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Wednesday, October 01, 2003
it's been a while. hoho... i guess that has became the standard intro sentence to my blog nowadays eh? well, i just finished my econ 102 MT. it was harder than i expected coz the practise exam we had was way too easy. but it was managable nonetheless and hopefully i can redeem my reputation as a genius. MUAHAHAHAA... WHAT GENIUS??!!? after this still have econ 401 to prepare for tomorrow and following that, the outline/draft for my 15 page polisci research paper. shiok. this is so damn exciting. it is precisely that life has been so exciting nowadays that i hardly have time to stop, pause and reflect on what has been going on. dangerous thing to do i would say. god noes how many screw up things i had done without even realising it even after it had happened. anyway, here are some quick updates on wat has happened so far. -- hw hw hw hw hw lotsa hw. spending lotsa time in the UGLI nowadays doing all those econ 401 hws like siao with jebai. worse, after i get back to my room (earliest 1am latest 4 am...) i will still have to spend another hour or two to do my readings which are just too much even though i try as much as i can to do them in between classes. MUAHA... so fun rite?!?! all the time spend mostly on econ 401... so far the hws are not exactly tough yet... but workload quite heavy and take a little while to understand and apply them properly. hmm... wat else can i say... it is just so fun!!! HAHAH -- weather. cold, freaking cold... DAMN COLD!!! expected to snow oledi early tomorrow morning... 60% chance of that happening. well, if the weather forcaste today says so, then it will probably happen. damn... 2nd oct onli start snowing... tat will mean 6 solid months of snowing liao leh! tat is really really not fun lor... by the time winter sem start, this place will be really one big freezer. life is gonna be hard man. HAHAHA -- classes. despite the hw complain and the evidently lack of sleep. i am enjoying my class like neva before. poli sci and econ kick major ass man!!! but of course poli sci kick econ ass more lah... MUAHAHA... classes are just so goddamn interesting compare to those boring engine classes which is essentially a mass sleep inducing session for me. wat joy wat joy!! life is good coz classes are good and i am totally enjoying and loving wat i am learning now. CHEERS!!! -- inter human relationship. well, this is perhaps the only rough patch now. like always. got good n bad things. and of course, me being me, happily chose to focus on the negative things most of the time. positive thinking positive thinking. how easy it is to lose faith in people. but unlike last time when i can quickly bounce back and stuff, i think i am getting more and more wary of things like this. can really feel tat i am slowing but surely closing myself and shutting the rest of the world out. maybe i am just too freaking chicken or maybe it is just that there is not enough things around me now to trigger such a bounce back, and thus slowly and slowly, i lose the momentum to get back to the enthusiasm i use to have and the retreat deeper and deeper into my own miserable world. well, tat is essentially the general picture. but i am really trying to desperately uplift my enthu level. but there are just so much exterior elements out there for me to do otherwise and make me find a way to say "to hell with ya... it is none of my freaking business". i think i am becoming less and less zi dong (or Ji Dong as wat Ms F.Lee would say...) or spontaneous/initiative in english term. going the extra mile to help ppl no longer seems like all tat good an idea to me subconciously. becoming cold and brutal?! it is like subconciously i will just stop doing those things, but then when i reflect on it, i will be kinda ashame of y i did not take certain actions or such. but very obviously, the natural instinct is to shut those tat has no direct link or benefit to me out of the picture. scary eh? maybe tat is one reason y i kinda admire those two which i have known for so many blardy years. ah meng and mike. those two really damn ridiculous. esp ah meng. you noe how many times tat guy get screwed by girls? yet each time, he will come back seemingly even stronger and with more love to give. ain't he afraid of being hurt again by some bitch? courageous act or pure dumb buayaness?!!? -- i think the attitude towards other human inevitably affected my attitude to other things oso. the kind of chiong chiong chiong attitude last time seems so distant from me. of course i can still chiong for hw and all tat stuff. but feel like a tree with its root being slowly corrupted and being eroded away. last time i am probably like a cactus. thorns all over coz i am always chiong chiong chiong. everything oso emotional, enthu and onz onz dunnoe for wat silly reason. small small things oso all excited and stirred up. perhaps i am more calm now or maybe i am just getting too emotionally drain to feel?? now, other than my core work, i feel really laid back and lethargic to push myself for other things. when i was approached last time to see if i wanna help set up a new club, i was like "ah... very busy leh..." even though i tot it will be a good experience. but my first instinct and the way i say it is "argh... dun ga jiao me laaaah..." obviously these statements are base on tiny and everyday things i had observed myself doing. so it is impossible to list down everything here lah... but really, something to be concern of. -- old friends. YEAH!!! finally got to tok to Teddy after so long. miss him so much. spend so blardy much time working with him in sec 4 until cannot tahan. he is now in St Louis doing both engine and biz... shiok rite?!!? also got into more contact with armhawan. good good. tat guy can finally cook now after some kick in the ass from me. currently in negotiation with him over a potential tour around cali this coming Xmas break. but b4 that, i think in two weeks time i will go chicago. i should get in touch with kaiqing sometimes. he is in Uchicago. but dunnoe he is there yet or not. been too busy nowadays to get his contacts from henghwa. but should do so asap. yeah, the trip to chicago will oso provide an oppo for me to learn how to drive etc. tat trip should give a good indication of how things will be like if going for tat cali trip. Teddy has expressed interest over the trip, but i think i will let him settle down a little more before getting him more involve. if not he start all the prep work and screw up his first term then he is gonna kill me (but hey, it is really just teddy being teddy you noe. tat idiot has been there for one month onli and oledi plan out his evry single class until all the way till graduation. siao... overplan oledi lah if you ask me...) i think dexian is in standford. if can i try to contact him and see if can rope him in thru teddy and get more ppl to go. Shuying is in UCLA, but she is going back to Spore. Karen is in BU and oso planned to go back even b4 she even got to US. so those two girls are out. so i guess it will be a guys trip lah... MUAHAHA... strip club anyone?!?!? MUAHAHA... jk... jk... oh, and as usual, the dangerous ACS(i) tag-team comprising of Ngau Wuren and Jon Lin continues to fascinates me with the way they make their re-entrance into my life. i called jon like two weeks ago. he was in a club so he say he will call me some other day. then when i got back to my room immediately after i put down the phone. i received an offline msg from Wuren saying i should write him sometimes. fine. so i write to Wuren and as soon as i click the send button for my email. Jon SMS me. WAH... really see ghost man... how come so pinpoint accurate until like tat. scary. but tat's not it. after waiting for like a week without any reply from Wuren, i decide to call jon to get Wuren's no from him. tok tok tok tok tok and as soon as i put down the phone, my lycos account got new mail. no price for guessing who the mail is from. argh... dunnoe wat those two are really up to. crazy dudes... really power tag team man these two. MUAHAHA... but still it is good to hear from them. oh, and of course you got those 4J shits who come on to icq time and again. Uchang got tok quite often. but since last week got tok to ben lee twice. doing fine. so are justin who is now an armor specialist. kaihong is going taiwan for training soon and so is sonting i think?!?! edmund oso doing fine. dude, gambatte for prelim eh?! no sweat since you have been mugging so hard. but yeah. nowadays got tok to ed more often. tat is whenever i am infront of the comp lah... which is really not often. Huimin oso busy nowadays and when she is around, i am not. so not much chance for toks. and even if we both are at comp, go so much work to do on each of our side so not much oso. (any case, the thing we tok usually evolve the same thing. and since i am not exactly in the mood to tok about tat erhm... wateva, so not much to tok but bitch to each other about our work... you noe... kinda like "MY SCHOOL GIVE MORE WORK"... "NO!!! MY SCHOOL GIVE MORE WORK THAN YOUR SCHOOL!!!" yeah... say it with the rythem of two 3 yr old kids quarreling about whose dad is stronger n stuff like tat and you get the idea... MUAHAHAHAH) kk... i think tat is enuff update for now. hahah... kinda defeats the whole purpose of me having a blog. suppose to put this as a way of writing and reflect my daily experience but now only some lousy damn summary after 2.5 week or so. darn.
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