*~Nothing much~*

Thursday, April 29, 2004
 
short entries.

1. i hereby make an official statement: The Taiwantank has NOTHING TO DO with the recent collapses in singapore. Nicoll Highway and AYE are NOT the work of the Taiwantank. The Taiwantank will only touchdown in singapore on the 6th of May.

2. so sad tat everyone is leaving so early. dudes, ya noe who you guys are, plz stay away from the air STEWARDS during the flight and take your terrorising hands away from them too. those tat are driving home, safe journey oso. and Seniors tat are graduating. wah lao... damn sad. yeah i am a cry baby but i hate goodbyes. leaving for the break is bad enuff.. graduating and might not see again.. shit... this is just driving me nutz emotionally and tear-gland wise.

3. in less than 4 hrs, i will be taking my last finals for the semester. so far nth impressive has been achieved other than the fact i have been camping out in library n comp lab for the past few weeks. substantial muggingz have been achieved, but still do not translate into grades. thanx Andy, Monika and everyone for keepin me company thru the nitez. it was fun wasn't it? even though would have much prefering to be like binge drinking, or partying with you guys late into the nite.. instead of studying.... argh...

4. been away from my room for so long. went back yesterday coz was severely exhuasted. onli to find spider web being formed on the shower head!!! wtf!!! tat means no one has been using the shower for TAT LONG?!!? omg... disgusting..

5. my room is in a mess now, went back to sleep for the 1st time in dunnoe how many days... onli to find 3 spiders running across the carpet. conclusion? SPRING IS HERE!!! huh? room dirty? nonono... SPRING IS HERE!!!

6. not touching redbull..

7. i am so ready to just collapse. really really exhuasted. been surviving on coffee and one dollar pizzas for the past few weeks.

8. tok abt food. will be going raja rani later today to celebrate sophia's bday n the end of sem. which is really a remarkable feat for me. coz i remember the first time spring ended when i just got here, me n hong n wanting went to raja rani. then end of last winter i think i went with kelvin to raja rani oso. then last spring i took jeff to shalemar, then last fall i went with ivan to Madras Masala. conclusion? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT WITH ME N INDIAN RESTAURANT N END OF SEMESTER? WHY AM I ALWAYS CELEBRATING END OF SEMESTER IN AN INDIAN RESTAURANT?!??!?!?!?!?!?!



Tuesday, April 27, 2004
 
Michael Doyle is the biggest asshole in the world!!! wasted my whole blardy day trying to figure out what his paper means but in the end it is merely a summary of other's work and bunch of crappy definitions that is just bullcrap academic shitass.... DIE BITCH DIE!!! less than 16 hrs before i kiss Doug Lemke goodbye from Michigan. sorry prof, you really disappoint me this semester. no energy, bad teaching n boring class. wat happened to the passion you displayed in polisci 160? so wat if you kena fired from UM polisci dept? come on man, if you are really a man of honor, you do your utmost best till the last day you are outta of this place. so sorry sir, you can go kiss my zombified/caffeined-fied ass!!


Saturday, April 24, 2004
 
哈佛大學研究的人格分析測驗

將每題你選擇的答案..分數加起來.....


1. 早上起床之後 通常吃什麼當早點?
。蛋和吐司----------3 <-- I chose this one
。麥片---------------- 1
。汽水---------------- 6
。什麼都不吃-------2

2. 如果你可以選任何ㄧ樣你想吃的東西當早點你會選擇什麼?
。蛋和吐司----------2 <-- I chose this one
。其它別種東西----1
。汽水-----------------3
。蛋糕---------------- 4

3. 午餐時?你會...
。不吃東西 因為太忙或擔心體重---2
。吃你想了ㄧ個早上想吃的東西----1
。吃自己帶來的食物--------------------3
。問朋友要吃什麼 再ㄧ起去吃------ 4 <-- I chose this one

4. ㄧ位朋友請你吃ㄧ些她/他帶來的食物 你會...
。吃ㄧ小口 因為實在太餓了----------3
。為了保持禮貌 只吃ㄧ小口-- -------- 1
。拒絕他/她的好意 因為你正在減肥---------- 2
。吃兩口----------6 <-- I chose this one


5. 你未來的男/女朋友請你吃ㄧ樣東西 你想那會是什麼?
。ㄧ塊蛋糕---------- 1 <-- I chose this one
。ㄧ顆蘋果---------- 2
。ㄧ片批薩---------- 5
。ㄧ個胡蘿蔔------- 3

6. 你的狗對你奮力搖尾巴 企圖引起你的注意 你會給他...
。給他ㄧ塊狗餅乾-------------------3
。ㄧ些蛋糕 ----------------------------1
。什麼都不給 拍拍他就好---------4 <-- I chose this one
。什麼都不給 還把他趕開 因為你認為不能讓你的狗
養成要什麼有什麼的壞習慣---------- 2

7. 夢中 你正在ㄧ家全世界最棒的餐廳裡 你想你會點...
。菜單上列的每道菜 反正是做夢嘛!!--------2 <-- I chose this one
。ㄧ個大盤 裡面什麼東西都有的沙拉 ------1
。牛排-------------------------------------------------3
。ㄧ個會讓你多長很多肥油的點心---------- 4

8. 在ㄧ個熱帶島上 你覺得什麼食物是你ㄧ定要吃到的?
。水果和蔬蔡--------------------4
。肉和馬玲薯--------------------3
。冰淇淋 巧克力和蛋糕? ----2 <-- I chose this one
。中國菜--------------------------5

9. 你現在是ㄧ個嬰兒 你媽媽正在餵你吃...
。嬰兒麥片或嬰兒食物-----------------6 <-- I chose this one
。肉和馬玲薯------------------------------4
。綠色花椰菜------------------------------8
。什麼都沒有 你媽正在做別的事----2

10. 你現在是六歲的小孩 你爸爸正在餵你吃...
。批薩--------------7
。義大利麵------- 5
。泡泡糖 ----------1
。胡蘿蔔---------- 3 <-- I chose this one


●得分31-42:

大致而言 你算是ㄧ個冷靜的人
會讓你興奮的情況有
1.當你愛的樂團或歌手要來舉行演唱會
2.和情人約會
3.和朋友跳舞 的時候

對你來說 朋友比什麼都重要
你愛好藝術和喜歡詩詞
你喜歡辦party或幫朋友ㄧ齊籌劃party
通常你身旁不缺追求的人
但你總是三不五時碰到ㄧ些呆板不解風情的人
你喜歡戶外活動
即使下雨天也影響不了你愛好戶外活動的精神


你有時候會嫉妒那些比你聰明或比? A帥/美的人
但當你是個就事論事的人
不會因為私人情緒影響你正確公正的判斷能力
你和你的父母關係良好
雖然有時你會覺得快被他們搞瘋了
你曾不小心看過你父母間的親密行為

認識你的人都覺得你是ㄧ個
可依賴值得信賴的人
你愛動物


so the verdict? hmm... quite true... except the fact that i am usually the idiot tat dunnoe wat the hell is going and i where got ppl chase after me?!?!?! below are the rest of the types...

==============================
。。對你人格特質的描述 。。
==============================
...


●得分12-20:

你是個害羞的人喔!
當處在人多的場合時 ,你便會感到不自在
你常會覺得你的身心生得不是很ㄧ致
或覺得你生錯了時代
你實際上比你看起來要聰明多了
但是你不想讓別人知道這點
大概是屬於那種深藏不露的人

你有ㄧ顆可以容納很多想法的"心"
可是也因為你有太多想法,所以常你的思緒塞車


你擁有藝術方面的天份
你喜歡的音樂類型是:描寫愛情為愛傷心失戀的歌
你喜歡的電影:鐵達尼號
總有些時候你寧可待在家裡享受ㄧ個人的自在
也不願去面對ㄧ些討厭的人們
看來邱比特曾經開你ㄧ場玩笑! 有人曾傷過你的心!
在你童年的時候你的父母常吵架
你曾有過去刺青的念頭


●得分21-30:

儘管生活是有崎嶇挫折, 但你總有辦法克服 順利渡過!
你遭遇過的措折比ㄧ般人多
你曾經接觸過ㄧ些難相處的人
沒道理的規定和不和諧的人際關係


你對愛情的態度就像太陽表面ㄧ般熱情高溫
當你被很多煩人的事困擾的時候
你要不就是非常鎮定的靜觀其變
要不就是以領導者的姿態出現叫大家都閉嘴

你覺得ㄧ個人去看電影沒什麼大不了的
反而想不通為什麼有些人非要有人陪 才肯去看電影
你感到自在不論是ㄧ個人獨處或處在人群當中
你對你的父母不很滿意但又無法改變他們


你會是個很好的情人
如果你能在萬人之中找到和你極為相配的人
不然的話 你和戀人的關係總是不能持久或痛苦結束

你可能已經和ㄧ個你並不愛的人在ㄧ起太久了
生活就像在坐雲霄飛車ㄧ樣
你總是想盡辦法讓生活過得更加如你所願
你要不就是個運動迷
要不你就曾經嚐試過禁藥


●得分31-42:

大致而言 你算是ㄧ個冷靜的人
會讓你興奮的情況有
1.當你愛的樂團或歌手要來舉行演唱會
2.和情人約會
3.和朋友跳舞 的時候

對你來說 朋友比什麼都重要
你愛好藝術和喜歡詩詞
你喜歡辦party或幫朋友ㄧ齊籌劃party
通常你身旁不缺追求的人
但你總是三不五時碰到ㄧ些呆板不解風情的人
你喜歡戶外活動
即使下雨天也影響不了你愛好戶外活動的精神


你有時候會嫉妒那些比你聰明或比? A帥/美的人
但當你是個就事論事的人
不會因為私人情緒影響你正確公正的判斷能力
你和你的父母關係良好
雖然有時你會覺得快被他們搞瘋了
你曾不小心看過你父母間的親密行為

認識你的人都覺得你是ㄧ個
可依賴值得信賴的人
你愛動物


●得分43-53:

你有太多想法和計劃 以致你總是覺得時間不夠用
如果你感到無聊 你總是能夠想出辦法把場面炒熱
你是那種會讓人崇拜的人
你可以說是ㄧ個有能力讓"心想事成"的人


你通常不在乎別人的想法 是個自我中心的人
你可以很自然的在大庭廣眾下親吻你的男/女朋友
"性"對你來說 就像是ㄧ種充滿熱情的藝術品
Sex for you is a passionate art, and you never have a problem inbed,
exceptforbeing a little too wild for your partner
(sorry...想了很久還是決定用英文) < BR>
你擁有過人的精力
你喜歡親自下場運動勝過在場外觀看
常有人嫉妒你的ㄧ切 但這些都很難引起你的注意


你有兩位很活耀的父母
也因此你常覺得他們沒有足夠的時間陪你
你有刺青或是樂團成員
或有ㄧ頭金髮(好像不適用)或?O球隊的隊員
身為人們崇拜的偶像
人們喜歡跟隨你的腳步
希望能變得像你ㄧ樣


即使有時候你也是ㄧ團糟
但你從不讓自己頹廢下去
你總有辦法恢復成耀眼的星星


 
feeling majorly piss now. you noe tat creepy line from 6th sense "i see dead people"? well... here is something even creepier in my opinion.

"I SEE FAKE PEOPLE!!!"


i think this is more fucked up than anything else. dun be a blardy faker. and i am just increasingly feeling that people are just so blardy fake in their own ways around me. and tat just pisses me off big time. here are 2 incidents tat happened recently that make me feel so.


case 1


i have been here for almost 2 years oledi. and you noe who you are. but after so long, and despite repeated me inviting you to go out makan with me n catch up n such, you neva want to. always tell me you are busy or wat not. fine. and i noe perfectly well you just dun wanna hang out with me. so maybe i am a asshole tat is so blardy rough and uncultured and just not gd enuff for you. i dun care. i am doing this coz we were classmates last time for 2 yrs, and even for the level of being acquainted, i think some level of courtesy still applies. you dun wanna mingle with me, fine, THEN DON'T!!!! it is my life, and your life. if you wish to limit the amt of times our paths cross, it is ALSO fine with me, but dun come nosing into MY business when obviously you have shown that you heck care less on other occasions? yeah, so i have been hanging out with monika quite some time, but tat has nth to do with you bitch. no matter if i am going out with her, or just merely friend is NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS. understand? dun come nosing into ppl's life coz you ain't got no fucking rite to do tat. coz you have let me down time n again that you can't be bothered with me. so dun be a moron and nose into ppl and gossip abt ppl. it is frustrating coz you ain't got SHIT to do with wat goes on in my life.


it is not like i am nosing into your business? the fact tat you are always like some loser hanging around girls lilke ayu and susanna and minding evey else's business but yourself was something i neva bother to like nose arnd and gossip abt did i? even when friends from singapore ask how you are ask for reasons y i neva hang out with you, i NEVA say things like "tat fag always like some dog like tat, always following around girls like he is some big pimp, then whole day dunnoe do wat, neva go class, then always copy from others even now blah blah blah" did i? DID I DO TAT YOU MOTHER FUCKER?!?!!?!? so i am warning you to stay out of my fucking business. if i eva catch you doing tat again, it will be my fist smacking rite into your moronic face. i dun mind if ppl like mart or even shih hao doing tat. even folks all the way across the oceans who noe nth, if they make fun or tease or talk trash, i dun mind. but YOU asshole, i mind if you do tat to me. coz you ain't part of my life. you show tat you are not interested in my wateva fuck. so buzz off, and dun come snooping as n when you deem fit. coz i dun apppreciate tat.


case 2


when you have a problem with someone, you tell tat to ppl's face or you shuddup. you dun go around spreading things and yet pretend nth is wrong on the surface. it is being a moron and a fake ass. when you run into problem with projects, if you think your teammate is not contributing and tat you are doing all the work. either you shuddup and do the work and shoulder everything, or you fucking blast whoeva you think is being an lazy ass and ask them to help. ok... so maybe you dun want to call ppl lazy ass n such, coz after all it is a project and most ppl would have more tact than me. but DUN PUT ON A SMILING FACE AND GO BACKSTAB!!! and calling ppl names behind ppl's back? tat is just LOW. dun say for the sack of the unity of the team blah blah blah shit as the reason for not telling ppl to their face and bringing things up. who the fuck is not lazy you tell me? if you ain't no saint, then dun fucking criticise. and name calling just PISSES ME OFF !!! ok... so maybe i ain't go no shit in this. but someone i care is being hurt and no way i am gonna just sit here and hear mealious things being say about my friend. i noe i get more hits than my comment box shows. and i noe there are ppl tat visit my site even though they consider me unworthy or wat not. n tat's gd. so they can tell and spread this info to you. coz i dunnoe how to contact you anywae. if you are doing all the work for the design poster, then you can either blame your inability to communicate and distribute work. or you can just praise yourself for such great ability tat you can do the work that would normally require 3 ppl to handle all by yourself. but to put on things like this on your blog:

my half-assed vanilla website created for my entrepreneurship class -- the final business plan is due thursday and we are barely anywhere close to being done.

on the other hand, my group members for my senior design class are nimwits who have no interest in completing the project until the last minute. i've been pushing and pushing to meet, but nooooo... no one wants to reply emails. everyone likes to complete their assigned parts a week after we split the work while i wait for everyone's lazy asses to complete their part before i can move on and work on the project.

this is why i don't trust people. this is why i hate working in groups. this is why people suck. this is why you all can go screw yourselves.


just go to show how sucky you are really... so obviously EVERYONE around you is being a lazy ass and not UP TO YOUR EXPECTATION rite? so yeah, you the brilliant mofo and noes how to do everything rite? so you are too good for everyone else rite? the fucking truth abt grp work is tat you have to work at an equal pace. so maybe you are brilliant and genius that finish work as soon as you get it. but obviously not eveyone else you idiot. so you can either go help your fellow teammates, or you can fucking go chill one side rite? it is your project, but so is it for them. this is a grp work. unless you can find someway to motivate the whole grp to work as hard as you, or you work hard to finish things, you shuddup and dun call ppl nimwit or wat not. coz either you work and adopt the spirit of grp work, or you can shoulder everything like you did. and shut the fuck up. thank you very much.

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to tell the truth, i dun even noe y i am blasting like this. maybe i am just stress the shit out. or maybe coz again, someone i care abt is being hurt in both cases. yeah sure, seeing fake ppl really pisses me off. but i notice tat somehow as i see more n more such fucking things around me, i really start to keep quiet. started last yr summer with those 3 fakers. i think compare to last time when i will just blast out when even i see ppl being an ass, i am more reserved now. even when shit happens to me, i shut the fuck up and eat those shit. the rage still burns in me, just as i had nite after nite mutilated assholes like these. but rest assure my dear friends, the taiwantank will stop at nth to blast out for you when you are in shit and get screwed over by assholes like this. really believe that the older you get, the more shit you get to see. and ppl just gets so fake all around you. everything is interest driven, everything lost its innocence. or did they? or am i just being clouded by all that's around me that i fail to see the gd things in life nowadays? sure, life can be beautiful. they say we need to appreicate those being mean n evil to us. hohoho... yeah i will... when i stand over their dead seperated body with a chainsaw in my hand. i will give them a nice warm smile as i lick their blood off my face and kiss them goodbye as they embark on their way to hell and also for me as i pay for the crimes and sins i commited too. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH



Friday, April 23, 2004
 
HMMMM... having a major freakout rite now. i just called China airline to reconfirm my flight. and they told me that somehow i did not or should i say my agent did not confirm my flight after reservation and somehow it got cancelled and no ticket was being issued. hmm... but i have the ticket holding in my hand so wat the hell is going on? oh man... this is blardy scary. i dun wanna end up not able to go anywhere after this sem!!! did i mention tat i am really freaking out?!


Monday, April 19, 2004
 
oh... finalz are coming up n i am still slacking. slacking in the sense tat i am working, but not in the combat for finalz gear yet. which is bad. considering my fantastic performance in 402 so far and other courses that are hanging by the thread. hmmm bad... but oh well... played some really nice tennis over the last week and worked my lazy bum out for quite a bit. plus some demoralising bball session on friday. shit man... my marking skill is at a ALL TIME LOW!!! must go back to home grnd tiong bahru CC to brush up on my st bball skill man... cannot make it... it was just pathetic. mark half way will be like where the f is my opponent, and end up marking own teammate. transition n blocking all GONE and keep running arnd like siao idiot being all tensed up and can't see the game at all... omg... wat have i become?!?!?!


 
weather nowadays are brilliant. roughly around 23 deg n i am sweating like a dog. alittle bit dreading the prospect of facing the 33deg temp in singapore. guess i'll just have to down more alcohol to cool my body down when i go back eh?! MUAHAHAHAHA... but yeah... 16 more days before i return. so watch out singapore. the biggest piece of shit besides LKY and his son shall return and stink up the whole place really soon.


my mom has been giving me preps of wat to expect when i go back. obviously in line with the LIU family tradition, i will be expecting hostile reception and will go thru some sort of TAMING period. well... here's how we go in my family. usually like all experiment, there will be some sort of arbitrary observation period. wat it really is, is some sort of data, criminal evidence collection period. every move i make will be observed and watched in silence to match with the in-build, pre-assumed crimes that i am guilty of. so as n when my parents feel that they have collected enuff, or when i have gone out of the zone, they will just come in like gd old PAP and trash me up in one way or another. and i must say that some of the methods they use puts PAP to shame man. MUAHAHAHA... but yeah... i am kinda laughing even though i really hate it coz hmm.... like i said, this is just so LIU family. sigh... so the situation is like i have to "lay low" when i go back, but then, wateva i do, will be interpreted as an act of me "laying low" so even if i got nth to hide and just behave "normal", it will be perceived as an act of "laying low". so even if i try to be nice and do wateva they would expect outta a model son, it will onli be perceived as an act of covering up for my devilish nature... which may well result in even similar or even worse result as compare to me just whack havoc for no reason. so wat am i to do? MUAHAHAH.... trust me when i say i have tried a thousands n one method liao... ya noe... like just behaving like i would, fake fake, fake NOT faking, fake only when necessary or just go head on confrontation and purposedly do things they want to see and give them the evidence they wanna have. MUAHAHAHA... but all end up with me being screwed lah of course. so i guess i really cannot be bothered this time round lah. if they curfew then curfew lor. but hmm... the timing of things really might be bad. coz on the 8th got the law bash thingy, dunnoe should go or not. if my folks noe that it is some kinda of RJ dominated event, it will definitely drive them crazy coz even till now when i mention abt my RI friends coming over to UofM n such, they go bonker... well... it is like mentioning my gd old days in NJ to me lah... more or less the same reaction. so going to tat event would be a crime in their eye... and to have the TAMING session start like 3 days after i touch down (touching down on the 6th) is just blardy disgusting dun ya think?!?!? sigh... oh... and plus the ORA walk-a-joggathon at RJC... still thinking if i should go. but if the goushis are going, then i might just go lah... but really dun think got much to do there oso leh... feel very extra... would rather take one day to go visit RI and make fun at all the teachers. MUAHAHAH... EVIL!!!! but yeah... any mention of the R word would incur similar wrath from above... aiseh.................................... die...


then plus the many possible meeting ups with my bros and jie mei's... the 4J ppl might be able to do it in a gang bang session when i just go out with whole bunch of them one shot n see whoever is free when they book out or such over the weekend... but other ppl will need more personal attention i guess... KP n Chunyi would have to be met seperately and throw in shiwang into whicheva session the big boss wanna go to... alanna can lump up with tris n william. edmund have to see myself coz i doubt he will make it for the 4J gang bang session. then my other jie mei's dunnoe how to meet oso... would be just weird if i meet ppl like mabelle jie or whoeva one on one... oso would be weird if i meet up with all of them one shot... i think i will kena make fun of till i die laughing at myself... ahmeng n mike tat grp will prob meet more frequently with TPH but from wat i forsee, many of these activity are all toe-ing the line of patience/tolerance of my parents... and with like 30 days to fit in all tat, i dun wanna look like i whole day go out n chiong or party or play with my friends instead of staying home with them. OF COURSE i want to stay home lah... but it is this dilemma of balancing the two i guess... hmmm.... and angering my parents would well mean that i kena cut off in singapore AND taiwan... which is gonna be crap...



Tuesday, April 13, 2004
 
posting this song first... why? coz i really have had enuff of Taiwanese politics for now. keeping track of it as usual. but dun really feel like posting about it. sorry BS... will tell ya the diff next time i see you. yeah... think i will tell you in person instead of MSN. but hopefully the situation in Taiwan will be OK LAH!!! MUAHAHAHA


anywae... the onli news from taiwan tat is worth mentioning now is the fact that K金戰士 -- 陳致遠 still suck goat ball eva since his disastrous performance in the Asian Game... sigh... but luckily 恰恰 is totally on fire and so 兄弟象 is going real strong now. GAMBATTE NEH!!! GO BROTHERS!!!


then in MLB... tigers are really doing Michigan proud man... wat a brilliant start. i think even if they start losing all their games, ppl will still talk abt wat a fantastic start they have had this season. MUAHAHA... so yeah... pretty shiok. oh, and tokking about MLB, Xiao Tsao may be pitching for Rockies as soon as end of this mth. hmm... coz the Rockies pitching starters really suck... but i still hope he can play for taiwan during olympics this summer. While i think Feng Zai is really gonna stay in 3A for the season and get traded somewhere else. hmm... quite sad. but that means he will be in the taiwan team. MUAHAHAH... hopefully can catch them play when i go back taiwan this july. DOUBLE SHIOK!!!


quite sianz nowadays to speak the truth. am in tat frenzy state of being where the world rushes around me like a whirlpool/tornado/wateva... with me in the center watching all the frenzy around me and not doing anything. like how i described to Monika the other day. it is like she is foreva so busy rushing hw n project n such. and everytime you see me dragging myself slowly around campus. do everything oso slow pace. which is really weird. blardy turning 21 in 2 mths time and yet i feel like a million years old. feel so choked up all the time. where is the enthusiasm of youth?!?! man... maybe i should like turn paedophilic or something, hang around kiddos more and maybe it will make me feel younger. hmm... but then again... always feel like a million yrs old when hanging out with BS, geoff and wei... sigh... kk... i am old i am old...


OH... and i just realised one thing!!! shit man... tat post abt me having no ball to go after THAT girl when i go back singapore really should not be posted. coz i just tot of a really kewl excuse to tat problem. IT IS SKEWL HOLIDAY WHEN I GO BACK SO SHE WILL BE BACK IN JB SO HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO ASK HER OUT?!?!?! MAUAHHAHA... i am so smart... but maybe just not fast enuff... MUAHAHAHA... but yeah... like this i no need to say i am ball-less mah... and it is not my fault she is in JB wat... alamak... silly moi... MUAHAHA



Wednesday, April 07, 2004
 
btw, i think i have to blog this incident tat happened on monday. late sunday nite, or should i say early monday morning, just before i went to bed, i received this fwd mail from judith telling me abt this talk by Center for China Study. It is a talk by two prof from taiwan, Zhen Da and Dong Wu talking about the recent Prez election in taiwan and its future blah blah blah. well... it listed the profs coming and one of them was Liu I-Chou. who is from Zhen Da and is this really big shot political science prof in taiwan. always kena quoted in news n such. but the other person, since her uni is listed as Soochow uni, i have no idea wat tat uni is and can't find who she really is.but anywae, with such a solid guy from Zhen Da, i decided to go see the talk and leave the class which i am suppose to have early.

so after the block test for tat class, me and mike rush to the Social works building to listen to the talk. well... the male prof oledi done with his presentation and the female one is doing her turn. no choice lor, so we sat down and listen. and i must say, i am pretty irritated by what she said. she clearly has a political preference. yet, to the many audience that are there hoping to listen to an academic explanation to the whole mess that is in taiwan now, some of her comments are far from being neutral and unbias. here are some things she said which i happened to take down. (gave up after awhile coz her english sux real bad and the explanations she gave are just misleading...)

1. in explaining the date of such a hike in discarded vote this time compare to 4 years ago, she stated that this increase has no ambiguity coz there is a rise in every county and city. even those controlled by KMT.

--- i say, even if a county is ruled by KMT magistrate, the appointing of supervisor that makes every decision including how to determine whether a vote is valid or invalid, at individual polling station is by the central election burearu. hmmm... i wonder who controls the central govt agencies?!?!

2. as a side note in explaining why there is a change in the how to determine whether a vote is valid, she made the remark tat this change which make the criteria more strict is by KMT, since KMT feel that its opponents supporters are less educated and thus will not be able to follow such complicated instructions.

--- ahah... i am sure everyone in the crowd enjoyed the laugh. and probably felt that KMT tasted its own bitter food for its silly smart alec behavior. but y she neva give ANOTHER sidenote saying that this change was vetoed and reinstated like a million times 2 weeks b4 the actual voting day until no one noe for sure wat the exact guideline is? and that the bill was supported by DPP in the beginning also?! hmm...

do you guys get wat i am trying to pt out here? this prof is using the tactic tat all taiwanese politicians love to use. they onli tell you half the truth. (well, here in US, they are one step ahead, everything they say oso dun exist... MUAHAHA... WMD my ASS ya shitface...) she say onli one side of the story and ignore the other side. if this comes from politician, i dun mind. but she is here speaking as an academic. why? is she scared of being prosecuted and kena cut in her research fund by DPP govt? harlow... she is overseas, and there is something call academic integrity you noe. fuck it. i AM challenging her academic integrity. coz when i approach her in private and ask her about the possibility of faking votes, she was very firm in brushing off my suggestion and claim that since every vote has to be check and seen by all present in the polling station, there is ZERO possibility for cheating. but as we can see, reports are still coming out on irregularities involved in many polling stations where vote counts are not transparent. go visit this site

http://music.mychat.to/temp/s.htm

and you would noe wat i mean. if this site dun work, msg me and i will send you a copy of this video clip, which unfortunately is in chinese, but essentially it shows a KMT representative raising doubts about how the vote count is being carried out in that particular polling station and her concerns were either totally ignored or being barked down by a man. go see for yourself i am mean.

i am not suggesting tat my pt is THE pt and that her pt is invalid. wat i am saying is, THERE IS A DIFFERENT VOICE OUT THERE. as an academic, you should at least address both sides equally before making your judgement or opinion. it is unfair for you to onli list one side or make fun of one side when there are ALSO counter arguements present. one could well say that the incident recorded in this video is a minority. but just how minority is it? can we be sure? i say no. there are many weird issues involving this whole election. and i dun see why as the people of this country, i do not have the right to find out and investigate these puzzling issues.

btw, if you wanna challenge me to wat i just said, i am setting ONE pre-conditon here:

recently, a recount is being called by the losing pan blue party. Prez Chen has said that he is willing to support a XING ZHENG YAN PIAO 行政驗票 while pan blue and others are calling for a SHI FA YAN PIAO 司法驗票. by rejecting wat prez chen proposed pan blue is being hailed in the media as being making trouble and sore losers. in their word, why the hell does pan blue still wanna make trouble when prez bien has already agreed to a recount. YOUR JOB IS TO FIND OUT WAT IS (if there is any...)THE DIFFERENCE IN THESE TWO TYPE OF RECOUNT. hopefully this small exercise will let you understand the tiny little tricks that politicians in taiwan use to mislead the public. answer will either be posted when 3 ppl left their comments (call it motivation) or when i feel like giving it (which means it is when i am bored... MUAHAHA)


 
hey.... received ALOT of hits over the past 2 days... eh... is it coz ppl want to see how i "retaliate" back at alanna after wat i said in her comment box?? well.... i swear it is not a publicity stunt to generate more hits to my site... but i am afraid i won't be doing any reply to tat issue anymore. well... not directly anywae. why?

1. coz i am very sick. very very sick. since last thursday i have been suffering from bad throat (actually it is inflammation of the whole breathing area... from the nose all the way down... coz i am not breathing properly oso...) plus fever and NOSE BLEED... quite bad... esp the throat part... just killing me until very bad mood nowadays... and not to mention cannot focus properly... so in this current state of mine, i dun think i would want to do any serious respond. lest i do something too silly and say things tat offend people which i have no intention of offending.

2. saw wat alanna just did coming. nonono... this is not saying tat alanna always PMS (she does... but not like this lah...) when we "argue" and end the "arguement" this way by keeping quiet. nonono... but as i was reading her responses. i think some of the opinions she said is way to personal for me to comment. i mean DUH lah... of course she is saying how she feel n such... wat i mean is that her opinion on the things being said concerns certain values which i totally cannot agree with sometimes... but i think it is suicidal if i am to try to make comments about those values thru such a mean (i.e. thru blogging....) plus besides being useless, it invites more confrontation. For me, i have no problem if someone tell me how messed up i am (i am messed up. I NOE. but whether i do anything abt it is totally another issue...). i even have no problem if someone stand in the middle of the crowd and declare tat i am the biggest asshole in the world. (note: i MIGHT be the biggest asshole in the world, but i DO NOT... i repeat i DO NOT have the biggest asshole in the world.). but if tat same person were to do that in front of my parents, post it in some newspaper, or is someone i dun even noe, then i will be really pissed. ok... having said tat abt myself (erm... coz this is still my blog afterall wat.... WAKE UP!!!) i think i will not want to make such "challenge" to alanna here. i am pretty sure with the open mind she has, she won't mind. but i do. and it is my blardy time and effort so I DO WAT I WISH. call it excuse call it wateva shit, i dun care. but this is wat I THINK. and i am sticking with it.

so there you go, the two main reason y you will not see more abt alanna's 3.8 issue here anymore. but, i did say that i will wish to touch on some of the issues being raised in some capacity some other time. so yeap... more crap shit coming ya way. arigato!!!


Sunday, April 04, 2004
 
Conspiracy between Me n Azwan... it's da SOGGY BOTTOM BOYS!!! haha... this is such erm... "irritating" song tat just stucks in your head... HAHAHA... next time must go get the AZWAN version man!! hahah







 
ok.... i apologise like tris said... prob misread the part on self improvement and maintaining the score... but then if you read your newest reply hor... somethings just dun make sense you noe... you noe how long it takes me to read n trying to figure out what you were trying to say? let's just say that i make reading axelrod and keohane's articles feels like reading enid blyton's... but anywae...

tat sentence i said, upon re-reading it, has alot of fallacies, but guess it is not meant to stand by itself and should be read with a larger context. 3.8 is NOT a bad score by any degree... i dunnoe how tat work in NUS, but any grade above 3.5 is FANTASTIC. and onli singaporeans will lament on the fact that they are not longer a 4.0... so, if you had studied hard, and got 3.8 instead of 4.0, you SHOULD NOT feel bad or THINK it is a bad score. coz it is not. so the problem here is, you say

"I haven't satisfied myself whatsoever by scoring that result, even though I put in my effort, doesn't that kind of translate into I feel not good?"

so da pt is, THAT result is good, there is no reason for feeling sad. on one hand you are trying to say that 3.8 is not miserable but on the other hand, you refer to it as a prove/result of you dun having a mind to study, and on the THIRD HAND/limb/wateva... you wish to maintain it still. ok... so maybe for a low-achiever like me this make no sense to me... a lameass RI houseTshirt once read "A Hero's Vision is a coward's dream" so is this the case here? you are not satisfied with 3.8, you must go for tat 4.0... that 0.2 is so important to you since it matters to the society, it matters to you? i REALLY REALLY hope that the quest for 4.0 is coz of self improvement and not for others. but... you need to do a better job in convincing me that it is a case of the former...

social expectation. sorry girly, but you oledi outta it liao. want to meet social expectation? doing ARTS is hohoho... SUCH A FABULOUS WAY to try to meet social expectations baby... go do biotech, or engineering, or law or wateva... but arts? seriously... so you think you can meet social expectation by getting a 4.0 in a faculty that is oledi not within social expectation and full of false stereotype forced onto it? seeking redemption? or is it more ok to do a 3.8 in engineering and that if you set your sight on 3.8 in arts then you are just sinking in deeper and zhi gan duo luo?? can't you see how silly this whole situation is? not trying to be some crusader out to break all social norms and silly rules, but well... no way that is gonna get me down oso... so wat do you mean by a mediocre job? or rather, wat do you want to be a non-mediocre job? mediocre or not medicore is all depending on you... or is it by society?? when you see some dude you ALWAYS fight with in a soccer match becoming a prez scholar, does tat make you feel lesser and that he/she doing polisci in Yale or Harvard makes your degree less shiny n prestigous? oh yeah... ask any uncle aunty in singapore and they will tell you tat's the case. coz you are always in that tiny island seeing the same old ppl along orchard and everywhere you go wat. it is like seeing aunties comparing their kids about their latest test score. why? coz that is their tiny little world, the onli person they can compare to. do you see where i am going with this arguement? girly... singapore is NOT the world not THE society. dun say coz you are singaporean and this is your country blah blah blah... open your eyes man. China, india, peru and mexico dun exist onli in your idiotbox hor...

see... the bulk of this arguement i am doing here is on the blardy social expectation part. coz i think tat is the part tat is dragging you down. so damn those quitter/stayer arguement, this is the age of globalisation and the world outside is being challenged by new level of social standards and you are still worrying about satisfying the singaporean social standard? i would seriously worry if i do have any practical skill or attitude when i go into the job mkt man... or if i have any practical experience or the flexibility to catch on the latest trend in this world (you noe how stubborn and deadbrain i am). if i have a 3.8, i have more important things to worry about and lose my sleep over. hmm.... again, this reply sure like swiss cheese. so waiting for you to strike back lor... haha... dun disappoint me!!! *EVIL*


 
Me: so i heard *name hidden to protect individual* is in law
Alanna: yeah
Me: hohohoho
Alanna: where you hear from?
Me: *another name hidden so tat this individual will not be hurt by the previous individual... considering the 1st person's destructive nature... MUAHAHAH*
Alanna: HAIYAH
Alanna: actually you crush her very long already right
Alanna: please lah
Alanna: just come back and ask her out
Alanna: then settle lah, k

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Me wanted to say: erm... one little problem... i got no freaking ball when it comes to this kind of thing... how?!

...................go shot myself lor...........................

such bitter sweat memory... reminds me of what i had and how beautifully i crushed wat i had... i look back at some of the girls i liked and was crazy about... the one in pri sch still the same, but no longer my type... the one in sec 4 is not TAT pretty after all... i think onli those girls i had crush on in RJ were still pretty fantastic... maybe after a certain age your judgement of beauty more or less fixed liao... so hmm... i dun think the korean chic eunice which francis is crazy about is pretty... i dun think ANY of the girls TH is hanging out with is even remotely chio... no one in twsa can really make the cut (one of them made it for like a mth... but after i recovered from the shock, erm... then no more lor...) hmm... seriously speaking lah... meet many nice girls here lah.. cute? yes... but chio? pretty? no.... not really... of course now in an ang mo uni, you see girls wearing more revealing stuff... mroe shapely n such, so turn on? yes... but onli physically, not emotionally though.

one major emotion turn on i had. after leaving RJ to NJ, i went back for this guitar concert. was at the concourse getting tix or something like tat when i saw SLS and D sitting on this table outside the PRJC's office... long hair, smiley cheeful cute and pretty face, RJ tshirt plus green skirt and nice long legs. erm... refering to SLS of course... Miss D erm... leg not as long... can you imagine how tat felt? she look so carefree and sweet man. putting her hand on the table to support her body leaning foward and swing her legs like a pendulum and never for a second losing that adorable smile from her face. now... tat is wat i call an emotional turn on. her skirt is not say very short... ok maybe relative to her leg it is... but nonetheless, that level of KAWAII-ness and sweetness is unbeatable and just totally makes you melt and warms your heart.

but tat is just one of the major turn ons i had lah... hmmm.... haven't really have one for a long time really. the ones i had nowadays are probably like fake orgasm. MUAHAHAHAHA... like i say, nice girls... awesome personality for some of them... but erm... really no emotional turn on... how sad... not sad for the girls... sad for me... maybe i am losing tat LOVIN FEELING man... hahaha. hmm... actually not farni... very cynical nowadays. very very very cynical........


Thursday, April 01, 2004
 
btw, i just got the reply abt the inquiry i sent to tat office recommended... and wat i said was correct... you add 20 dollar on top of the visa cost...

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All info is in the Form-1, either manual or thru on-line. The later is better which prompts you for all options and will calculate for you, also assign a Service ID for following step processing and tracking. - If you have not tried that, strongly recommend you to do that.
All info is the same in manual form as well, but it gives no Service ID for tracking.

Costwise, 6 month multi-entry is $100 to Visa Office; $19.95 to ChinaServices.us
Other options:
2-day DHL shipping $9.90
Pay by check: $2

Let me know if you have other questions.

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btw, the person replying to me is call Zheng, Lianggen... the girl i offended is also a Zheng... ooops... i think it is the father... ouch... dun kill me uncle... wat a day... WAT A DAY!!!!!!


 
oh man... and the taiwantank strikes AGAIN!!! and this time, i offended this girl that i hardly know... wow... i am good... i am so proud to be an asshole going around offending ppl... and yeah... i am laughing abt it coz i am such an asshole!! MUAHAHAHAHAH... well... basically this girl informed the GIEU team abt this agency that her dad works in (or is he owning it?!?! shit... i dun even remember...) and suppose to handle the whole visa to china application with onli 20 bucks. the most basic visa to china will cost 50 if you apply to the chinese consulate yourself... so if it is like 20 buck like she said then it is a freaking good deal rite? so i went on and try to do a mock application lor... and the grand total listed 169.95 (i applied for the multiple entry in 12 mth thingy... ) which includes both the 20 dollar service charge to the company ON TOP of the 150 buck paying to the chinese embassy.... so... without much thinking... i just email the rest of the grp and her abt wat i just found out and made this really lame joke about whether the 20 dollar listed is a special GIEU price we are getting... well... judging from the email she replied to me (only to me and not to the other ppl in the GIEU group...) she wasn't so please... oooops... so fun... actually i've met her b4 during the GIEU orientation... quite a nice girl... but neva tok much... but still... wat can i said... a person offended is a person offended... yeah baby!! the tank did it again!!! YEAH!!! so proud of myself...