PART TWO OF a BLOG ENTRY --- pls scroll further down for the intro first entry
My knee hurt like crazy while i was cycling back from north campus today. It was really so bad that i had a hard time holding on to my bike. let's just say that i was not in the best of mood at tat time and not in a very compromising mood... so i pressed on despite the pain and my inability to control the bike well. The knee still hurts like shit now, but i am glad i cycled all the way back still within 25 minutes, even though towards the later part i was just crawling with my bike. HAHHAHA
Went to north campus today and had a little makan get together with Azwan, Batcha and Fer. I did my taiwanese beehoon and i should say it was a total failure. It could have gone very well except for the fact that i put too little vege into it, and thus was not able to have enuff vege to do their job of sticking their taste onto the otherwise very well prepared beehoon. The beehoon is just the way it should be, soft but bouncy. But there is just not enuff taste tat stuck onto them. So it was pretty bad. WHY? coz i remembered wrongly of what frozen mix vege i had bought. You see, i had tot i bought a pack of the oriental mix vege which would be perfect for the beehoon and i was planning to put half a pack of it into the beehoon. But turn out i did not buy it and instead am onli left with the garden mix vege. So i was kinda reluctant to put those broccoli into the mix and tat really compromises the dish. Also, i added the vegetarian oyster sauce into the beehoon which was not how i would usually do. WHY? coz i was afraid the 3 malaysians won't be familiar with the Taiwanese special BBQ sauce tat i usually put and found it hard or disgusting to eat. So i put the oyster sauce and thus much less BBQ sauce than i would. This again prove to be a very bad mistake coz the flavor was not brought out coz of my inability to control the salty/flavor of the two sauce combine. The vege oyster sauce is very different from its soya sauce paste which i am more familiar with and has a stronger flavor to it. If i had put in the same amt of SSpaste instead of the oyster sauce, it would have been rite on target. But with the oyster sauce, the flavor was just not brought out. sigh... so with these two fatal mistakes, i consider the beehoon to be a failure. It was really paisei that those guys had to eat it and yet thank me and keep praising me for the good job when i think i did so horribly. SIGH SIGH SIGH... nvm, will do a better job next time, if they give me the chance tat is.. HAHAHA
Well, this brings me to a very important lesson that i have learned ever since i came over here to US. the pt abt being appreciated. When i go over to cook tat beehoon, it was just an opportunity to get together with those dudes. I have always wanted to do it since Azwan told me he was eating from a can of tuna by itself and batcha everytime eating maggie mee. I would have chose to cook even more stuffs had it not for the fact tat i am vegetarian now and dun really have any meat that i can prepare for them. But still it is the thought tat counts i think. Whether my cooking is good or bad, it is just my way of telling those dudes tat i din forget them n stuff like tat. Ya think i am doing it so tat i get something in return? like wat? would in the world do ya think i can get in return for doing it for them? and further more, i think i am doing it more for myself instead of doing it for them. I hate eating meals by myself. so an opportunity to eat with those dudes after 2 weeks of eating my meals by myself is just great! so like i said before, those guys keep thanking me for the beehoon and keep saying it is nice n stuff. maybe they are just patronising me and being polite, but still, you noe how tat feels when someone cycle all the way from central campus to north campus? and carry pots and pans and huge bag of food all packed into a big reebok bag?? it feels appreciated. Whether they are being polite or are genuinely appreciative, it dun matter. I feel appreciated and if they hint or ask me to do it again, i will.
I am not a good son. When i was with my mom in singapore, HELL i took so many things for granted. You guys have NOOOO idea how clean my house is. We live by a very busy road. got traffic 24/7. Yet our house is absolutely clean until cannot clean. I can neva understand why my mom always work like mad and always cleaning the house and like to pull me to help her out and clean it when i just want to sleep or daydream WHEN the house is already so clean!!! HELL... OF COURSE THE HOUSE IS CLEAN COZ MY MOM IS CLEANING IT ALL THE TIME!!! and so are the other things she did. Of course i noe she is doing all those and i am just glad she is doing there for me (well... if she is not doing, guess who she is gonna call to do those chore?! so of course i am happy SHE is doing rite... hahahah... not tat farni now actually... kinda ashame...) but i NEVA show my appreciation. When she is always the last one to bath everynite so she can scrub every floor tile in the toilet EVERYDAY; when i always have a hot meal waiting for me when i am hungry or when it is time; when as if she has nothing better to do than cleaning the whole house every minute of the day and doing house work every single minute and neva rest, i neva say a single goddamn THANK YOU. hell... i am a total asshole. It is just two freaking words and i dun even have to mean it when i say it, i just have to ACT polite and those two words would have so very much make her day and make her feel so much more appreciated?!?!?! seriously... i am a dickhead. an ungrateful spoilt dickhead with no sense of gratitude.
but you realise how difficult it is to say those two words those close around you really?!? last time in RI, everytime we organise something, we make sure at the end of the whole thing we thank as many ppl tat were involve as we can. even if we dun have the time, the capts or the individual "big-guys" will go around to thank those involve during the debrief. We feel so appreciative everytime when your friends lend you assignments to copy and throw at them praises like "man, you saved my life" and yet we neva show our appreciation EVERYTIME when our mom cook our meals, when she iron our shirts, when she clean the house, or when our dad brings back his salary, when he look dead freaking tired after a day of work. It is very weird isn't it?! why is it tat feel more ready to extend the kind of appreciation and gratitude to "outsiders" and not our family who are the closest to us?! very strange isn't it? i neva truly understand how this feels or the importance of saying thank you or show your appreciation to even those closest around you until i came here to US. Here are some stories to share:
posted by David at 7/06/2003 01:41:00 AM