hey hey... i am still here in ann arbor. the trip to chicago did not materialise yet again. wow... amazing how this chicago things keep changing and turning eh? well, to cut the story short, the rental booking thingy was screwed up mutually both on our part and on their part, so we end up without a car and since no one wanna go there by foot, the trip is cancelled. MUAHAHAH. sad? hmm... not really. disappointed? hmm... abit. angry? hmm... not at all. in fact i find this really amazing and farni. a seemingly simple thing such as going to chicago has eluded me for SO many times that i am getting really chill about it. still wanna see the city, and will definitely hope onto any chance of doing so. but the sense now is i am less agitated about this kind of thing. emotionally more settled?
On this topic. as an experiment of whether i am really more emotionally settled. i rewatched My Sassy Girl. kk, the actress is really cute until cannot make it still. and the story line is still very lovely. but, unlike the first time which i cried like shit towards the end. beginning from when the lead male actor went to tell this other guy the 10 rules to follow tat part all the way to wat i conside to be the climax of the train hopping up and hopping off exchange part. really cried like shit the last time. but this time round, i am still emotionally stirred. but the tears are not there. nope... it is not coz i have seen it b4 or something. i love rewatching movies and reliving the emotion. but this time round, the emotion is still kinda stirred, but nth "broke out" or "down" MAUHAAH.. get the pt? dunnoe leh. am i becoming just more indifferent coz i have seen it all? am i becoming really numb to such emotionally things due to things tat had been happening all these days? or am i just becoming more emotionally stable or wat. MUAHAHAH... guess there is not gonna be a clear cut answer or anything close. could be a mixture of all. but still, the movie is great.
Really tired. really hope this break will recharge me or something like tat. but still, got lotsa reading to do and notes to summarise b4 my PS339 midterm this thursday. and also catch up on some reviews on my econ classes. basically will take this as a chance to update and organise my life and academic work. a good check point of some sort. but i just thought going out of the city for some fresh air would be a nice way of getting the ball rolling. but i guess tat is not to be the case. oh well, no matter. there are things to be done no matter the circumstance. gambatte everyone. hope life for everyone gets betta. FORWARD AND ONWARD!!!
posted by David at 10/11/2003 04:11:00 AM