*~Nothing much~*

Sunday, March 21, 2004
 
Roughly 5 more weeks before semester ends and exams start, 6 more till everything ends and 7 more b4 heading home.


grades suck... and apparently... mart is oso suffering from that... why the F are we scoring A and B+ on non concentration classes but freaking B- and C grades on courses tat really matter?! holy smoke... this is puking sick... shit man... sometime i just wanna sleep in my bed the whole day, watch movie the whole day and dun give a flying fuck about everything. weak mental strength eh? sigh... i need to take a shower to chill and go back to my blardy econ MT2 prep which has like one more week to go... life's a bitch... isn't it!?



 

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Friday, March 19, 2004
 
2 things to blog about. Taiwan election and the Mindef search on 3 robbers in Tekong.


320 will be the day taiwanese go into ballot box and vote for the 2nd time, our own president. the act of us, being able to vote for our own leader is a sign of a fullblown democracy and one that many of us are proud of. or are we? i have serious doubts when it comes to the maturity of the taiwanese population politically and the development of the political arena in taiwan.


i saw this video when i was back in RI. a history class showing us some rallies that was held during Hitler's reign in Nazi germany. the participation, the passion and the absolute fervor that was being displayed during those rallies were astonishing. it really sends a chill down my spin coz these people, voted in a leader thru democratic means, this leader, gave them job, gave them welfare and make them so nationalistic about themselves, their country, that they end up committing such crimes. one can probably blame everything to hitler, on how he was able to manipulate the people n all tat. but the people itself cannot claim to be totally guiltfree oso. the fact that they were so easily manipulated and gullible cannot be use to say that it is not their fault?


switch the focus back to present. and we look at the political scene in taiwan. 228 we witness something really spectacular. 313 we saw something in tat capacity again. it was unbelievable. how ppl get mobilised under some political slogan. how everyone was just so into it and obsessed about it. i ask, is this an act of a matured democracy? an act of a developed political scene? i doubt so. yeah sure, we see demonstration everywhere in places like US and EU countries. people speaking out their agenda n such. but here, we saw a campaign that has its focus on ethnicity difference? wtf, ethnicity? it is a ethnicity difference that is crafted out and split apart by politicians out to divide n segregated. to see taiwanese being divided and segregated politically by "ethnic" line is very heartaching. i remember the days when things were so much simplier. i could play and chat with neighbour kids that were of "different" ethnic. yet suddenly, all the hatred towards, all the suspicions of and all the crimes that "mainland-taiwanese" commited surfaced. suddenly everyone remembered. the best way to forgive n forget someone, something is by setting aside a day to "commenmorate" the occasion?!??! i say that is bullshit. i am not suggesting that we should bury the crimes commited in the past. but then i also question the wisdom of digging up such thing and wat good will it achieve for the public. i am not tokking about the politicians, i am tokking abt the public. a divided population on an island facing threats from a big enemy a strait away? dun bother to try to convince me that is a wise decision. while watching those video clips on the 228 event, i can't help but see so much similarities between that video and those nazi rallies i saw... most of those interviewed in the video mentioned that they are here to show their pride for the country and want to tell mainland to buzz off and such... yet you could see the camera deliberatedly avoiding other political slogans that were present... slogans tat were political, nth nationalistic about them and yet, things saw by those that attended the event. it sickens me. there is a reason why ppl say politics is dirty. and i cannot deny that even though i am a political science student. the more i learn. the more i study. the more i see, i really feel very disheartened. this is my country. my homeland. and yet, the people on that island behaves in a way that i really can't say i am very proud of. probably sound egoistic to some, but can't help but have this feeling of "everyone is drunk, onli i am concious n sober" maybe that is the advantage of me not being on the island all these while. i saw things from outside. i gathered info from outside. probably can be excused of not "sharing the pain" with those tat actually lived on the island. but i doubt if those rich politicians with their big fat cars and bank account could either if you wanna follow tat logic.


which brings me to something personal. see, i am all interested about politics. i really wanna go back and do something for the country. but then i look at the place, the people and the situation. and i question how and wat the hell am i suppose to do? yeah sure, all the passion, all that enthusiasm and all that FIRE man!! but seriously to jump into a basket full of rotten apple and try to fix things and expect yourself not to get dirty?! how i wish tat would be possible. but i guess i dun have THAT much passion to have such wishful thinking of tat happening. even then, there is really no clear political lines draw. yeah we have a blue, we hav a green. so? who is left who is right? what do they really stand for on issues? everything is just messed up with no clear focus. it is like one party try to do something, then the other party will try to counter it n such... political stand switch everytime, all the time just so that one party is opposing the other. to me, tat is just weird and screwd up. and you call this a matured political scene? hohoho... i dun think so...


anywaez... i need to quickly wrap things up b4 going back to my work... yesh... the manhunt for those damn robbers in tekong. i think this is gonna be interesting. NSAF train so much on tat piece of land. so i am really waiting to see how effective those army men really are. catching them at your own backyard, if you gonna have difficulties, then i feel really sad for singapore... MUAHAHAH... take care folks


p.s. bought next yr's football season ticket n actively looking for off campus housing for fall 2004



Tuesday, March 16, 2004
 
Mr Children -- Kurumi





















nee kurumi
kono machi no keshiki ha kimi no me ni
dou utsuru no?
ima no boku ha dou mieru no?

tell me, walnut
What do you see looking at this city
How do I look to you now?

nee kurumi
dareka no yasashisa mo hiniku ni kikoeteshimaun da
sonna toki dou shitara ii?

tell me, walnut
When I start to hear the sarcasm in someone's kindness
What am I to do?

yokatta koto dake omoidashite
yake ni toshioita kimochi ni naru
to ha ie kurashi no naka de
ima ugokidasou to shiteiru
haguruma no hitotsu ni naranakute ha naa
kibou no kazu dake shitsubou ha fueru
soredemo asu ni mune ha fureru
'donna koto ga okorun darou?'
souzou shitemirun da yo

Remembering only the good times
though it makes me feel like I've aged a sum
But you gotta be one of the gears
trying to get turning
You can have only as much despair as you have hope.
but still, my heart trembles at the thought of the future
'what's going to happen?'
I try to imagine.

nee kurumi
jikan ga nanimokamo araitsuresattekurereba
ikiru koto ha jitsu ni tayasui

tell me, walnut
If time will eventually wash it all away
then life must be a simple affair.

nee kurumi
are kara ha ichido mo namida ha nagashitenai yo
demo honki de warau koto mo sukunai

tell me, walnut
since then I haven't cried once
but, neither have I had many good laughs

dokoka de kakechigaetekite
ki ga tsukeba hitotsu amatta botan
onaji you ni shite dareka ga
moteamashita botanho-ru ni
deau koto de imi ga dekita nara ii
deai no kazu dake wakare ha fueru
soredemo kibou ni mune ha fureru
jyuujiro ni dekuwasu tabi
mayoi mo suru darou kedo

Somewhere I did up the buttons wrong,
by the time I notice, there's one button leftover
and similarly one button hole, in need of a button
If you find meaning in finding someone then fine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
still my heart trembles at the thought of hope.
everytime I encounter a crossroads
I'll fret over which way to go but...

ima ijyou wo itsumo hoshigaru kuse ni
kawaranai ai wo motome utau
sou shite haguruma ha mawaru
kono hitsuyou ijyou no futan ni
gishigishi nibui oto wo tatenagara
kibou no kazu dake shitsubou ha fueru
soredemo asu ni mune ha fureru
'donna koto ga okorun darou?'
souzou shitemiyou
deai no kazu dake wakare ha fueru
soredemo kibou ni mune ha fureru
hikikaeshicha ikenai yo ne
susumou kimi no inai michi no ue he

Eventhough I want more than I have now
I sing for an unchanging love
that's what makes the gears turn
with the burden of more than I need,
making a dull grinding sound
you can have only as much despair as you do hope
and still my heart trembles
at the thought of the future
"what's going to happen?"
let's imagine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
and still my heart trembles at the thought of hope
guess there's no turning back,
so I'll go on, to a road without you.


Monday, March 15, 2004
 
yet another very cute article... i chose the main meaty part... love the description man... i am pretty sure last time at home all our parents SURE got complain one... i personally know that my dad use to wake up with bruises all over the body and i need to have seperate blanket to WRAP ME UP when i go sleep with them when i was in pri sch in taiwan (onli in taiwan coz the bed is bigger... the bed in singapore is onli queen size... but the one in taiwan is this HUUUUGE big traditional bed tat even now can fit the 3 of us!!! heehee)


我們的主臥室裡沒有買床,只買了一張大的床墊直接放在地板上,這樣睡起來跟擺在床上的效果一樣,好處是兒子隨便翻滾都沒關係,頂多是滾出床墊就移到地板上,一點都不會受傷。這張大床墊足夠睡我們三個人,睡的位置當然是爸媽放兩旁,把兒子擺中間,三個人這樣並排睡照道理說應該是睡成一個「川」字,但是擺在中間那個兒子不會就這樣乖乖躺著,所以一般來說這個「川」字維持不了多久,因為中間那一劃是隨時在改變位置的。有時候他會以肚臍為圓心往順時針方向旋轉,旋轉的速度有一次幾乎跟時針一模一樣;有時候睡到半夜發現兒子的腳指頭伸到我嘴巴裡來了,原來三個人雖然還是排成一個「川」字,只是中間那一劃的上下是顛倒的。

這還不是最危險的時候,最危險的時候是當他旋轉到三個人排成「H」字的時候。在這個時候他不會只是乖乖地橫躺在我們中間,他會把爸爸媽媽其中一個人的肚子當成枕頭,就直接把他的大頭睡到肚皮上,另外那個人也沒閒著,他的兩隻肥腳就跨放在另外那個人的肚子上。你也許會認為頭比較重,所以肚子被當成枕頭那個人比較可憐。其實不然,肚皮被大頭壓住固然不舒服,頂多只是會有口水流到肚皮上,不會有致命的危險,但是被用肥腳跨著那個人就得小心了。

有時候他會在睡夢中開始做類似瑜珈的腳部伸展動作,用屁股頂住床面雙腳整隻往上抬,抬到成九十度的時候,忽然兩隻腳利用地心引力用力打下來,這樣從肚皮撞上去當然很痛,但是健康教育老師都教過我們,男生的肚皮下面有一個重要部位,我總共有兩次被從天而降的兩隻腳後跟,直接命中那個重要部位,那一瞬間的痛楚實在是無法形容,反正就是把字典裡用來形容最痛的那個詞找出來,然後比這個字眼還要痛三倍。因為原來是處於全身放鬆的睡眠狀態,突然就從最放鬆最舒服的境界接受到最嚴重的痛楚,大家可以想像那種痛不欲生的滋味。這兩次我都痛得立刻翻下床墊打滾哀嚎,好在我們沒有買床,不然從床上掉下來搞不好真的會出人命。




 
find this pretty hilarious... nth new, but just find it hilarious



強尼•孔老師,以下簡稱強尼以增加親切感。

強尼在自家經營的公務人員培訓學校任教。說是任教,其實也兼任校長及工友。也就是說這所學校的行政人員只有他一個。

強尼在開設學校之前曾經考上公務人員考試,在政府機關擔任小小的公務人員。但後來因為得罪長官,離職之後,開設了這所有名的公務人員培訓學校。

五十五歲那年,強尼為了實現自己的夢想,他帶著學生展開長達十四年的校外教學活動。

現在要說的故事,就是強尼帶著學生進行校外教學時發生的事情。這事情發生的幾天前,強尼跟他的學生在穎水河邊露營的時候,遇上了搶匪,所有的糧食被一掃而空。

沒了糧食的強尼師生掙扎著來到陳國邊境的一個小村莊。

某一天,有著晚霞滿天的傍晚,強尼和學生們坐在地上聊天。

阿路、阿貢跟阿回這幾個強尼心目中的好學生,挨著強尼彈琴聊天,希望稍微能夠藉著彈琴聊天來消解一下飢餓的感覺。

「老師呀,我突然想起師母的拿手菜,竹筍炒肉乾呀。」阿回說。阿回家裡很窮,住在貧民區,他常到強尼家裡搭伙。沒到強尼家的日子,只吃著很少的食物和清水,卻還能自得其樂。(一簞食,一瓢飲,居陋巷,人不堪其憂,回也不改其樂。)

當然,對阿回來說,最快樂的還是到老師家搭伙,享受師母的拿手好菜。

「阿回呀,老師也想很想念呀,尤其是竹筍炒肉乾,那可是天下最好吃的食物!」

聽強尼這麼說,一旁的阿貢忍不住想,怪不得老師總是要我們拿肉乾當學費!

這時,餓得受不了的阿路站了起來,很生氣地質問強尼,「老師,難道像你這樣的君子也有窮困的時候嗎?難道君子也得忍受肚子餓的折磨嗎?」(君子亦有窮乎?)

阿路的話讓強尼停下手中正在彈奏的樂器。強尼什麼也沒說,只是輕輕閉上眼睛想著,肚子已經很餓了,你一定要問我這些問題嗎?可惡,誰規定君子不能窮困呀?為什麼我會有這種笨學生呢?好餓!什麼時候才能再吃得到老婆的竹筍炒肉乾?

看強尼不說話,阿路更火了。他對強尼大吼,「老師,君子也會有窮困的時候嗎?」

這時,強尼緩緩張開眼睛,將樂器放到一旁,看著阿路和其他學生,嚴厲斥責,「阿路!你這是什麼態度?君子就算窮困又如何?君子不會因為窮困動搖了心志。小人只要窮困,就會動搖自己的心志,沒能力約束自己,做出不應該做的事。你想當君子還是小人呢?」(君子固窮,小人窮斯濫矣)

說完後,強尼閉上嘴巴,環顧所有在場的學生,心裡忍不住抱怨,媽的,肚子好餓。一大聲說話,更餓了。這該死的阿路,一點都不會看人臉色。

「太棒了!」坐在強尼一旁的阿貢,用著崇拜的眼神看強尼,不由得發出讚嘆,心裡想,不愧是老師,已經餓到受不了,居然還能夠說出這番大道理!




 




橫眉冷對千夫指,俯首甘為孺子牛




 
how much is too much? should ppl say what is appropriate? or say what is necessary? how do you put ideas across to people when being tactful dun seems to get the msg across, and yet you do not want to come across as being a MOTHERFUCKING dictator and trying to boss around and throw your weight around?


am i piss? a little. why? not because of what happened. but because of what HAD ALWAYS HAPPENED. i am sick of always turning out to be THE BAD guy. always playing the devil's advocate. always the loud lao lian guy, who is insensitive to other ppl's feeling. yeah of course, there are a million ways of doing the job rite. and i am pretty sure from the reactions, i screw it up again. yet again, i come across as being overbearing, commanding and dictatorial?


who am i piss with? no one but myself. and i am not saying this just so that i do not offend anyone else. i have no fucking problem with offending anyone and making enemies. i will no go kiss the ass of someone i dun like, or kick my own ass when it is someone else's ass tat deserves to be kicked. i am angry with myself coz i have failed again. failed again to be able to adjust myself according to what a new team needs. did i make a concious effort to change? yes i do. but yet i failed. i am loud. yes, no doubt abt that, but tat is onli coz i grew up living on the 3rd floor of my house and i always have to communicate with the rest of my family who is either on the 2nd floor or on the first floor. so naturally i tok in a way that is like shouting. but that is no excuse, i dun have the fucking privilege or the right to go tell ppl or limit ppl on their way of judging me. "hey, plz forgive me for my loud voice, i am not shouting, i am just loud naturally and use to tokking this way." if i again make ppl think that i am shouting my way around, bossing my way around, and barking at ppl just because i have a fucking miserable point, then i am the biggest fucking idiot in the world.


am i angry? am i piss? wat the fuck is going on? dun ask me. i am not gonna give you a fucking answer, i dun owe you one, wat am i gonna do about this? it is only my business and my concern. might very well go fuck myself over it, cry the shit outta myself or wateva. but fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. not in a good mood, so dun come near me. i am placing a 24 hr online ban effective now till tuesday morning 1.30am. and i ain't gonna pick up phone calls that i has nth to do with sch work. if i see you on the st, dun bother to wave or say hi. coz i ain't gonna reply. coz that's just the way i am.



Thursday, March 11, 2004
 
ok.... this article my friend send to me is REALLY freaking me out....



微波爐相關報導

以下的內容摘錄自 "疾病的形成與防範" 一書,作者為 洪山本 博士 (新加坡營養學博
士)

首先令我們好奇的是何以微波爐有害? 倘若有害,為什麼政府不回收呢?有個很有意思的比喻,或者可比擬這個情況,當你將一隻青蛙放上一個開著大火的熱鍋時,牠會立刻跳走,但如果你用一根蠟燭慢慢燃燒加溫,剛開始時,青蛙並不覺得有任何燙感,但逐漸的等到牠覺得熱了,想跳走時牠的腳已被熱鍋黏住了,再也無法跳走。

如今微波爐就像那根蠟燭,使用它的人就像那隻青蛙,什麼時候會被黏住,或許是十或二十年之後,但遲早有可能被黏住。

在醫院中輸血,需將從冰箱拿出的血加以溫熱才可輸入人體,曾有護士為了急救病人節省時間,使用微波爐加溫血液,一輸入體後病人立即死亡
以後醫院中嚴格規定,絕不可用微波爐去溫熱血液。

而專門調製給嬰兒服用的奶粉,盒上說明文字,明白寫出絕不可用微波爐去煮熱,因為它會破壞所有的營養。有關微波爐所引起的各式
傷害,蘇聯人作了許多研究,
例如:

(a) 肉類用微波爐加熱後,會產生一種致癌物質,叫 d-NitroSodienthanolanines。

(b) 使用微波爐處理過的牛奶、水果、麥片、會將其中的氨基酸轉化為致癌物。

(c) 蔬菜在用處理後,會將植物生物鹼 (Plant Alkaloids) 轉化成致癌物。

在蘇聯、德國、瑞士等國家,對微波爐造成人體傷害方面,作了許多研究。有人問,如果微波爐有害,何以政府不制止它的使用?
乃因它所造成的傷害,不是短時間內立即可看到可能是在二十年以後才顯現出來,除非有專業研究員,在實驗室作實驗來證實。

而在美國,一切研究以利益為前導,對無利可圖的事,是沒有人去作研究的。 這個國家以科學掛帥,最優秀的人才都做了工程師,
只講究效率、效果,卻不去管後果。

在美國癌症也比其他國家領先,高居第一位。為保護大眾利益作研究的團體幾乎沒有,都是為大公司牟利而研究。比較上,在英國社會學系都是最優秀的精英分子,稍次者才去當工程師,由於當政者資歷背景的差異,在美國為公眾利益而不求牟利的研究是無法和其他一些國家比擬的。
根據蘇聯、德國、瑞士等國家所作對對微波爐的研究,發現有許多負面的結論:

(01) 它破壞腦組織腦的傳播是靠磁波,微波爐處理過的食物,如長期食用,會中和腦磁波,使腦退化,磁波短路,此為長期副作用

(02) 微波爐食物,除了有致癌物之外,它還產生一堆不能為身體所吸收利用的不知名副產品

(03) 長期食用微波爐食物,使男女荷爾蒙分泌量減低或改變。

(04) 微波爐食物的副產品,是長期而永久性的殘存於人體內。

(05) 食物中的礦物質,唯生素及營養大量減少,或改變成致癌物,以及許多不能為身體所分解的合成物。

(06) 微波爐烹煮的食物,使蔬菜中的礦物質,改變成會破壞人體的自由基。

(07) 微波爐食物能引起胃癌,有些胃癌及腸癌,皆與吃太多微波爐食物有關,這或許解釋了何以美國人近些年來,患直腸癌的比例如此迅速增加。

(08) 長期吃微波爐食物,易使身體產生大量癌細胞。

(09) 長期攝取微波爐食物,由於其中營養已被破壞,將使身體免疫系統出問題。

(10) 這樣的食物,終將使記憶退化,精神不集中,情緒不穩定,且理解力降低。



 
dunnoe accurate or not... it is in chinese

http://www.geocities.com/alfreddungeon/ePsych16.html

my results...


以下是你的心理分析說明:

選擇「傻笑認命,假裝不在意」,暗示你的個性溫和,不愛和別人起衝突,但也常被人吃定這一點,就隨便踩在你頭上。有時也該表達你的意見,提醒別人無禮的行為,要適可而止,不然氣勢被越壓越低,以後要再翻身就難了。


-- yeah... 90% of time tat's true... coz i dun really like to argue... but just dun get the wrong side of me... you've been warned................


選擇「荷花」,暗示你擅於等待,因為倨傲的個性,不容許自己主動向人示好;你就像沉靜優雅的粉荷,相信真正的有識者,才能瞭解你的優點。你看起來有點冷峻孤傲,不過就偏偏有人會瘋狂愛上你這一點。


-- very true... but not sure abt the last sentence though.... heehee


選擇「大海」,暗示你很喜歡那種孤軍奮戰的感覺,甚至你還很喜歡一些別人都沒有嘗試過的工作;對你而言,看透這世界的脈動和趨勢,是你這一生最愉快的事;可是相對的,也容易評估錯誤,保守一點可能也不錯喔!


-- pretty true oso... i like to do dangerous things by myself... like to step away from it all and smirk and sneer at the stupidity of mankind (and myself at the same time...)


這題可看出你在遇到傷心事時會有什麼反應。選擇「天上有許多特殊形狀卷雲的小晴天」,暗示你其實是一個內心非常純淨的人,雖然你也想要堅強,或是以無事來粉飾的你的傷口,可是這對單純的你而言,卻是很困難的;你可能可以利用一時的快樂來忘記痛苦,可是一旦遇到觸景生情的狀況,引發的傷痛將是立即且明顯的!


-- you do realise i laugh alot? the sound of laughter drowns the noise of the tears falling inside...


這題可看出你談生意的手腕。選擇「視野絕佳的海濱小屋」,暗示你需要有個同伴和你一起去談生意,你負責唱白臉,另一個負責扮黑臉,這樣一搭一唱,可以產生互補作用。你一臉善良純樸的樣子,沒人會懷疑你的誠意。其實,你是扮豬吃老虎。人家以為你好說話,可以從你身上撈到一點好處,卻不知道你的算盤,打得比對方還精呢!


-- not necessary play the good guy, i have no problem playing the bad guy at all... but like always, dun eva try to push your luck too far or you'll be sorry...


選擇「2 ~ 3人」,暗示你是屬於有話就要說的人,只是在對象上會有所選擇,除非是極為親近的朋友,否則你還是寧可選擇沈默來應付一切。只是你有點自虐的傾向,可能會以極端的方式,像是酗酒或是不吃東西等小動作使自己受傷,來表達你內心的受創情結!


-- totally true...


Wednesday, March 10, 2004
 
have this feeling that i am going all excited over things while the main player involve is like can't be bothered. or maybe it is just that women work on a different mechanism. took the effort to explain to her the need and urgency of doing things and focusing on certain issues, yet after i did all the work and preparations and waiting for her to press the button, she give me one liner style reply which essentially tells me that she has better things to worry about. kinda depressing isn't it? or am i just over reacting? or maybe i am not, coz i am really doing this outta charity, goodwill and not getting anything in return. this is a problem as always, i do all the hard shit work and no one appreciate and becomes so dispensable that the work i done is happily ignored. and why won't it be? afterall, i did this outta my own initiative, i am not getting paid or rewarded for doing this, it cost ppl absolutely nth to use my service, so why won't ppl just free-riding on me eh?! imaging having two plates of food in front of you, one given to you free, while the other you paid like 10 bucks for. both taste equally tasty but yet different, which one would you finish down to the last bit if you can onli choose one?! most ppl would probably go for the one tat he/she paid for coz more is at stake and put into it for it to be there. while the other? it is there, it is free, it cost nth from you. so why not giving it less priority!!?!? haha... maybe i just have this thing for being abused and used for unappreciated work eh?! i'm luving it!!!


 
on a lighter note maybe... i think i should really ace my poli sci 365. if i dun get a grade higher than B+, i will be tremendously disappointed. let's just leave the statement as it is for now. take care ppl!! and remember to leave feedbacks


 
hmm... i have been getting quite some hits and from various different places too!!! wow... there are ppl out there who like to read crap!! MUAHAHAHA... hmm.. airtix bought oledi, so now just waiting for its arrival. things need to do now are to go get my VISA to china, contact my mom so tat she can settle the tix to china asap and figure out wat the heck i am suppose to do when i go back...


beautifully blown up my econ 310, econ 402 n polisci 368. econ 402 maybe can be explained, coz i was really onli half prepared. but econ 310 n polisci 368 was just disgusting. not expecting an A, but to get this kind of grade is just... argh... disappointing. no, i neva rely only on last minute mugging. preps for these 2 subs esp went back like a week before. and picked up pace like 3 days b4... polisci if you really gonna analyze, probably coz i neva go indepth enuff in my analysis and neva draw enuff examples in my arguement, most of them are my own examples which prof lemke could not fault me for so i guess it was the in depth part. think i should kick myself just a little. then econ 310? i hand written all my notes, prepared and memorised wat i tot was necessary and reread the lecture notes... even after the exam, i tot i did pretty ok for the MCQ at least, the 2 essay onces, i am sure the methods were correct, the right formulas were used, but they just dun seems to give me nice numbers (i.e. the numbers make sense, but they are not the ones that the qn wanted...) so i tot at least can have the method marks... then... BOMBED... shit man... give me a freaking B- i dun mind, but to to get a BOMB? hmm... i am alittle depress... ok... really depress...


dunnoe wat the fuck i am doing half the time nowadays, it is like i am just standing still as the world zoom past me... or maybe it is like me just being dragged along using a collarchain by time... not knowing wat exactly i wanna do in life or where i wanna go. or maybe i do... and it is just a case of me not wanting to try hard enuff for it. in another word, i am daydreaming my life away and trying to lead my life down a dream that i am not working hard enuff for. in another word... leading my life down the dump. but it is so easy to give up, so easy to just slack and watch the world go past, so easy to blame things like fate, circumstance, others and everything but myself for the current dump i am in.


is this the same feeling i had when i first went to RI? is this wat ppl call the false sense of me having "arrived"? that being overseas, seeing wat i feel is so much, experiencing what few others had, and being in a institution like UofM, that i start to get complacent, that i feel there is nth more in life to strive for? or is this really a sense of me really not knowing wat to do next? erm... grad sch? wat do i wanna do in grad sch? public policy or MBA? then wat abt career? thinktank job? but is politics really the shit for me? sometimes i just get so sick with wat i see in society nowadays... ok... correction, i get so sick with wat i see in the society ALL THE TIME!! so now wat? me out to change the world one man at a time? seriously... does anyone see me doing that?!?! or maybe... i can just get a miserable desk job, so unglam, so low timer, but sufficient to make a living, no need to go hungry, and support my parents. if tat's the kind of life i wanna have, then why am i doing all these? why is there a need to push myself so hard? can't i just lead life take its course?!?!


haha.. where's the fighting spirit man?!?!?! this just ain't tankish enuff rite?!?! hahaha... this is not hte first time such thoughts occur to me and gets me all moody... and most of the time, the advice i get is that i should tackle wat's at hand, do my best and finish wateva task in sight with my best ability so that at the end of it, i have no regret and having achieved something, i can then look forward to other things in life. i think such kind of statements does have its sense. but then again, with graduation in sight, i am just lost. very lost. i probably am thinking way too much for my own good. or maybe i am just sulking coz of my grades and using this excuse exercise as a form of escapism from the shit i have to face in reality.


no matter which way you look at it, i need help. as always eh? and lots of it..................



Wednesday, March 03, 2004
 
Doing this for a bro of mine, Jon Uglyman Lau.... Jon is really a talented musician. Last time he got perform in the sec 2 end of yr concert and i believe he did so again in the RJ prom nite. pls read below!!!

hey guys this is pretty embarrasing but i posted
some songs on the net so could you take a listen
and give some feedback? and can you help me ask
all your friends on the net to take a look at the
songs and give some feedback as well so i can
improve? basically the url is

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/6/munyew.htm

and if you end up in the soundclick homepage just
search for munyew under alternative bands.
Please do listen to my stuff and spread around.
And feel free to criticise ruthlessly.
Thanks guys.


 
91% Confirm
4-May AA 1483(N) DTW - ORD DEP: 4:34PM ARR: 4:49PM
4-May AA 47(N) ORD - SFO DEP: 6:47PM ARR: 9:20PM
5-May CI 3(N) SFO - TPE DEP: 1:05AM ARR: 5:30AM (MAY 6)
6-May CI 665 (N) TPE - SIN DEP: 9:30AM ARR: 4:05PMPM

9-Jul CI 662 (N) SIN - TPE DEP: 8:10AM ARR: 12:50PM
28-Jul CI 4(N) TPE - SFO DEP: 10:20PM ARR: 7:00PM
28-Jul DL 1804 (K) SFO - ATL DEP: 11:40PM ARR: 7:11AM
29-Jul DL 1140 (K) ATL - DTW DEP: 8:10AM ARR: 9:58AM

Just for your general knowledge...
AA = american airline
CI = china airline
DL - delta airline
DTW = Detroit Wayne Airport
ORD = Chicago Airport (i think it is call O'Hare or something... at first i tot i am flying to ORlandDo... which is really going the wrong way...)
SFO = San Francisco
TPE = Taipei
SIN = duh...
ATL = Atlanta

well... since i am doing this after 2 years... i guess all these transits in one shot won't be tat bad... hopefully... and yeah... i guess this way it is more fitting that i shall call it a world tour eh? coz for my June trip to Shanghai, i will have to transit in Bangkok oso... heehee... world tour baby!!! WORLD TOUR!!!

p.s. i think they kinda screw up my ticketing abit... tix suppose to be US$830 but somehow they email and ask me to pay like 970 instead... and also the timing of some of these flights are abit weird... 15 min flight from Detroit to Chicago? wat kind of flight is tat? are we gonna leave the atmosphere, then nose dive all the way down to Chicago? (can't really think of any other way tat one can get to Chicago in such short time... 30 min is more like it... normal driving time is 4.5 hr... My Greyhound ride to St Louis which went to Chicago first took about 6 hrs... Satchi made it there in 3 (to) n 3.5 (back)... while Mr Kelvin Lee.... 2.5.... dun ask...)


Tuesday, March 02, 2004
 


我學會飛翔
作詞:張雨生 作曲:陳志遠

我在噩夢裡驚醒 又在悸動裡睡去
這一夜我依稀想起 那甜美而苦澀的回憶
不曾磨滅的血跡 洗浴全身的汗粒
用了最真摯的希冀 我終會更奮然而前行

朋友啊 你的激勵的言語
牢牢地貼近我心
愛人啊 你的等待的深情
比我的腳步還堅定

喔 我學會飛翔
飛向最高 飛過鷹族的訕笑
喔 我學會去愛
愛我的驕傲

那是座芬芳環繞的虹橋



Monday, March 01, 2004
 
90% finalised...

May 4th -- Depart Detroit for Taiwan
May 5th -- May 12th Taiwan
May 12 -- June 5th Singapore
June 5th -- July 4th Shanghai
July 4th -- July 14th Singapore II
July 14 -- July 28th Taiwan II
July 28 -- Depart Taiwan for Detroit

More hardcore details to come once i get them finalised. be good, stay tuned and miss ya guys as always!!!


 
Sianz... nothing better to do... term started... in between class... midterm and papers due soon... feel i need to blog something... life has been exciting and boring and everything as usual but not quite... everyday is a wonder, everyday is an experience and everyday i feel more lost in this world. hohoho... welcome to the real world baby!!!




1. Name: Liu Yen-Lin (DAVID)
2. Birthday: 5th July 1983
3. Age: turning 21 soon... BOOZELAND HERE I COME!!!
4. Hair Color: black
5. Eye Color: black
6. Nationality: taiwanese
7. Sex: M
8. Height: 174cm
9. Weight: 75kg
10. Where were you born?: Taoyuan Provincial Hospital
11. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name be?(if you know): Liu Yen-Lin (Nancy) --- my chinese name girly enuff and my mom like to name me after someone she noe... and the onli female she noe with a angmo name then will be my aunt nancy so there... not difficult to figure my mom out!! heehee

Family
12. Brothers or Sisters?: younger sister
13. How many?: 1
14. Names?: Liu Kuan-I (pronounce as yi2 and not the english way of pronouncing I)
15. Who's your favorite?: can i choose?
16. Who's your least favorite?: when she start to be an asshole again...
17. If you're an only child...do you want any brothers or sisters?: NA
18. Parents/Guardians name?: Chi-Tsai & Li Man
19. Who's your favorite?: cannot choose
20. Do you like your family?: yes... no matter wat it may appears to be
21. If you could, whose parents would you have?(out of your friends): Just mine, thanks.
22. If you could, whose brothers/sisters would you have?(same): i am satisfied with wat i have

Friends/Enemies
23. Best friend(s)?: you noe who you are

24. What do you have in common with them(or he/she)?: being truthful with each other and no need to put up a front

25. What do you like to do with them?: everything

26. Most trustworthy: i trust them with my life and i am ready to give up mine for them

27. Funniest: they are all crazy

28. Dumbest: they are all dumbasses

29. Smartest: i dun make friend with smart ppl... MUAHAHAHAH... jk...

30. Best Laugh: best laugh is one tat come rite from the heart and they all do

31. Best Smile: as above

32. Best Eyes: neva notice... not gay

33. Funnest to be with: kk... been pretty vague so i will just be specific here... mike n ah meng of course... 3 of us always hang out for so many years oledi... do so many crazy shit that probably won't be possible in a larger crowd.. but then again... going out with friend is always fun in one way or another so well...

34. If you woke up one morning and one of your legs were gone...who would you call first?: Jason Chen Yong Sheng... you STUPID god of thief betta return my leg back... MUAHAHAHAH... if not... AMBULANCE LAH YOU IDOT!!!!

35. Who's the person you talk to most on the phone?: rite now, my mom and my grandma... satchi quite abit... the TWSA triplets are catching up...

36. Do you have any friends that you have never seen?: yeah... carmen electra, tara reid n etc...

37. Who do you see the most?: Satchi n Mike Tsao (work n class/tzuching...)

38. Who have you known the longest?: MUAHAHA... Ngao Wuren and Armhawan Darsono... since primary sch... WOOT!!!

39. Who's your worst enemy?: [names changed to protect the innocent ie, me]
40. What don't you like about them?: as above
41. Was he/she your friend before?: as above
42. Are they a dumbass?: as above
43. Did they do something to you, or do you just not like them cause of their stupidity?: as above

Love Life
44. Do you have a crush?: crush is the onli thing in my love life

45. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no

46. What is their name?: THEY?!?! shit... who is the one tat leaked?!?! oh well... tat goes my goody goody image... aiyo... carmen, tara, kyoko etc... MUAHAHAH

47. How long have you liked them?: wheneva i feel horny?!?!?!?! siao.... refuse to answer

48. How long have you been going out?: ...........

49. Are you really in to them? or Are you just eh?: nah... just physical man... MUAHHAHAHA... wtf... i hate talking abt this topic...

50. What do you like about them?: la la la

51. Do you think you'll last?: itsy dipsy po lala!!!

52. (for crushes) Do you think they like you?: nope... dun think they even acknowledge my existance

53. Do you think you'll ever go out?: yeah... we went out b4... but dun think she thought much of it and coz i act too cool and bo chap...

54. Have you gone out in the past?: yeah

Favorites
55. Color: green black white, blue n maize, yellow and now it is red more n more

56. Food: i eat everything... as long as my vegetarian diet allows

57. Music Genre: anything is good

58. Band: Wu Yue Tian lor... Bon Jovi is always good...

59. Solo Artist: Wu Bai, David Tao... like alot lahz...

60. Number: 1(got this number when playing interhouse number and it has been my lucky playing number ever since),7,18,99

61. Letter: F?!??! dunnoe...

62. Word: ????... i am a man of few words...

63. Swear Word: i curse too much... (according to the great "psychologist" Mr Jwong... cursing is a sign of insecurity...)

64. Song: rite now i am listening to tat irritating flower song by SMAP

65. Day of the week: Fridays

67. Month: July... coz it is nice and warm and my bday is then

68. Year: 2000 was DA YEAR BABY!!!

69. Age you were: sweet 17

70. Season: summer... always has been... always will be... alanna.. come sch here in michigan for ONE WEEK... and you will start to hate snow... MUAHAHAH

71. Fruit: i just eat wateva tat looks appealing to me...

72. Veggie: my onli diet now...

73. Ice Cream: chocolate chips, coffee and vanilla

74. Movie: Godfathers

75. Junk Food: Anything on offer in kroger or meijer (these are supermkts...)

76. Cartoon: I PROUDLY DECLARE THAT I CAN NEVA GROW UP COZ I AM A CARTOON FREAK!!!!

77. T.V Show: anything tat is on when i sit in front of it

78. Reality Show: they are great comedies

79. Celebrity(including musicians and actors/actresses): Always liked Andy Lau

This or That
80. Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla
81. Punk/Pop: Punk
82. Rap/RnB: RnB
83. Milk/Chocolate Milk: Milk.
84. Computer/Laptop: Computer
85. Nsync/BSB: refuse to answer... not gay
86. Green Day/Blink 182: Blink 182
87. Tupac/Eminem: Eminem... Tupac has really great tunes and beat... but i just can't accept a jewelry loaded dude singing about how horrible his ghetto life is... sorry homies it just ain't suppose to be this way
88. Britney/Christina: i like both when naked
89. Black/White: both can do
90. Dark/Light: Light
91. Blue/Red: Blue more
92. Pink/Baby-blue: who created this gayshit questionaire?
93. Short/Tall: TALL.
94. Phone/Instant Messanger: Phone... i like to hear ppl's voice
95. T.V./Computer: computer.
96. Movie/T.V.: movie... alanna... you can dl movies of the net for free ya noe!?!?! MUAHAHA
97. Mall/Department Stores: anything...
98. AIM/AOL: AIM sucks... but then again... i have quite some hotties on tat list so...
99. 10/100: wtf?!?!?!
100. Internet/Encyclopedia: Net
101. Home/School: Home. z_Z
102. Country/Classical: classical... not a redneck...
103. New York/California: NEW YORK ROCKS!!! probably gonna go there again later this year by myself... tired of travelling with others...
104. Batman/Superman: batman... i like superheros tat is more down to earth... and i have this thing for special gadgets... heehee
105. Half Empty/Half Full: half full.
106. Day/Night: Night.
107. January/June: June.
108. Christmas/Valentines Day: XMAS!

Have You Ever
109. Drank Alcohol: yep
110. Smoked: No
111. Gotten Drunk: hmm... you asking ME?!!?
112. Gotten High: on drugs? no. other things? yes.
113. Dyed Your Hair: decolorising count or not ah?!
114. Kissed the Same Sex: no comment... and jon lau plz shuddup
115. Thought about Killing yourself: yup.
116. Hated yourself: who hasn't?
117. Liked someone way older than you: just crushes... last time in RI got wat... we all love Miss Soh!!!
118. Liked someone way younger than you: just crushes (well... since i am 1yr older than everyone from my batch... so whoeva tat i liked last time in RJ or NJ are all younger than me techinically...)
119. Broken a Bone: all the time...
120. Had Surgery: i had a breast implant!!!
121. Talked to Strangers: yes.
122. Ran Away From Home: yesh
123. Did the opposite your parents told you to do/not to do: isn't tat wat we are suppose to do?!!?!?
124. Sang in public: yes.
125. Worn a Dress: yes. dun ask...
126. Worn a Tie: yesh
127. Worn a Suit: not that i can remember. probably did when i was really young...
128. Gotten in to a physical fight: OH YEAH BABY!!! BRING IT ON YOU MOTHERF*CKER!!!
129. Hurt someone emotionally: i am suppose to be pretty good at tat...
130. Hurt someone physically: oh come on... dun be a wuss (and yeah... i got to cane tris and liangwei on stage in front of their parents!!! *EVIL*!)
131. Made someone cry: yes... i am pretty good at doing tat
132. Said you loved someone: yes... dun think she heard me saying tat... MUAHAHAH
133. Said you hated someone: probably did... i say bullcrap all the time...
134. Talked to a stuffed animal: they will get lonely if no one tok to them wat...
135. Talked to yourself: lots!
136. Driven a car: HELL YESH!!!! record of 5 hr baby!!!!
137. Danced in public: mass dance lor...
138. Danced when no one was looking: shake ya booty!!!
139. Sang when no one was looking: all the time

Other Questions I Seemed to Forget.
140. Do you believe in Love: sometimes...
141. Love at first sight? when i'm being romantic, yes. when i'm pmsy, no.
142. Your Definition of Love: animal lusting?!?!? MUAHAHAHA
143. Your definition of a true friend: we bro, we cool, we dun hide, i die for you anytime etc...
145. Do you go to church: not recently. i have no problem going to one even though i am buddhist
146. Favorite Candy: i like junkfood
147. Are you happy you made it here?: kinda... good way of wasting my time and not study...
148. Are you going to send this on?: it's on the blog, just take it peeps!
149. Did you enjoy it?: it's a quiz. what are you asking?
150. Time: half hour or so?



ok folks... thanx 4 reading thus far... and if you had made it thus far... plz make it a pt to utilise the comment box... even if you are posting crap like i do. thanx