MUAHAHA
Almost caught a cold yesterday while walking past bubble island yesterday. Was walking with Kelvin to go grab some dinner (more on the dinner late...) when we walked past Bubble Island (we met up outside Vcorner). Even Kelvin commented on the suddent drop in temp. MUAHAH... dunnoe to cry or to laugh. i think it is sad. relationships just dun last nowadays. ppl can just become like total strangers no matter what they were last time. so sad. but i guess sometimes you just dun have to even fake diplomatic towards some ppl eh?! tat's probably why.
I always remember this talk i had with this teacher of mine last time in RI. Mr Chow Tse Kit. or Jaap Stam like some of us call him coz quite alike. tall and bald. MUAHAHAH... but yeah. it was a long talk coz he is in his mid 20s onli so we got lots to tok about. the details of that talk are irrelevant, 'cept for this thing he says about the way he treat ppl. "Everytime i meet someone, i make friend, it is like i dig out my heart and give it to them. it come straight from the heart. some people, dun even look at it, and look away. others take a sniff at it, think it is smelly and use them to feed dogs. it hurts really bad. but still i keep doing tat." I can't agree more. Isn't tat the same thing i do? Ppl criticise me for being too upfront and not protecting myself enough. i saw nth wrong with tat. notice the past tense used. after a series of failed "relationships" i really start to doubt this whole attitude towards someone else. so much so that i believe now, when i meet someone, though i still take out my heart and trust it to them, i am more selective. i shut myself in my tiny little room so interaction with outside world is thru onli the tiny little laptop i have. when going outside, i keep a straight face and suppress my emotion. i only extend my heart out to ppl i already knew and reduce meeting new ppl (afraid i guess...) but even when i DO hand out my heart, there is always the thought at the back of my head tat says "ok.. let's see how long before this person feed my heart to the dog..." pretty bad rite?! so essentially it means tat i am not fully trusting them with my heart now. good or bad? compare to that "silly" teacher of mine who keep trusting his heart to ppl he meet, to me, who first of all is getting all selective abt it, and secondly having doubts even before i do it. I think i am worse. dun ya think? but i guess some people out there will say, well, you are on your way to maturity and you are slowly learning how to protect yourself. next time, you won't even open until tat much... hmmm... i wonder...
obviously my heart is still extended out there when i walked past you outside bubble island. if not, it wouldn't have experience that sudden drop in temp and caused me the cold.
kk... so now the dinner. i spent 11 bucks on burgers n fries yesterday with kelvin. so did he. let's see. i ordered a saute burger which has melted cheese, mushroom, veges and a garden burger in it + some fries by the side. tat caused me 7 buck plus. then still hungry, me and kelvin ordered cheese fries. plus together with tat goddam silly tips, cost 11 buck. wah lao eh... really siao... 11 buck just for burgers n fries... no drink and onli ice water somemore hor... *bleeding*
Ann Arbor. Being here since April 2002. One year and 5 months oledi? hmmm... time flies. Fly until think ppl at home dun even remember me liao. Was going thru the list of names on friendster network. suddenly damn reluctant to add some of those people. and oso coz i read this entry by this girl about how idiotic ppl keep adding ppl they barely noe in order to make them look good and such. agree tat this kind of things do happen and i really dun wanna be part of tat. but some of these ppl, can't say THAT close, but we did get to hang around occasionally, used to be pretty close n such... wonder if they still remember me all that well and wat they think of me now... i wonder...
After dinner yesterday, walked with Kelvin around campus. Stayed on the bridge between NS and CCRB. hmm... felt like i was on the bridge between Taipei Train Station and Xin Guang Shan Yue. Standing there looking down the bridge on the road, seeing the cars driving pass felt so familiar yet foreign. Think i really getting used to this place now. everything feel more and more comfortable. even the cold weather. I think i am gonna feel scare when i go back next time. scare of how much the place i used to know changed. scare of how i have changed relative to the ppl back home. scare at how THEY have changed relative to me. changes... ahhh... such a beautiful yet scary term. change for the better or for the worse? dun we all wanna live in our comfort zone? live in the place we are familiar with? how often do we get to do tat? and do we have wat it takes to step outside and take a look? i find it hard to go back to old places after i have so called "moved on". During one of those year end trip to Taiwan a fews years back, i was wondering around my city on foot when i suddenly end up in the kindergarden i used to go to. the whole place is like abandoned liao. grass overgrown, windows shattered and totally rundown. then just like those scenes in the movie, i see figures just popping out like now where, kids running around. i saw me in my green collar napkin sliding down the the slide and swinging around and climbing around. damn, i just got overcomed with feelings tat i started running like mad all the way home. dun ask me why. chicken is probably an appropriate word to use but is not exactly a very helpful word either... And to think i was only standing in front of an abandoned building. imaging going back, living in the same room, yet all will be so different. Do i say harlow, or waddup like i am used to now? do i speak singlish or do i fake ang mo accent? or can i just shut up? i am damn clueless.
Target date of going home will be after Winter 2005. or rather, April 2005. Which will mean 3 years totally away from home. damn... 3 years... tat is a long long time... one and a half more to go i guess...
posted by David at 10/14/2003 07:14:00 PM
Monday, October 13, 2003
hmm... been a while since i last read the STonline. then today i went there and saw this silly article on bullying in St Andrews. i think it is hilarious. singaporean parents are really making their kids into big time pussys. some of the things tat were mentioned as a proof of bullying is really trivial. i dun get it. get ram by soccer ball is bullying. (the poor boy say those boys laughed after tat. damn... i would have laughed... blardy hell, most of the time can't even hit the blardy non-moving goalpost when you shoot, and now can hit a moving walking object. OF COURSE i am gonna laugh.) then get tackle during soccer, alamak... you so afraid of being tackled then dun play lah you sissy. if you dun like it, go tell someone, dun crap up some nonsense say if you report to teacher then ppl will call you a sissy. you are onli a sissy if you can't even stand up for yourself. GET TAT?!?!
kk, so of course there will be ppl that is gonna tell me tat if you ain't at the receiving end of all these "bullying" ya won't noe how it feel. fine, let me just start by saying tat i have been "bully-ed" oso. DUH... there is always gonna be someone "bigger" and "meaner" than you out there. so i have had my fair share. but tat dun mean i am gonna get controlled by these dickheads rite?! shit, next time go out into society and the word bullying takes on more creative forms. old birds treat rookies like fuck, give you all their work to do, make you their donkey and they get all the credits blah blah blah. physical bullys are easy to overcome, the shit thing is mental and emotional bullying. if you can't even take on those idiots tat only use their superficial physical presence to get to you, next time how you tackle and handle those other forms of bullyings? alamak... school is suppose to be a protected environment for students to mature, learn and grow up. but tat dun mean you smooth sail all the way. small small thing like this oso get onto headline news in ST. this just show how pathetic singaporean students are getting nowadays. bunch of wussy pussy farts.
there, i have said it. MUAHAHHAHA
posted by David at 10/13/2003 03:34:00 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
hey hey... i am still here in ann arbor. the trip to chicago did not materialise yet again. wow... amazing how this chicago things keep changing and turning eh? well, to cut the story short, the rental booking thingy was screwed up mutually both on our part and on their part, so we end up without a car and since no one wanna go there by foot, the trip is cancelled. MUAHAHAH. sad? hmm... not really. disappointed? hmm... abit. angry? hmm... not at all. in fact i find this really amazing and farni. a seemingly simple thing such as going to chicago has eluded me for SO many times that i am getting really chill about it. still wanna see the city, and will definitely hope onto any chance of doing so. but the sense now is i am less agitated about this kind of thing. emotionally more settled?
On this topic. as an experiment of whether i am really more emotionally settled. i rewatched My Sassy Girl. kk, the actress is really cute until cannot make it still. and the story line is still very lovely. but, unlike the first time which i cried like shit towards the end. beginning from when the lead male actor went to tell this other guy the 10 rules to follow tat part all the way to wat i conside to be the climax of the train hopping up and hopping off exchange part. really cried like shit the last time. but this time round, i am still emotionally stirred. but the tears are not there. nope... it is not coz i have seen it b4 or something. i love rewatching movies and reliving the emotion. but this time round, the emotion is still kinda stirred, but nth "broke out" or "down" MAUHAAH.. get the pt? dunnoe leh. am i becoming just more indifferent coz i have seen it all? am i becoming really numb to such emotionally things due to things tat had been happening all these days? or am i just becoming more emotionally stable or wat. MUAHAHAH... guess there is not gonna be a clear cut answer or anything close. could be a mixture of all. but still, the movie is great.
Really tired. really hope this break will recharge me or something like tat. but still, got lotsa reading to do and notes to summarise b4 my PS339 midterm this thursday. and also catch up on some reviews on my econ classes. basically will take this as a chance to update and organise my life and academic work. a good check point of some sort. but i just thought going out of the city for some fresh air would be a nice way of getting the ball rolling. but i guess tat is not to be the case. oh well, no matter. there are things to be done no matter the circumstance. gambatte everyone. hope life for everyone gets betta. FORWARD AND ONWARD!!!
posted by David at 10/11/2003 04:11:00 AM
Thursday, October 09, 2003
ok... apparently cannot display and i have no idea why... THIS SUX!!!
posted by David at 10/09/2003 01:58:00 PM
someone sent me this... dunnoe tat person, but i think this is a interesting mail nonetheless... hopefully can display chinese this time round... hahaha
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posted by David at 10/09/2003 01:58:00 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Actually, come to think of it hor, a 4.5 hour lecture group by itself is not TAT bad. but it just means tat you need to do tons of preparation work for it the day before and lotsa revision after it. but seriously... WHY AM I GETTING ALL SIAO OVER THIS CRAP TIME-TABLE WHEN IT IS 99% SURE THAT THEY WILL CHANGE IT? argh... typical silly me... worry over dunnoe wat crap.
okie... trip to chicago this friday. perfect. it is amazing how things just turn out eh? kelvin and jeff are both on board and i think this thing is gonna be a blast. WHY? coz we are going there with absolutely no idea wat we are gonna do with onli a car and lotsa crap. MUAHAHAH... rock on... celebrate the joy of youth eh?!?!?
posted by David at 10/08/2003 08:17:00 PM
oh yeah... if i take spanish, it will means one hr of class everyday from monday to thursday. just imaging how exciting my life is gonna be on monday and wednesday eh?! hohoho!!!
but then, outta the nine potential poli sci classes i wanna take, onli 3 are current on the list for winter 04. tat is pretty sad. 368 and 343 are among those 3. And those 9 classes are essentially i damn picky until cannot picky one. So i really wanna take those class. So unlikely to sacrifice those two poli sci class. but then, most of my so call div 1 classes (i.e. those not on my must do list but those i think quite interesting one) are all at the same time. So basically combining both my must do classes and the div 1 classes, i have 5 to choose from. dilemma... but at least i have choices unlike econ
Econ even worse. 404 and 402 no choice have to take one (prereq for lotsa upper level classes still...). and the earlier i finish them the betta it is. so praying real hard tat they seperate those two. and wanna hear wat is even better? both econ class have their discussion session listed on friday. which means i have two econ hws due on the same day. how exciting eh?!?!
Econ really very headache. i need 5 concentration classes. I onli manage to shortlist 6. and onli 2 on tat list is offered in W04. but those two all dun need 402... so i may still end up bypassing 402 for yet another term eh?! hahah... but i need to scout around for more interesting econ class to expand on my choice list. if not i sure die one. looking at 2 more. suggestion n help anyone?!?!
and i was daydreaming about a minor or some crap. with this kind of schedule, life oledi so funky and spicy... i think i should be content with it oledi. MUAHAHAHAH
Praying really hard that those admin eggheads... no wait... i mean those admin ppl... will do something about the two econ class. sigh...
posted by David at 10/08/2003 12:30:00 AM
current tentative tentative temporary fake schedule for winter 2004.
Poli Sci 368 -- 3 credits
Poli Sci 343 -- 3 credits
Econ 404 -- 4 credits
Econ 402 -- 4 credits
Spanish 101 -- 4 credits
That gives us a grand total of 18 credits. hmm... 18 credits in winter?!?! i must be really outta my mind. so the most likely thing to do will be to replace Spanish 101 with something lighter. but even that would be suicidal. just take a look at the details of the class. I will onli show you the lecture time
Poli Sci 368 -- M W 10 - 1130
Poli Sci 343 -- Tu Th 10 - 1130
Econ 404 -- M W 1130 - 1
Econ 402 -- M W 1 - 230
hmm.... is it just me or do i see 3 lectures back to back for a grand total of 4.5 hours on monday and wednesday? kk... i know the winter here is really cold outside, but that dun mean i am suppose to stay in class for 4.5 hours straight rite?!?!?! but this is the best i can come up with so far. but this is oso onli the temp time schedule for these classes. time should change. but basically this is an impossible time table. ESPECIALLY tat back to back 404 and 402. No living soul can tahan 3 hours of tat kind of classes in one straight dose. So the admin better have some cow sense and split those two up. Arigato!!!
Sigh... the sad life of students. Can someone pls remind me why are we in college and doing this? OOOOOh... so tat in 2 years time we can all join the employment market and be part of that ever growing 6% unemployment rate eh?! how fun!!!
posted by David at 10/08/2003 12:23:00 AM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Ok... did some simple arithmatic and here is wat comes up
so far got 48 credits.
after this term will have 15 more
i need 4 credits of HU and one class of race and ethnicity which is about 4 credit max? (more like 3)
so wasting say 8 credits here for the distributions
i need another 23 credits worth of econ concentration classes
i need another 12 credits worth of polisci concentration classes (MUAHAHA... i can use STATS 404 as a method class!!)
i need 120 to grad.
so 120 minus 48 minus 15 minus 4 minus 4 minus 23 minus 12
i have an extra of 14 (or 15... depending on the R&E class) credits with absolutely no idea wat to do with. any suggestion on how to blow them away?! MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 10/07/2003 06:21:00 PM
hmm... maybe i should just put all the blames of tat girl coming up with those silly acts on her bunch of rowdy insensitive and crap friends -- suggestion from a friend of mine. why? coz it is neva good to burn your bridge (.......) so since i neva had a bridge with those friends of hers, i should just nuke them big time in order to retain diplomacy and the bridge with tat girl. argh......... wat nonsense... i think i got lotsa BS friend oso... think i should nuke tat MOFO first. MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 10/07/2003 01:59:00 PM
You noe wat is that ONE hobby which i really wanna take up??? well, sports is my life, so not counted as hobby. MUAHAH, seriously, i take those games seriously though i may not show it. but ONE thing i really wanna master, is the art of photography. yeap. it is such a cool thing. rite now i am just snapping away with my digi cam and i still have not really master its numerous fantastic features. it is essentially just a pt n shoot silly cam for me rite now. hohoho, i am doing such injustice to my baby. I like to play with electronic gadgets, but i neva put much effort into mastering them. hmmm, kinda like every other thing i do eh?! this is bad...
kk, so my phone got fixed. had to restart the settings n stuff and it worked. oh well. then 401 is still very shitty. will go OH tomorrow. 102 i realise it is some FUBAR careless mistake which means i am not doing all tat badly. the weather still blows. (yup... i hate the freaking wind... it essentially brings the temp around you down 10 deg when you blows on you... dammit). My right arm is getting better while my left arm seems to be getting worse coz i have been using it to do the work of the rite arm during these few days and kinda overexerted it... argh... stupid... Computer still screwing up, but i am getting used to it. it is just freaking delicate and i just have to be really gentle with it or just ask it to go to hell when i refuse to respond.
Oh, i just declared my major for Poli Sci. MUAHAHAHAHAHA... finally not LSA undecided liao... now it is LSA POLITICAL SCIENE STUDENT OK!!!! DUN PLAY PLAY!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA... but yeah... nth much other than tat... all i did was filling in a form and chatted with this corny advisor who laughs really loud at her own joke. hohoho but she was really nice and helpful.
Thinking of taking one or two classes in psychology. science stuff. probably gonna bomb them, so i may just take pass fail for those. but think should be fun. maybe triple major? siao.... MUAHAHAH
bunch of random thoughts
oh, i have decided to not bother abt that silly girl and her silly acts liao. i have more or less come up with a very convincing reason of why she is not tokking to me and i just found tat reason ridiculous. how was i able to do tat? coz from the way things have been going on, the little things she had said to me and the thing she had said to other ppl. hohoho... i think i have had enuff with her silly kiddo acts. oh well, do i look like i am so despo for her attention?!?! dammit... i've got a life my dear, and there are lotsa hot chics out there which i get to hang around with ever so often. so well, if you are gonna take me for a ride and treat me like crap, heehee... good luck with your childish act.
ppl around me are still having relationship problems. sigh... so sad. i am just freaking cynical abt this whole issue that i dunnoe to chip in to help or stand around and laugh and say fucked up things like "see... told ya...". tat would be just mean and i should go to hell for tat. but then again, wat could i possibly do? hmm... kk, i shall invest wateva time and energy i have after all these BS 401 hw, all these long overdue poli sci readings, those much needed sleep hours and of course after chucking in those much necessary proper food. (which i think is virtually no time liao...) Like a Mud Buddha crossing the river. MUAHAHA... i myself in deep shit, how to help? kk, i shall be always be around spirit wise and thoughts wise!!!
kk... the last paragraph is essentially lotta BS... me being me, is NOT going to sit there and see ppl i know fucking themselves up. yesh... overusage of profanity is not needed you dick!!! MUAHAHAH... kk.. lame... but yeah, i am officially naming this present crisis the B.K. whooper junior case file. MUAHAHAH... hopefully this thing will get solve before they evolve into B.K. big whooper. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
posted by David at 10/07/2003 01:56:00 PM
Monday, October 06, 2003
sigh... it snowed early this morning... the car tops are all covered with a thin layer of white snow... the fields oso... it was seriously cold outside this morning and i had onli my hooded sweatshirt on... brilliant... today is onli the 6th of October... shouldn't it snow onli during december? michigan weather is really one of the kind. hahah... exactly wat i need at this pt of time in my life when i am all depress and potentially suicidal eh?!
here is a song tat all residents of michigan are singing to people from outside michigan. abit cheesy i know... but the lyrics are kinda approriate oso for the current emotional state i am in. enjoy
Linkin Park -- My December
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
posted by David at 10/06/2003 11:03:00 AM
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posted by David at 10/06/2003 02:05:00 AM
The last time i tok to Teddy, he mentioned that i always need some spark to get me back to my energy and enthu level when i am down. how well Teddy knows me. when i feel down, i just need ONE simple reason to get me back to the chiong chiong chiong state. but i think tat has became a thing of the past. life just dun seems to get easier. shitty things just seems to pile up onto you faster and faster. and starts to drown you big time before you even have a chance to shout for help.
even when you do shout for help, or rather when i shout for help. help is becoming less and less. everyone is busy, everyone got their own problem... so i try to be more independent. i try to be my own spark. so... if now i dun even need ppl to be around at the times when i need them the most, then is there still a need to socialise? to make friend? to look out for people coz now it just you looking out for others and you are almost 90% sure tat they ain't gonna look after you when you need it. and tat 10% is essentially a warning to yourself tat you are still a lame weak shit and need to make yourself stronger to eliminate tat 10%. rite?!?! so everyone should just stay in their room, stop bugging people with their own problem coz it is afterall THEIR OWN GODDAMN problem. so buzz off coz i have my own problem!?!?!? is tat the rite thing to do? is tat the rite thing to say? but ain't we suppose to be stronger as we get older? to be more independent as we get more stronger? so if tat is the case? then wat is the fucking shit abt all tat emotional support all tat friendship network BS? mofo, you asking me if i am piss? you asking me to calm down? hohoho... are YOU able to calm down when you get upset? how many fucking wrist do you cut b4 you can calm down? how many bottles of booze do you down b4 you knock youself out and feel tat it is a beautiful world after all? you telling me i ain't rational? you think you can do betta than me if you are in the same position? hohoho... we'll see... dun laugh at me being crazy and emotional and blah blah blah... we'll see!!!
posted by David at 10/06/2003 01:44:00 AM
List of what happened to me this weekend:
1. Found out i bombed Econ 401. Still dun understand why
2. Found out i bombed Econ 102. Made TWO RIDICULOUS mistake and dun understand another TWO.
3. Torn my left arm muscle. Slept too heavy on Sat nite and woke up to find tat i can't move tat arm which i slept on.
4. Trip to Chicago is more or less cancelled. End up getting a pep tok from friend instead about me not being more liberal with the way i spend my money. sigh...
5. Third week of cold treatment from this "friend". Look, i AM NOT TRYING TO GO AFTER HER!!! i just dun like ppl to be angry with me and refuse to tell me why. and maybe i just care too much abt how others feel. ARGH!!!
6. Despite having such shitty things happen to me, i am still trying to cheer people up. how ironic.
7. tons of work ahead of me
8. tons of reading ahead of me
9. my computer is refusing to play any video or music file about 70% of the time. the other 20% of the time, it is running like a 66Mhz computer. *SOB SOB*... MY POOR BABY!!!
10. i am getting REALLY REALLY depress with nth to cheer me up really.
posted by David at 10/06/2003 01:34:00 AM
Saturday, October 04, 2003
oh yeah... went to gym last nite after a break of like 3 months?! hoho... it was quite bad. rite now i am onli doing 25lb of bicep curl and now my whole arm is like gone even though i am just doing the standard sets. hmmm... i think KP is gonna kill me for being such a slacker. MUAHAHAH. but yeah... it is good to work out now n then. but i think i should just put more effort into stretching. my whole freaking bod all tensed up like mad. maybe also coz i too over stress liao, but yesterday i pulled my thigh muscle again even though i try to do some form of stretching. yeah... so FORM tat remotely resembles stretching coz i damn blardy inflexible now coz long time neva stretch. kk... will make it a pt to do more stretching, instead of just stretching out on my bed. MUAHAHAH
did not do quite as fantastic on my 401 exam as i expected. hmm... have not had the time to go figure wat went wrong, but the grade is kinda disappointing. not bad actually, but i was hoping for more. nonon and nth to do with being satisfy and take it from there kinda crap. i really dun find the exam all tat hard. got standard is one thing. but so do i. i tot i was able to understand and work out the problems pretty well. but somehow things just screw up and it is kinda beyond me. oh well, not much use tokking about it. shall go find out wat the beep went wrong.
i am still very tired. really over exerted myself over the last 3 days or so over the prep for the MTs. it was really bad. so bad tat i only realised after all tat is done, tat i have not had proper meal/food during tat period of time. so rite now i am still healing myself and taking care and resting. damn crap. shall not do this to myself EVER again.
the potential trip to Chicago is still dangling on when my friend can get his credit card. sigh... waiting really kills da fun. but hopefully can go...
posted by David at 10/04/2003 02:49:00 PM
shit... went over to chat with heng hwa last nite. HOW COME ALL THE RJ CHIO BUs WENT TO UK?!!?!? f f f f f... this is damn sad... damn those brits. first they make Beckham england capt now they freaking wanna steal the girls oso. hell no...
oh yeah... joined friendster at the request of karen. ooooo... was going thru those friends karen have. saw this girl's photo. look DAMN familiar. (ok... of course she is pretty lah, if not y i bother looking at it for so long rite... MUAHAHA) it is like i got see tat girl b4, but i just CANNOT remember where got meet such chio bu one leh!! so i went on a trip down the memory lane. took me a day b4 i could recall a girl by tat name one. but then tat girl is like black black one leh. and though tat girl is all alone very pretty one, but not TAT pretty leh. so of course past few days got MT and all tat crap. so after MT on thursday nite, i went over and check out the pix again. after like STARING at tat pix for quite long, i realise IT IS TAT GIRL!!! OMG OMG OMG !!! how come she become sooo soo much even more prettier?!!?!? this is ridiculous... last time i all along think she very pretty. but now, it is like she change to yet ANOTHER form of prettiness. WAH LAO EH!!! cannot make it. make over or something?! but really, last time she is the healthy, fit and pretty kinda chio. now she is like long flowy hair, and sexy kinda HOT. understand the word or not? HOT HOT HOT. wah lao eh... cannot make it... RICKY KIM, WHY YOU NEVA GO ALL THE WAY FOR HER LAST TIME?!!? SEE LAH... UNTIL NOW YOU STILL PLAYING WITH YOUR BOLSTER ONLI!!! damn sad i think. but yeah... congrates to her i guess. hahah... neva tok to her b4 but last time oso RJ arts fac so got lot of chance to see her. but yeah, this is ridiculous. now she has reached the impossible state of chio-ness oledi. MUAHAHAHA... just kidding. Kyoko Fukada is still da best!!! MUAKZ!!
posted by David at 10/04/2003 02:16:00 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
dun ya just hate it when ppl tok nonsense during discussion? i mean, we are suppose to respect wat others are saying, but clearly, sometimes ppl just abuse their right to speak and tok trash. trash like wat? trash like saying things tat has NOTHING to do with the discussion, or give opinions tat is totally groundless or worse, fake up some rubbish to support their garbage. argh... totally disgusting. and yeah... i just got out of my poli sci 339 discussion and thus this post and mood. argh...
this week is probably the first time i my life i have had So much caffeine in my body. i lost count of how many packs of nescafe 3in1 i had. not to mention the english tea and chinese tea i made and took with my food. bottles of Mt Dew and Pepsi. and bars of chocolate. argh... i am really a zombie now... and econ 401 is on less than an hours time. gambatte gambatte!!! i can do it... at least tat is how i feel after taking the two prep exams in the back of the coursepack. but seriously i need to be JUSt alittle more focused here. but my heavy eyelid is not really helping and my brain is really numb after listening to all tat BS from my discussion classmates. damn you you blardy stupid silly idiotic chinese girl. stop sounding you are the super authority in chinese poli sci and dun say your opinions as if all others are wrong and inferior. dammit... you dun even realise tat most of the time, you are TOTALLY off... and one reason y i sit in the first row of class is tat i keep smiling at your silly idiotic comments!!! damn... i am in a bad mood today, and you would have gotten the shit from me had i not been in this phsycial suffering state. you watch it you sucka. one more time you act like a blardy empress dowager and i am gonna turn into the taiwantank and blast you to freaking ashes just like Dr Sun Middle Mountain did to ya dynasty. MUAHAHAHAHAH
posted by David at 10/02/2003 06:29:00 PM
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
this super long post below is actually "posted" before my bitchings about the weather tonite. but somehow i click on the draft thingy and i can't get it posted. hmmm... well anywae, note self... ya a poli sci student, not com sci... so dun mess too much with all these tech stuff. MUAHAHAHAH
posted by David at 10/01/2003 09:38:00 PM
it's been a while. hoho... i guess that has became the standard intro sentence to my blog nowadays eh? well, i just finished my econ 102 MT. it was harder than i expected coz the practise exam we had was way too easy. but it was managable nonetheless and hopefully i can redeem my reputation as a genius. MUAHAHAHAA... WHAT GENIUS??!!? after this still have econ 401 to prepare for tomorrow and following that, the outline/draft for my 15 page polisci research paper. shiok. this is so damn exciting. it is precisely that life has been so exciting nowadays that i hardly have time to stop, pause and reflect on what has been going on. dangerous thing to do i would say. god noes how many screw up things i had done without even realising it even after it had happened. anyway, here are some quick updates on wat has happened so far.
-- hw hw hw hw hw lotsa hw. spending lotsa time in the UGLI nowadays doing all those econ 401 hws like siao with jebai. worse, after i get back to my room (earliest 1am latest 4 am...) i will still have to spend another hour or two to do my readings which are just too much even though i try as much as i can to do them in between classes. MUAHA... so fun rite?!?! all the time spend mostly on econ 401... so far the hws are not exactly tough yet... but workload quite heavy and take a little while to understand and apply them properly. hmm... wat else can i say... it is just so fun!!! HAHAH
-- weather. cold, freaking cold... DAMN COLD!!! expected to snow oledi early tomorrow morning... 60% chance of that happening. well, if the weather forcaste today says so, then it will probably happen. damn... 2nd oct onli start snowing... tat will mean 6 solid months of snowing liao leh! tat is really really not fun lor... by the time winter sem start, this place will be really one big freezer. life is gonna be hard man. HAHAHA
-- classes. despite the hw complain and the evidently lack of sleep. i am enjoying my class like neva before. poli sci and econ kick major ass man!!! but of course poli sci kick econ ass more lah... MUAHAHA... classes are just so goddamn interesting compare to those boring engine classes which is essentially a mass sleep inducing session for me. wat joy wat joy!! life is good coz classes are good and i am totally enjoying and loving wat i am learning now. CHEERS!!!
-- inter human relationship. well, this is perhaps the only rough patch now. like always. got good n bad things. and of course, me being me, happily chose to focus on the negative things most of the time. positive thinking positive thinking. how easy it is to lose faith in people. but unlike last time when i can quickly bounce back and stuff, i think i am getting more and more wary of things like this. can really feel tat i am slowing but surely closing myself and shutting the rest of the world out. maybe i am just too freaking chicken or maybe it is just that there is not enough things around me now to trigger such a bounce back, and thus slowly and slowly, i lose the momentum to get back to the enthusiasm i use to have and the retreat deeper and deeper into my own miserable world. well, tat is essentially the general picture. but i am really trying to desperately uplift my enthu level. but there are just so much exterior elements out there for me to do otherwise and make me find a way to say "to hell with ya... it is none of my freaking business". i think i am becoming less and less zi dong (or Ji Dong as wat Ms F.Lee would say...) or spontaneous/initiative in english term. going the extra mile to help ppl no longer seems like all tat good an idea to me subconciously. becoming cold and brutal?! it is like subconciously i will just stop doing those things, but then when i reflect on it, i will be kinda ashame of y i did not take certain actions or such. but very obviously, the natural instinct is to shut those tat has no direct link or benefit to me out of the picture. scary eh? maybe tat is one reason y i kinda admire those two which i have known for so many blardy years. ah meng and mike. those two really damn ridiculous. esp ah meng. you noe how many times tat guy get screwed by girls? yet each time, he will come back seemingly even stronger and with more love to give. ain't he afraid of being hurt again by some bitch? courageous act or pure dumb buayaness?!!?
-- i think the attitude towards other human inevitably affected my attitude to other things oso. the kind of chiong chiong chiong attitude last time seems so distant from me. of course i can still chiong for hw and all tat stuff. but feel like a tree with its root being slowly corrupted and being eroded away. last time i am probably like a cactus. thorns all over coz i am always chiong chiong chiong. everything oso emotional, enthu and onz onz dunnoe for wat silly reason. small small things oso all excited and stirred up. perhaps i am more calm now or maybe i am just getting too emotionally drain to feel?? now, other than my core work, i feel really laid back and lethargic to push myself for other things. when i was approached last time to see if i wanna help set up a new club, i was like "ah... very busy leh..." even though i tot it will be a good experience. but my first instinct and the way i say it is "argh... dun ga jiao me laaaah..." obviously these statements are base on tiny and everyday things i had observed myself doing. so it is impossible to list down everything here lah... but really, something to be concern of.
-- old friends. YEAH!!! finally got to tok to Teddy after so long. miss him so much. spend so blardy much time working with him in sec 4 until cannot tahan. he is now in St Louis doing both engine and biz... shiok rite?!!? also got into more contact with armhawan. good good. tat guy can finally cook now after some kick in the ass from me. currently in negotiation with him over a potential tour around cali this coming Xmas break. but b4 that, i think in two weeks time i will go chicago. i should get in touch with kaiqing sometimes. he is in Uchicago. but dunnoe he is there yet or not. been too busy nowadays to get his contacts from henghwa. but should do so asap. yeah, the trip to chicago will oso provide an oppo for me to learn how to drive etc. tat trip should give a good indication of how things will be like if going for tat cali trip. Teddy has expressed interest over the trip, but i think i will let him settle down a little more before getting him more involve. if not he start all the prep work and screw up his first term then he is gonna kill me (but hey, it is really just teddy being teddy you noe. tat idiot has been there for one month onli and oledi plan out his evry single class until all the way till graduation. siao... overplan oledi lah if you ask me...) i think dexian is in standford. if can i try to contact him and see if can rope him in thru teddy and get more ppl to go. Shuying is in UCLA, but she is going back to Spore. Karen is in BU and oso planned to go back even b4 she even got to US. so those two girls are out. so i guess it will be a guys trip lah... MUAHAHA... strip club anyone?!?!? MUAHAHA... jk... jk... oh, and as usual, the dangerous ACS(i) tag-team comprising of Ngau Wuren and Jon Lin continues to fascinates me with the way they make their re-entrance into my life. i called jon like two weeks ago. he was in a club so he say he will call me some other day. then when i got back to my room immediately after i put down the phone. i received an offline msg from Wuren saying i should write him sometimes. fine. so i write to Wuren and as soon as i click the send button for my email. Jon SMS me. WAH... really see ghost man... how come so pinpoint accurate until like tat. scary. but tat's not it. after waiting for like a week without any reply from Wuren, i decide to call jon to get Wuren's no from him. tok tok tok tok tok and as soon as i put down the phone, my lycos account got new mail. no price for guessing who the mail is from. argh... dunnoe wat those two are really up to. crazy dudes... really power tag team man these two. MUAHAHA... but still it is good to hear from them. oh, and of course you got those 4J shits who come on to icq time and again. Uchang got tok quite often. but since last week got tok to ben lee twice. doing fine. so are justin who is now an armor specialist. kaihong is going taiwan for training soon and so is sonting i think?!?! edmund oso doing fine. dude, gambatte for prelim eh?! no sweat since you have been mugging so hard. but yeah. nowadays got tok to ed more often. tat is whenever i am infront of the comp lah... which is really not often. Huimin oso busy nowadays and when she is around, i am not. so not much chance for toks. and even if we both are at comp, go so much work to do on each of our side so not much oso. (any case, the thing we tok usually evolve the same thing. and since i am not exactly in the mood to tok about tat erhm... wateva, so not much to tok but bitch to each other about our work... you noe... kinda like "MY SCHOOL GIVE MORE WORK"... "NO!!! MY SCHOOL GIVE MORE WORK THAN YOUR SCHOOL!!!" yeah... say it with the rythem of two 3 yr old kids quarreling about whose dad is stronger n stuff like tat and you get the idea... MUAHAHAHAH)
kk... i think tat is enuff update for now. hahah... kinda defeats the whole purpose of me having a blog. suppose to put this as a way of writing and reflect my daily experience but now only some lousy damn summary after 2.5 week or so. darn.
posted by David at 10/01/2003 09:36:00 PM
it is insanely cold out there tonite. it is more or less confirmed that it is gonna snow tonite. A freeze warning is issued for washtenaw county (where UofM is) and it is all the way till 8am EDT. wat the heck is a freeze warning?? do i need someone else to tell me tat i am freezing my ass out there at this temp tonite?! hhahaha... but wat the heck... like Ivan says... IT IS JUST THE MICHIGAN WEATHER!!! GO WOLVERINE!!! GO BLUE!!! GO MICHIGAN!!!
posted by David at 10/01/2003 08:14:00 PM
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