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Friday, November 28, 2003
oh man... it is now 2.44 St louis time, which is like 344 ann arbor time and i am still awake and trying to do a post for 369. am i hard working or am i just stupid? ARGH... can't think of anything to write laaaaaah. so stupid. i cannot access the online course reserves to access those assigned readings so there is no way i can like do a rebuttal base on what is written in the readings and MY way of interpreting them using the world i see it. which is wat i have been doing. argh, crappy St Louis and UofM linkage. supposedly onli those with UofM ip address can access... which make no sense... wat abt those using comcast? dammit... this is lotsa BS. going to the gateway arch tomorrow at 9 some more. this really sux bad.
hmm... i think she is reading my blog. and tat's all there is to it.
posted by David at 11/28/2003 03:48:00 AM
Hey yoz... i am in St Louis now with my TEDDY!!! hahah... it's been an eye opener really. the sch is really different from UofM... DUH... got good and bad lah... but let's just say that i think ann arbor still rockz!!! though many ppl out there would beg to differ (look over shoulder to see jebai... heehee).
the dorm is really nice and new. no narrow short ass corridor like we have in michigan. it is like east quad i think? but onli better. some of these dorms are onli built in 1998!!! and they are gonna tear down this OLD dorm which is like 30 yr old? and build on new one soon. WOW... but i realise that the incoming freshie is onli 1600... which make the entire campus student population about 8000 maybe?! tat is just insane... tat is like the amt of freshie we get in a single year. so you probably would imagine this place to be really small. but no so!!! the academic area is as big as central campus or even larger and i would say it is nicer!! think law quad style and spread it across the whole campus!!! yesh... excessive use of !!! but wat can i say? i am just impressed and impressed. MUAHAH... well, the weather here is really nice oso. was weather a tshirt with a Wash U (hmm... think the sch need a new short form leh... Wash U? wat abt a back scrub to go with it!?!?) sweatshirt tat Teddy bought for me. MUAHAH... yup, the weather is really nice. heehee!!!
yeah, and coz the freshie grp is so small, every one noes one another, which is nice in a way but just not impossible to be done in UofM. but i guess tat really bond eh? hmm... so tat is one thing.
one thing tat REALLY fascinates me the MOST and i really realll like about Back Scrub, er... no i mean Wash Me... nonono... U not Me... (okie... lame...) is tat all classes in the sch is taught by faculty members. no GSI (or TA as they call it here). discussion, lecture and everything all done by Prof. which is really something amazing. faculty to student ration is like 1 to 7. imagine how fantastic this is!! awesome i say!!! but yeah... it is a small school and you can get this kind of things to happen. but hmm... nice rite nice rite!?!?!
okie.. the bad things. if you think (you, not me hor) ann arbor is boring, this place would be hell for you. there is no South U or shops around this place. and i mean none. forget abt the "horrible" briarwood coz the nearest mall is 1 hr drive away. and you have to drive there, coz there ain't no bus and you gotta get thru a highway so no bikes sorry. bunch of cafes selling coffee and munchies and tat's abt it. things are way overpriced here coz the sch sells everything. the onli have two fast food here, Taco and Subway, but one closes at 5 and the other at 8. hmm... bs rite?! the onli late nite ones are the cafes. and yeah, the nearest nearest form of makan and grocery place is call the loop and it is 25 minute walk away. errrrrrr... 25 minute walk in snow during winter? I THINK NOT!!! so no lousy nactos, no lousy brown jug, no lousy wendys. MUAHAHAH... man i feel even more lucky now!!!
i probably should blog abt my journey here oso rite?! tat would come later when i am in the mood or something like tat. but yeah. i am still alive and enjoying meeting up with Teddy again. armhawan, you dun freaking disappoint me ok!?!?! you better travel around cali with me dude. and yeah, can you pls pick up the phone wheneva i call you or at least have the courtesy of calling back when you see those miss calls? argh.. *slap*
posted by David at 11/28/2003 01:15:00 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Less than 30 min to go before the bus ride. Can't hardly contain my excitement. hmm... understandable right? but imaging how i will be feeling when i am about to go back home after all these is done? wonder...
Brought some readings with me to keep me from always sleeping thruout the busride. think it is better to spend time this way.
Just realised tat i have the most screw up finalz schedule in the world. Two exams on the very first day of the exam. three days later one more. then have to wait another 4 days to take the lastpaper on the final day of the paper and immediately get chase out of my dorm. wonderful...
sorry bunch of random thoughts. can't blame me. blame teddy lah of course... dun wanna apply to michigan tat bear... MUAHAH... if he come here then i dun have to travel all the way there to see him right... aiseh... all his fault. MUAHAH!!!
ok... pray tat i have a safe journey. a comfy one. a happy one and a memoriable one.
Happy Thanxgiving and hope you guys have fun!!!
posted by David at 11/26/2003 06:48:00 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
In less than 24 hours, i will be on my way to St Louis Missouri to see my pal Teddy. Absence makes the heart grows fonder. hmm.. ok... shuddup your fags out there. sorry to disappoint but you will never get someone as high standard as me. MUAHAHAH... kk.. i am just really happy about this thingy. jebai will be coming oso. i tot he is gonna be like epol and tell me no money after their extravagant trip to Yosemite and Cali this summer, but i guess the chance of going to St Louis to just to irresistable to pass out on eh? good job dude!!! you didn't let me down!! but no lah... dun go also dun mean let me down lah. but i just think it is an opportunity tat should not be wasted. alamak. thanxgivin stay in annarbor and do wat? study? erm.. i think onli freshies will think tat they can do tat kind of thing. but it is just not acceptable to hear this kind of thing from sophomores and up liao. no money? ok... this is excusable but oso not really valid. just like wat my dad told me last nite when i told him i dun go canada unlike my other friends coz of the visa is gonna cost me like 60buck a year as compare to doing it in my own country which gives me as long as my passport allow with the same cost. i mean, a few more years and i am getting the fuck outta US oledi. so the next time i go St Louis or canada, it is not gonna be a 120 buck greyhound bus rite or a 2 hour drive to the canadian border lor... it is gonna be at least a thousand dollar air tix liao. think of it this way and the money is really not an issue liao lah. but of course tat dun mean travel like siao and use money like fake lah. but i just think it is worth the money lah. hmm... but i guess i am just not persuasive enuff to make other ppl to agree with me eh? hahah!!
also, next time dun book your greyhound tix online. coz it is useless. it is not a reservation at all so tat means even if you do tat, they dun guarantee you a ticket until you go pick it up from the station and they charge you extra even though it is 4 buck. but tat 4 buck means nth coz you still ahve to go down to the station to buy the ticket and if they sold out oledi then you oso won't get a ticket anyway. understand? so tat is 4 buck tat is freaking wasted on me. so folks out there, dun book or buy your tix from greyhound website!!
btw i got into GIEU. and now i need to choose a field site. rite now onli beijing, mexico, honduras, Vietnam and Philippines looks interesting. some other areas need languages like spanish and german so i dun think i can get it anyhow... but top choice? still beijing. dunnoe leh... got until dec 5 to decide.
just realised tat i have to do polisci postings this thursday. which sux... tat means no sleep for me tonite liao... sigh...
posted by David at 11/25/2003 01:13:00 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2003
book my tix to St Louis oledi... cost me a whooping 120 buck... hmm... it is worth it without a doubt. get to travel and see teddy somemore, shiok leh?!?! finish my paper and all midterms liao... phew... almost died doing tat baby... but such a blast and challenge that i really enjoyed even though i almost died. HAHHA... i had to refocus and re-re-research my paper for like 5 times... from doing a specific case study of one of the western province, to the tension between the classes within province, to blah blah blah... can't remember liao... well, your brain tend to go funny when you hardly sleep for 2-3 days and sit in front of your computer for so long tat you had leg cramps... MUAHAHAH... okie fine... it is coz i have fat thighs you happy?!?! heehee...
so now till 12 dec will be a peaceful time liao... will start mugging after i get back from St Louis on the 29 Nov. but will bring some books with me over to read oso lah... should at least finish up more of the Hays readings... lagging quite a bit... the china one is still doing fine so tat is good!! yup, must do more for Hays... esp must finish tat goddam Gilpin book... argh... die... it is such a horribly dry and uninteresting book to read... but bo bian... esp when your prof declare tat he worships Gilpin MUAHAH!!
on a bad note, my computer is screw up even more. i try to reformat the drives over the past few days, and the onli thing i did was to reinstall XP again under a different user name, so all my former documents are still inside the HD but only now i cannot access them... how fun eh?! so now i am without a alarm clock, coz my HD is full liao so cannot install any new programs and MP3s argh.... HELP!!!!!
hmm.... andy and daphne both bloged in cheena about love n such... wah... jia lak... and sound so love sick somemore... yet restrain unlike some idiot *slap myself*... so wat is MY situation now? hmm... i oso dunnoe... like wat i have always say, it is crush. nth more than tat. she is someone tat i tot is interesting and would really like to noe better. but my shyness (yesh, stop laughing you idiots... i tend to suddenly realise there is such a thing call SHYNESS in the world when it comes to girls... sigh...) always stop me from tokking to them... couple with insecurity, lack of confidence and other serious crap shits so i will just foreva sit around and drool onli... MUAHHAHA... but like i told this other girl the other day, i tend to sit on my ass when it comes to love. perhaps i do wanna fall in love n stuff like tat, but i just tend to feel too lazy to make the moves n stuff... so of course won't expect to have anything with this kind of attitude lor. MUAHAHAH... aiyah... rite now i just dun feel anything about those things about love like waiting patiently for someone, thinking about someone despite the break and all tat stuff.. DOWN WITH LOVE!!! hahaha... i mean, i am really not in tat mood rite now for any of tat sensitive stuff... or some ppl call it the matters of the heart... sigh...
i shall sound cheena and cheem oso with this song here... MUAHAHA... HARLEM NO. 1 !!!!!
春泥 - 庾澄慶
漫天的話語紛亂落在耳際 你我沉默不響應
牽你的手 你卻哭紅了眼睛 路途漫長無止盡
多想提起勇氣 好好地呵護你 不讓你受委屈
苦也願意 那些痛的記憶 落在春的泥土裡
滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
迷霧散盡 一切終於變清晰 愛與痛都成回憶 遺忘過去
繁花燦爛在天際 等待已有了結局
我會提起勇氣 好好地呵護你 不讓你受委屈 苦也願意
落在春的泥土裡 滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
落在春的泥土裡 滋養了大地 開出下一個花季
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
風中你的淚滴 滴滴落在回憶裡 讓我們取名叫做珍惜
讓我們懂得學會珍惜
posted by David at 11/23/2003 01:54:00 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Like the Hoobastank song i put here? dun want to loop it lah, can't say for sure everyone like this kind of music rite. but i guess you can say i really like this song. yeah man... crawling in the dark... everyone is doing just tat. you may think you have it all figure out... but i really dun think so... bunch of singaporeans out there think they have it all figure out that they gonna get their 5Cs and wat not. are those your onli purpose in life? wat the heck are we doing here in this world anyway? religion may provide you with an answer, your mom may tell one something and your life experience may suggest another. but tat still dun help at all. crawling in the dark... hmm... how's ya journey so far?!
Hoobastank
Crawling In The Dark
I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
posted by David at 11/19/2003 10:36:00 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
I am thinking really hard about what class to take next term. i am really really sick of theories. rite now ppl are asking me to take Jude Hays class again next term. easy credit they say, 20% is already covered this semester so we are getting a head start. but the thing with that class is that it is so theoretical. trade theories, social theories blah blah blah... shit man, one things i hate abt school is tat it tok so much about those how-it-is-suppose-to-work kinda crap. i rather do case study first then learn from there. Prof is trying to balance the two but it is more like 80% theory and 20% real life stuff. and even tat 20% i can't exactly vision it... so it is bad.
maybe that is y i am haveing so much problems with econ. all those models are just not making sense to me. ok fine, we calculate all the preference set, monopoly rules and all tat shit. SO? how the fuck in this world are you gonna noe wat kind of preference curve you are gonna use? how do you noe wat kind of budget set your customers are gonna have? this ain't making sense at all. then all tat 102 thing about close econ assumption and blah blah blah... er... it is just like tat ridiculous joke about a trapped economist on an island trying to open a can food by "first assuming we have a can opener"... wtf... this is just frustrating... well... it is just my temper eh? it is just me eh?
how can you sit in a room whole day and tok theory and theory when you noe for a fact that half the time it ain't gonna work in the real world. no disrespect to those academics out there. but it is precisely this kind of teaching that you produce students like janet that believes has NO IDEA that japan has one of the strongest and most advance army in the world coz "aren't they not suppose to have an army?!?!?" omg... yeah... those horrible theories that i am sure they memoriesed by hard and hold on dear like a holy guide. sigh... i am not disputing the need of these theories. coz it gives a systematic way of analysing a situation. but i think current academic is just so freaking engross is trying to systemise EVERYTHINg tat did they eva pause to think if it is even gonna work in practise? and tat is precisely why the freaking IMF and WB failed miserably during crisis time. you get a bunch of academic tat is top of their profession. full of theoretical understanding of how things work and you dump them into real life situations. and see wat happened? everything tat is suppose to work in theories failed to materialise in real life. and in the end, you get ppl like Mahathir that seems to have the last laugh but did tremendous damage to the prestige of the international institute. what Mahathir did in the financial sector to IMF and WB is exactly wat Bush did to UN. by acting unitarially, and disregard the current world order, it sets a very negative example and deeply discredits the international institute that governs the world in tat aspect. ok.... so Mahathir "proved" that capital control in extreme times is a good effective way of weathering thru such crisis... and so does Bush "prove" that the i-strike-first method is the best way of defence for a country. so next time, countries as and when they deem fit, can just shut of their market from foreigners, nationalise all foreign investments like Cuba and claim that it has proven by Dr M tat it is needed under the current situation their country is facing... and once China has upgraded its army enough, can launch missles and attacks on countries like Pakistan or Taiwan and claim tat for the security of the country, it needs to strike first to safeguard the nation and the world from "renegade" (renegade coz it say so, coz it want to say so... you got a goddamn freaking problem with tat?!?!) states like those it is after!! what kind of world will this be then?
so back to my original pt. learning all theories are really fucked up. i am like ONE STEP away from the real world out there and i am still spending 80% of the time learning how it is SUPPOSE to work and not how it IS working? this is just BS and loada crap to me man. luckily i am taking Prof Lieberthal's class to keep my sainity. and if you look at it. so far i am onli doing well for this type of classes and getting average grade for those tat give 20% of the real world insight... and the rest are just shit. sorry... i just ain't cut out for all these nonsense and at this stage of my life, i dun feel tat there is a need for me to take this shit anymore. so... the plan now is find a REAL class and perhaps mix them up with some of those 20% classes. yup... tat's the plan. or should i say the theory of how i plan to work?!?!? MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
posted by David at 11/18/2003 04:30:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2003
Yet another parody of Matrix... but this one is for a cause... so go and watch it
http://www.themeatrix.com/
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:41:00 AM
added some pix and music to the site. which means those 56k modem ppl are gonna have a hard time accessing my site and probably will get the usual timeout/page unavailable thingy. hmm... oh well... it is my site after all... so as long as i can access it... MUAHAHAH... *evil*
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:32:00 AM
Hmm... anywae for those curious out there... and have not heard from me yet, Saturday nite was quite a blast. The food was good and it got to play some bball after so long.
That is... if you remove her outta the whole equation. SIGH....
it really ain't fun when you try to crack a joke on her and everyone laughed but her.
it ain't helpful when you play like shit in bball which use to be your forte and can't even shoot from under the basket for your dear life. while others are all playing like SHENZ and you are doing EVERYTHING but impressing her...
but like i say, tat is onli if you put her into the equation. it was fun to be able to play bball again with such a large grp of ppl. aiyah... should not think so much about it coz it is just a silly crush after all... will get over it sooner than i think i will. it will rite?!?! it better be!!!
but my body is STILL SORE till now... shit man... those guys are playing like a bunch of dudes running wild on raging hormones... MUAHHAHAH... jk... but so long neva exercise oledi and then one nite play 3 games nonstop... shit man... tot i was gonna die on the court... but at least i still manage to grab some rebound... hmm... but tat was all abt it.. oh... and i had to fight off two big dudes under the basket and was playing sumo wrestling with them half the time (the other half of the time is spent catching my breathe... MUAHAHAHHA) but yeah... it was fun.
posted by David at 11/17/2003 11:31:00 AM
Finally, after so long, manage to find this song which i was TOTALLY crazy and memorised by hard even before i could memorise the mulitiple table... MUAHAHHA... enjoy!!!
少年狂想曲 -- 黃舒駿
為什麼我會這麼聰明 為什麼我竟然什麼都行
有種強烈的預感常在我心裡 成為偉人好像命中注定
天生麗質難自棄 有時候想起自己就蠻感動的
自古英雄多寂寞 難怪他們都故意看不起我
總是莫名其妙對我搖頭 年紀太小 懂得太多
苦悶太久 內傷很重 胸懷大志 但有點懶惰
我要沉的住氣 莊敬自強 處變不驚
我要趁他們發現我的厲害之前
再偷偷努力 我要沉得住氣 不可以得意忘形
總有一天我要他們所有人跌破眼鏡 都跌破眼鏡
我要精通數學 物理 將來拿個諾貝爾獎學金(咦?)
還有英文一定要流利到嚇死你 我還要多念哲學 歷史 社會 經濟
政治 法律 心裡 健康教育 以後才能在電視上和別人罵來罵去
四書五經不可忘記 多背一些優美的詩句
多看電視還要多背書名 沒事就研究星座 算命
和女生約會無往不利 想到這裡我就暗中竊喜
除了這些我還不放心 要熱愛藝術 要拜師學藝
琴 棋 書 畫 唱歌 跳舞都要練習
還好!我喜歡上體育 有些運動千萬要熟悉
籃球 網球 尤其高爾夫球最引人注意 當這些通通學會
就要開始學習謙虛 表現悲天憫人的胸襟 把握短短的青春
學習如何去愛一個人 這樣才算最美的人生 哇!無窮的信心
多完美的人品 我要趁他們發現我的厲害之前
再繼續努力! 能者多勞 天經地義 不管他們冷言冷語
總有一天我要他們所有人跌破眼鏡 都跌破眼鏡
posted by David at 11/17/2003 01:57:00 AM
I walk alone...
posted by David at 11/17/2003 12:01:00 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2003
sitting on my ass again during work. suppose to come in and do my research on proquest for my 15 page paper tat is due ONLY THIS THURSDAY... brilliant... now is oledi 1.30... work is done by 5... and after tat got TWSA thingy... so effectively if i dun get anything done during this period, i am done for. coz i go back onli will start sleeping or some nonsense and got all those distractions... argh... this is crappy...
abt the comment for the cheena personality survey hor, let me just say ONE THING. during first 3 mth in RJC, i took this test which i think is call 16PF or something like tat... suppose to tell me a whole lot abt myself... or perhaps, my subconcious self. so anywaez, this baby tells me tat i have a strong flair in maths and sci stuff and a good career path would be one tat involves mathematics coz i am suppose to be systematic n all tat... hmm... it threw me into a fuss then... coz i really hated all maths n sci stuffs... and prefer the more humaninites stuff... ok fine... so after coming to college and trying out engineering for a year, i think by now i need NO MORE confirmation tat i really suck in sci and math and all tat related things... but according to this LATEST test, i am still suppose to be good in tat area and will succeed in tat... can someone explain to me how i can succeed in tat when i am getting big fat Cs in tat kind of classes? *scratch head*... i really dun understand how this whole logic works...
posted by David at 11/15/2003 01:38:00 PM
after work at five, will be going to Taste of Taiwan... probably won't have anything to eat so the main reason is still that she is gonna be there... ARGH... she is going to be there!!! *da tank screams like a little girl and run and hide himself (herself?) in total embarrasement like a pussy*!!!
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i am a disgrace to mankind when it comes to dealing with woman... think my manhood is suddenly robbed from me whenever this kind of things happen... SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH...
posted by David at 11/15/2003 09:52:00 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2003
個性
你有很好的平衡感，偏重邏輯式的思考方式。在想要某東西之前，都會冷靜的判斷自己的經濟能力。你不會勉強的貸一筆鉅款去買房子。你是一個在心智上完全臻於成熟的人。每天精神奕奕、充滿自信，同時又很受到朋 友們的信賴。但是相對地，你對日常生活乃至人生的態度稍嫌嚴肅了一點。或許是因為 你給別人的印象就是如此，而你也刻意地去表現出這一面。不過，如果你能更加任性點 ，偶而輕鬆一下，不要固執地想要一直去扮演完人的角色。說不定反而能提高你的聲望也說不定。 你是那種即使明知道吵架是自己的不對，但還是 有意無意會把責任推給對方，彆扭地不想認錯，你是那種稍微低頭也不是很願意的類型。你很會存錢，常在不知不覺的情形下，存了很多錢，而且方法也很合理。你對金錢的態度，認為該花時就不該太吝嗇、但不用花的錢，你也不會花，是個心胸相當大的人。表面上看起來，你好像是一個很好說話的人，其實最最固執的人，就是你了，一旦發起牛脾氣來，任誰也拗不過你，因為在你的內心是封閉和害羞，冷漠就是你用來掩飾害怕和人群接觸的自然反應！你是個講理的人，希望能好聲好氣與別人商量事情，基本上，你彬彬有禮的態度，通常都可以與人為善。但這世界上還是會有一些說不通道理的惡霸，這時候，你也不會被嚇得退縮，你會去找合乎法律程序的途徑來解決問題，讓人家輸得心服口服，你的柔性兼具理性的策略，總是可以奏效。你是心地非常善良的人，但與人相處時為了不想暴露自己的缺點而設了一道防線，所以有時會被人誤會為不容易親近之人，雖然朋友不多，但能擁有深厚友誼。再者有優秀的數字能力，能在理工上一展長才。你這種類型的人,是經歷過各種的苦難.悠煩而建立屬於自己的人生觀,是越挫越勇的人再與人交往方面算是相當順利的,因大多會站在對方的立場體諒別人,很容易受他人的信賴與親近,朋友都喜歡找你傾訴心中的煩惱。思考問題條理分明，對你而言，周圍的人覺得很怪異的事情，你也能理出頭緒，並找出解決辦法，注意不要太固執己見。
愛情
你的感情表現常常是勇敢、開明、自由的，因為你非常的坦然，因此從來不喜歡猜忌或懷疑別人對你的態度和心意。你對人有很好的包容力，如果遇到實在不喜歡的人，採取態度是迴避，不會直接衝突。暗戀是你最拿手的戀愛方式!永遠只在遠遠的地方看著心儀的人,幻想著有一天他會主動來約你.愛他就要勇敢說出來!加油唷。先天上你就是一個會掌控戀情的人，不管是怎樣的戀情，一但讓你遇上了，你都能順利地照著自己的意思運作；而且你非常地瞭解異性的心理，知道什麼時候該撒嬌、什麼時候該使性子，這也正是你的魅力所在，所以對方很快地就會被你吸引。只站在遠處觀看，是不會為自己帶來任何機會的。但是，也許有第三者會被你那謹慎的態度所吸引，這時，即使那個人長得不帥，仍然會使你被他的真誠所感動。有智慧、沉靜、三思後行，尊重人，有修養的個性，是你之所以喜歡他的原因。一旦與他認識，你會希望與他共處一生。你的個性比較沈靜，可是你卻喜歡上陽光、活潑，甚至做事有點傻勁的異性，你們之間像是互補的組合，讓人充滿了甜蜜和期待的感覺。你會使用柔性策略來誘引愛人入甕，因為你知道太過強硬只會造成對方的反彈，就像是無法吹掉旅人外套的西風一樣，你寧願散發溫暖的光芒，讓愛人衷心願意留在你身旁。不過，你也是非常講理的人，只要是必要的活動，你不會限制對方去參加，而且願意成為支持者，真是個明事理又貼心的理想情人啊！你會因愛人的言行舉止，而產生許多迷惑，你不能肯定他是否真心愛你，也不知道愛情會延續多久，所以你時常為了這個問題而煩惱不安，其實你不必這麼懷疑對方，應該以信心和誠意來對待他，才能共創永恆的愛情。基本上你算是很專情的，只是你好像不太願意去承認這些事，只把這種愛慕放在心裡，面對性時，你只是像個孩子一樣，雖然笨拙，但也純真得可愛！你給異性的感覺是個喜歡交朋友的人，所以跟你較相近的對象也應該是個悠然自得、懂得享受愛情的人。你們兩人很可能成為令人近羨的鴛鴦夫妻。在交往的時候你會有結婚的念頭，尤其是選婆婆的意味更濃。因此，以結婚為前提之下，會努力地去尋覓另一半。你從某方面來說可以算是非常理性和冷靜的，嫉妒心非常的薄弱。
事業
看來這裡面最聰明的就是你了，你是一個有城府的人，做什麼事，都會經過詳細的計算和籌畫，可是最不按牌理出牌的人也是你，可能在笑臉的背後，隱藏著什麼重大的陰謀噢！可是你把全部的聰明全放在人際的周旋，相對的，卻對業務上的助力短缺，小心聰明反被聰明誤！你有點太高估自我能力，認為自己才能足以領導大家，很嚮往得到有權有名的滋味，也花上許多時間去爭取，得到後姿態擺得也粉高，卻不知自我才能其實平平，根本無法服眾，這點需要注意。
人際關係
無論遇到甚麼人，你也會真誠相對，實話實說，可謂有點天真爛漫。不過，在某些場合上，卻因過份的毫無保留而令對方感到尷尬。因為 性格率直無機心，所以很受朋友歡迎。為了顯示實力，也會向別人提供不少八卦秘聞，總之有你出現的地方，就絕不會有沉悶場面。工作上，率直的性格令你成 為上司的好助手。你狂狷的性格總為自己帶來一點麻煩，惹得別人對你的死硬脾氣有點感冒。人家覺得不是很重要的小節，在你眼中，可是了不得的大事，要是觸犯了你的禁忌，十年不相往來是很有可能發生的事。雖說如此，你對於合得來的知交，卻是好得不得了，願意以寶劍相贈知己，出手闊綽，令人咋舌。你是那種很看重友誼的人，對朋友很好。
posted by David at 11/13/2003 02:12:00 PM
oh... and can some folks in singapore pls tell me where the hell did tat idiotic "Teo Chee Haen" come from? see lah... this wat i mean by pathetic singaporeans... what to fake oso dunnoe how to fake... and why the heck in this world would someone think of such a brilliant idea? damn stupid until cannot make it... sigh...
posted by David at 11/13/2003 01:55:00 PM
i think this is really crappy... after Teh and Nanim, this singaporean dude was critically injured and now under ICU in some ypsi hospital. fucking shit man... and yesterday got another girl got knocked down by the UofM bus outside the Mleague... this is ridiculous... so many traffic incidents one after another... how screwed can you get?! argh...
posted by David at 11/13/2003 01:11:00 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003
Went to Chicago over the weekend. The trip was really a blast. million of thanx to kelvin for taking me there and slept in the car with me. MUAHAH... the two of us just wonder around the streets of chicago. ate some really good deep dish pizza from the famous Uno and had dim sum in chinatown for breakfast. Chicago is amazing. really. love the architecture. it was really cold on saturday nite. the coldest nite so far since fall (or should i say winter?!) but i was so busy and awed by the things around me that i really dun feel tat cold. yes. it was that good. esp after all the shit i had before the trip. spent alot of money. but it was worth it.
actually we had the car since friday afternoon. but kelvin's computer screw up on him (us) and he had to retype his paper again. so friday was spent with me driving around. yesh... my first driving lesson. lotsa stuns, lotsa sweat but nth is broken except some macro breaks in the neck area due to horrible brakings from yours truly. MUAHAH... but it was good. drove for like 4-5 hours? it was good... hope to get the chance to drive more. we'll see.
so other than the driving lessons on friday, we oso went to makan around. went to zingerman's for sandwich. i tell you. the place serve fantastic food. can't help but keep thinking how much my mom is gonna love this place. freshly baked cake and break. loaves and loaves of them just stack behind the counter. it was heavenly. ordered a eggplant cheese sandwich. totally yummy. the bread tat was used is really good. not some mass produced stuff. or maybe it is to some extend but it was good, very satisfied with the 10 dollar odd spent on it. and i oso bought a cake. sourcream coffee cake for 10 bucks. it is good. love the way the cake is baked. and the combi of taste is marvellous. i think it was the best ang mo food experience i've had in recent times. yeah... i think the dinner with jeff at palio's was kinda crappy as compare to this had we not ordered tat saute mushroom dish. my lagsania was just terribly not worth the 13 bucks.
for dinner we went to this Thai restaurant. ok. cute and sweet thai waitress is serving you meal is always a plus and makes the dish good. again spent about 10 bucks on the dinner. kelvin insisted on eating vegetarian with me. think he kinda regret it. coz the tofu we ordered is really tofu. and tat's it. got sauce and stuff which was pretty nicely done, but i think we paid for like 3 cubes of tofu tat is cute into slices for 10 bucks... dun think it is worth leh... but yeah... cute sweet thai waitress... heehee
ok... i am trying my best to sound relax and stuff but to tell you the truth, i ain't. was in such high spirit when i reached ann arbor. totally fresh and stuff. but after the nice dinner with tien huei, i got back to my room and the first thing i heard was that two malaysian girls were killed a few moments ago. Teh and Nanim. met both before and chatted with one of them oso. They are good friend of farrah and other malaysian girls. hmm... it is neva good when something bad happen to ppl you noe. i am just troubled and sadden by this whole affair. yeah, i dun noe these two girls. but hearing Deera's totally troubled voice when i was trying to find out what happened and imaging Farrah in the situation of havin to identify both body is just... too emotionally disturbing is probably the way to describe it. I mean even though at times like these we can seek comfort from the religious pt of view in tat they pass away during the month of Ramadan and somemore it was right after their break fast prayers. so they probably pass away in the best possible way and oso since it was instant death coz the lorry hit them full impact. but still, you can feel sad and feel that perhaps it is just a little too early for them? that perhaps their presence in this world is needed just a little longer? and perhaps it could have been in a different way? rationality tells us that death is inevitable and it comes one day. but still... the girls are loved and will definitely be missed. we are humans after all. really dun dare to go over to Baits I and see the guys n gers. i was on an emotional stirred high after the trip and i knew that if i see the gerz like farrah and ayun, the emotion is going all the way to the opposite end and i will have difficulty restraining it. no, i dun think i need to let the girls see it when they are not having it easy and i probably shouldn't be displaying so much emotion over it. get wat i mean? probably should be like everyone else tat dunnoe the girls personally so i should just display "normal" level of sorrow since someone passed away. but me, being way too freaking emotional for anyone to understand, and already emotionally stirred... dun intend to find out wat silly things i could have done had i not stopped myself (actually it was the -11 deg temp outside tat paused me on my way of running to Baits I in my tshirt and shorts...) from going over last nite. will go over tonite and see what i can help with. the malay malaysians are pretty close, must all be pretty sad and overcomed to sort things out. hopefully i am a little more cleaer headed and give a hand in whicheva way i possibly can. Al Fatihah. may their soul rest in peace and find happiness in where they may be right now.
posted by David at 11/10/2003 05:14:00 PM
Sunday, November 09, 2003
★ 巨蟹座 ★
巨蟹座在什麼情形下最容易感受到壓力 ----
當巨蟹座失去安全感，或受到委屈時，很容易讓自己陷入壓力當中。
巨蟹座對於不熟悉的人事物需要有一段適應期，如果不能讓巨蟹座有充足的時間來調適將會造成蟹子的「水土不服」。
哪些星座最容易給巨蟹座壓力 ----
牡羊座，天秤座和水瓶座，容易帶給巨蟹座壓力。
動不動就發脾氣的牡羊座，粗魯地對待巨蟹座，將會造成「水火不容」的超級壓力。
天秤座的理性卻讓巨蟹座覺得冷血無情，而水瓶座的不穩定性，帶給守舊的巨蟹座極大的心理壓力。
哪些星座容易幫助巨蟹座紓解壓力 --
天蠍座，摩羯座和雙魚座可以替巨蟹座減壓。
天蠍座和巨蟹座都具有重感情的特質，讓蟹子覺得格外溫暖。
穩重的摩羯座往往能夠帶給巨蟹座信心，而雙魚座的柔軟可以讓巨蟹座享受被呵護的擁抱。
巨蟹座的壓力徵兆 ----
向來好說話的巨蟹座一旦態度轉為比較強硬時，就是巨蟹座表現出正受到壓力的開始。
巨蟹座最易用什麼型式發洩 ----
巨蟹座需要找到一個能夠聽蟹子發牢騷的人，釋放積壓在心裡的壞情緒。
巨蟹座的抗壓與減壓祕方 ----
巨蟹座必須要拓展自己的交友圈，並且學習和人做有效的溝通。
posted by David at 11/09/2003 10:34:00 PM
Friday, November 07, 2003
摘自黑道白皮書
編按：
我們都知道，當一個人已經當到大哥，他通常是不再親自參與一些比較暴力的行動，但是殺人的血液依舊在他們的血管裡不安地流動著，這是沒有辦法改變的事實。
就是基於這樣子的認識，「福爾摩殺協會」的民調中心，日前針對二十位大哥做了一系列採訪，讓大哥們發洩他們心中有關殺人的終極秘密，並整理出來下面這個「大哥們最想砍的對象」的排行榜。
在協會保證大哥們絕對不會洩漏他們身份的情況下，大哥們各個暢所欲言，其結果則讓我們不寒而慄，因為我們發現，殺人的血液不知道什麼時候會讓大哥成為一個突然爆發的活火山……
大哥們最想砍的對象排行榜：
10. 電影院裡一直解釋劇情給女朋友聽的男生
理由：我女兒有這麼笨嗎？
9. 穿著囚犯造型的衣服自以為很酷的小鬼
理由：有人會穿上那種衣服，是因為曾經砍人，我想讓他知道，穿那種衣服不一定是砍人，也可以是被砍。
8. 經常跟老爸老媽大聲頂嘴的鄰家小孩
理由：跟爸媽頂嘴當然不對，頂嘴的時候還說什麼「你們再逼我，我就去混黑道」，那根本是欠砍。
7. 公車上霸著博愛座並且假裝睡著的年輕人
理由：你把他砍成重殘，以後他坐那個位子就不會有人說話了。
6. 盯著老子細姨胸部看的人
理由：我怎麼知道他看的是她的胸部，還是她胸部上面的金項鍊，先砍再講。
5. 模仿吳宇森拍黑道片的導演
理由：吳宇森真的把我們黑道害慘了，現在要出去搞大規模的火併，不但要帶白鴿子，還要像體操選手一樣表演手握雙槍斜飛出去的絕技，像話嗎？一個吳宇森還不夠啊？我倒想看誰敢模仿他。
4. 下載機關槍聲音當作手機鈴聲的人
理由：任何會讓老子緊張的人，最好都先除掉。
3. 開金龜車的黑道
理由：大哥就是要開雙Ｂ，開金龜車，裝可愛嗎？還是耍氣質？
2. 褲子穿得很低，露出半個屁股的青少年
理由：大哥也要有社會責任，幫別人的父母教訓他們子女就是一種社會責任，當然，砍人也許不會是一些父母用的手段，但是看到那些股溝，手真的很癢。
1. 超級市場裡推著購物推車亂竄的小孩
理由：砍小孩真的不是大哥應該做的事，但是，從名列「大哥們最想砍的對象」排行榜第一名的事實來看，這樣子的小孩真的不得人緣。
posted by David at 11/07/2003 01:55:00 PM
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Ok... so we lost to japan in the end. i really tot we had a chance, but given the kind of performance we put up, we really dun deserve it. was it panick? was it inexperience? or was it just fate? well, probably all, probably none. but we lost, and tat is sad. so sad that even the taiwanese flag i hung up on my wall dropped down. yup, it was tat sad. but still, it was worth staying up all nite just for it. worth every minute of it, no matter the frustration, the matter the sorrow and no matter the blardy econ 401 midterm which is gonna take place one hour from now and i barely have a clue of wat is going on still... well done.
i am a sports freak. and i think freak is a very nice word to use coz my relationship with sports is really damn weird. used to play Bball like mad while in primary sch. was really good at it. was good in swimming too. in sec 1, made into bball team in RI but not the swim team coz i dunnoe how to do freestyle.... bleah... silly... hahha... but anywae, has fate would have it, i just stop these two sports all together and started to pick up soccer. now, when i was good in bball and swimming, i have NO IDEA wat was going on in the big sporting arena of these two sports. i.e. i dun follow basketball or swimming i dun learn from any ppl, dun read books, no idea how they aredone in the prof world, but yet, put me against most ppl, and i can beat them. simple as tat. or should i say, as weird as tat. MUAHAH, then soccer, was really into it. could name every player in the english premier league and all those teams in world cup blah blah blah... understand all the technical stuffs, rules, regulations and wat not... but i really suck at tat game. and i mean REALLY suck... so the relationship is hor, the more i understand about a sports, the more horrible i am in playing tat game. which really dun make much of sense... but oh well...
so what has tat got to do with baseball? see... even though ppl always laugh at me when i say baseball is a national sports in taiwan and taiwanese has baseball flowing in their blood, i truely admire tat sports. but in singapore, there is no baseball, only softball. but still betta than nth, in fact, softball was the onli interhouse sports which i dare to invite my dad over to see me play (of course the other sports which my dad dun see will be rugby and all tat "nonsense"... hahah) and my dad even train with me on the day itself and play catch with me and stuff. it was really fun, really love those times. and yeah, did i mention i played first base and was that MOFO tat struck out Alex Ho and Ezekiel Sim (well... they are only like the 2 fastest sprinter in our school... MUAHAHHA) and i was one of the heavy batters. it was a fun game. can't say i was damn zai in them as compare to my peak for bball and swimming in pri sch. but playing the sports make me feel so good. wheneva i slip on tat smelly glove from the basement of the PE storage, it feels like i am COMPLETE. and when i play the sports, it feels like something that hasn't been there came back and made me whole again. yup. it was tat shiok. really shiok!!
the first touch i had with so call real baseball thing was in pri sch when my uncle gave me a autographed baseball (which i still have) tat was signed by Lin Han and this other dude (some Ke Lin or Lin Ke guy which were foreign players playing in the baseball league in taiwan then...) love it like crazy and it was my baby, but still dun dare to touch and play too much with it coz dun wanna smugged the autograph. the second REAL experience was i think in 2001? when taiwan hosted this international baseball tournament. was in nov-dec tat time so i was naturally back in taiwan. remembered i went to the nite market by myself tat day when taiwan was playing. it was so fun. imaging me squatting by the roadside with a bowl of taiwanese o-wa-mi-sua in my hand, sipping and chewing and cursing away in taiwanese with one whole bunch of strangers in front of a BLACK AND WHITE tiny portable monitor and watching the game. and in tat game, Chen Jin Feng blasted two homeruns and the whole atmosphere in the nitemarket was CRAAAAZY. imaging. one whole street packed with ppl cheering and chanting "HONG BU RAN! HONG BU RAN!!" man i tell you... it felt so good. and i guess from then on, i try to catch taiwanese baseball news as much as i could. but still, reading all those news report of wat happened is NOTHNIG like watching the real game itself... so imaging my ecstasy when i came over to US when i get to watch some real baseball match. but i guess all tat reading was good. coz now, after being so familiar with wat slider ball, curve ball, blah blah blah and all tat foreign technical terms. i can now apply them easily and analyse the game play really well as i see them unfold in front of me. muahhaha... it was so fun
so essentially the Taiwan VS Japan match i saw this morning was the second match i seen tat Taiwan is in action. so imaging the excitement when i was again able to hear the national song and see Chen Jin Feng in action again. so wat it was a bit disappointing and the guys like Chen Zi Yuan did not perform like all those news i read about him which made him so god-like. but still, it felt great. really great. but i guess onli a fan with such weird long relationship with this sports and this national team can ever truly understand the emotion here. so seriously, dun care about 401. dun care about sleep. i have a patriotic duty and life time passion to fulfill and nothing is gonna stop me. MUAHAHAH!!!
but even tat said, i think the first and onli major criticism i want to make for the Taiwan team yesterday was the choice of the starting pitcher. seriously, i think ANY other pitcher in the bullpen would have done a better job.
why?
coz tat dude is playing in the pro league in japan which is where most of our opponents drew their squad members from. and if tat guy had a terrible season this year pitching against these dudes, psychologically speaking, how tough do you think he can? and the amount of pressure he is facing? nah. cannot deny he is a good pitcher. the balls are all in the 140km region. means got standard. but, the lack of control of the ball shows just how messy and uncontrol he is. the first comment when i saw the starting lineup was, y this guy. i am serious. this is all i wanted to say. it really made no sense to me. but then again, i am not the coach, but i dun think my arguement is invalid in any sense.
the opposition pitcher really too power liao. really good. hope he can go to Major League. think he can make it. his control of ball is dead on. i mean they are actually just the same thing over and over again. drop ball and fast balls. but they are just so dead on and fast tat we just cannot strike it. so full credit to the japan starting pitcher. Chen Jin Feng was living up to his worth. beautiful strikes. oso hope he go onto Major league next season. taiwan defence really dunnoe wat to say. like i mentioned earlier. unlucky? inexperience? or just panicked? oh well... i am an offensive guy. so i am most concern about the pitcher. i think our bad choice of starting pitcher was very very bad decision.
posted by David at 11/06/2003 07:17:00 PM
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
5：4 中華英雄棒 高麗菜栽了
YES WE WON!!!!
next up, japan you are going DOWN!!!!!!!!
posted by David at 11/05/2003 12:16:00 PM
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Brief Summary
Your first name of David has given you a very practical, hard-working, systematic nature. Your interests are focused on technical, mechanical, and scientific things, to the exclusion of interests of an artistic, musical, or social nature. You have a rather skeptical outlook on life and rather materialistic standards. In reaching your goals, you are very independent and resourceful, patient and determined. You can be so very positive and definite in your own ideas and opinions that others sense a lack of tact and friendliness in your manner of expression. You are inclined to be rather demanding and self-centred in your personal wants, and your own desires can be so overriding that you fail to recognize or appreciate the feelings, opinions, or desires of others. As a consequence, difficulties in relations within the family or with close associates can arise.
Apparently the first sentence is all wrong except for my first name. MUAHAH... ok fine, i am practical, but i guess tat is just a nice way of saying i am unimaginative and unromantic rite? hardworking? nah.. systematic? well, just take a look at my room. the interest part oso super off. i love music and nature and technical, mechanical and sci stuff just bores me big time. the outlook part is dead on accurate but materialistic? hardly... though i understand the importance of money but i dun think tat qualify me as being materialistic. Independent? not for my own standard. Patience has nth to do with me. though i can be resourceful and determined AT TIMES... the opinion part i think quite true oso. but the demanding part hor, i really dun think so. i think i am pretty lax 99% unless you ask me not to lax then i will not lax and make sure you let me lax. MUAHHAAH... but i guess tat is problem isn't it? i look like a pushover most of the time, but when there is something i really want, or when ppl interfere or mess with something i hold personal, they are often surprised by the amount of "aggression" and the uncompromising stand i take on as compare to normal. so is tat wat it mean by me being self centered in my wants? oh well... dun see tat as a crime or something i should lose sleep over. as for relationships hor, hmm... recently i have realised tat i am having difficulties being emotionally attached to someone. let me phrase it in another way. nowadays, my ability to link up with ppl emotionally in a in-depth way is much less than before. getting more reclusive and the enthusiasm to meet new ppl and getting to know ppl better is just almost non existance maybe? good? bad? oh well...
posted by David at 11/04/2003 06:12:00 PM
wah lao eh.... Man U trashed Rangers 3-0... wah lao eh... Old Trafford is Old Trafford after all. Let's hope the Wolverines can say the same thing about the big house when we take on Northwestern and Ohio State. Woot!!!
posted by David at 11/04/2003 04:45:00 PM
Taiwan National Team is up against South Korea National Team in a few hours time.
驅韓抗日 中華隊GoGoGo！
posted by David at 11/04/2003 04:32:00 PM
Monday, November 03, 2003
ok... in order to combat my sleeping disorder and to regain control of my health, i am gonna impose a straight sleeping, lights out curfew watnotfreakingthingyoucallitgoddammit!!! on myself. i am gonna sleep no matter wat by 2.30am the latest. And if i can't sleep coz of wat is now my officially declared SCREWED UP body, i am gonna just do jumping jack until i freaking drop dead or something. yup. probably get tired after like doing 2 of those, but doubt tat is gonna be enough to make me go blank... heck, dun care, screw it made up my mind liao.
do you write on bday prez you give to someone else? i don't. and apparently SOME ppl out there think tat is really stupid. hmm... the way i see it is hor, i am giving the prez to show tat i remember and tat i care. so if you remember and you care, then will remember that i gave the prez to you. if you dun have the heart to remember and care, then y should i force it onto you by writing my name big big with those wishes on it? dun see the pt. but yet again, this is just part of the Taiwantank philosophy/way of looking at human relationships. And yet again. i am not asking you to agree with me. MUAHAHAH
posted by David at 11/03/2003 11:38:00 PM
婓眈郣腔傑庈 譎囮眳ヶ
扆梑珨桲侔崠眈妎腔螺
挍婓忒笢腔瑞鵱 剿賸盄
岆秪峈扂腔敷蠕 斕符堤珋
遜岆斕腔湔婓?襞眢埡?
埽爺 軗徹腔旯晚
曹傖湘翹儂猀堈腔隱晟
泫蹲 婓襞酵腔珨侘潔
隱狟賸淩妗腔佷癩
珨僇①憩夔蟀れ謗跺?佽騷?
珨沭繚憩夔?藪螂鶲?
价饒眳潔 韜堍飲蜊曹
硐猁堋砩眈陓 憩夔眈獗
珨舒濡憩夔結蛂謗跺?佽騷?
耀緇扂扂弝盄
網遢覂斕腔靡趼植れ萸隙善埻萸
謗沭す俴盄軞衄蝠頗腔珨毞
岆韜堍婓蛌曹 斕符堤珋
遜岆斕腔堤珋?襞珚覺?
珨跺 б磁腔砩俋
曹傖珨部郔硒覂腔譎蟋
泫蹲 婓襞酵腔珨侘潔
隱狟賸淩妗腔佷癩
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:40:00 PM
seriously... i have no idea why, but up to now, econ is always the one giving me the problem and no my poli sci class no matter now much reading i have to read and all tat. this is just not cool. not cool at all.
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:10:00 PM
you guessed it... after the last blog which was the nite b4 my 102 midterm, i basically went into some shitty state of being. probably still in one rite now. sigh... this is bad... 102 flunked again. below mean tat is... sigh... and now got 401 coming up. econ is really kicking and ripping my ass apart. screw 102. now i need to focus on 401 and salvage wateva grade i can. but this just dun look hopeful at all. darn.
like reported in the last blog, flag football was the onli thing on the agenda tat day. was in a pissed off and tat whole day after getting back my results. so i slept the whole friday away until the flag football thingy. and guess wat, it was suppose to make me feel better, but i end up feeling like blowing my tops off. essentially i was told not to rush again. i think asking a DE not to rush is like asking the QB not to throw. the whole strategy is wrong for both offensive and defensive plays. it was plain frustrating. i have no idea why the "coach" keep insisting that the the opponent's offensive line is TOO BIG when i am easily making the 2 ppl guarding me flying away. i have no idea why. then the DEs were told not to rush. not to rush, effectively gave the QB so much time to slowly pick his options. wat was the "coach" thinking? i have no idea, other than being a stupid or inexperience, i have no idea why he is doing such things and making such calls. i noe alot of malaysians look at my blog and i am sure one or two will go aroung telling ppl wat i say, but i ain't bother at all. if there are some MOFO with the intention of screwing me up is reading this, you might as well go around telling ppl tat i am not playing for the team this friday coz i am going to chicago to get away from all these BS and about the play-offs, nah, forget it, i will be busy writing my papers, and rite now, i dun think it is worth my effort and time to do this kind of activity.
wasted the whole saturday and sunday doing nth but playing FFX. brilliant, just brilliant. i feel like slapping myself really hard but rite now i am in a really really murderous mood and i dun freaking feel like studying. but shit i still have to figure away to get my 401 straight. but this shit ain't gonna be easy man. being re-reading my notes and the progress is slow as hell and i dun think i will eva finish it. yeah, i should blame myself for wasting time on FFX rite? but i guess it is like taking drugs, i desperately need to take my brain off the crap shit of hws and academics so i turn to FFX, the fun is there while it last, but rite now i am just suffering from the withdrawal symptoms tat is the lack of time. ok, you noe the BS of "neva mind, now tat your brain is fresh, you can study betta" ain't gonna work for me. at least i dun think it is gonna work for me. feeling fucked means feeling fucked. nth goes inside my brain means nth goes inside my brain. but shit i am still gonna study. and study the shit out i am gonna do.
i think i am falling sick again. went to bed at 2 and i cannot sleep until like 430 in the morning. yeah, i missed my 102 and 401 lectures today which are essentially all my classes. but wat the heck, if i pull myself out of bed at 7, i would be sleeping in the lectures anyway. so might as well stay in my room and sleep. need to do something about it. my body is really screwed up now. need to take care of it. need to take GOOD care of it. if not, nth else matters if i dun have my health.
oh... i noe this is not suppose to happen... but i THINK i am having a serious crush again. yeah, you noe, tat type of crush which i always have which i just stay at one side to look at this girl tat is impossible for me and it just make me feel all shitty and lousy inside coz i can neva be up to her standard. sigh... come one guys, by now you should all agree with me tat i need a big big big big slap. and yeah, i really ain't feeling all too good.
posted by David at 11/03/2003 03:04:00 PM
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