eh, so how ah? nowadays got fucked up piece of assholic shit motherfucker that goes around your blog and dig the skeletons outta your closet leh... wat is the point of doing this ah? some kind of blog-arazzi? like seriously, so yeah, a young man make some really fucked up remarks, and it was really really inappropriate to make such statement. but are singaporeans so narrow minded and so unforgiving? damn you lah, you got some nuthead minister and his boobs comments who is still enjoying his big fat minister level paycheck and you are calling for the head of a young man just because he made one silly remark in HIS OWN FUCKING PERSONAL SPACE? eh, can sue that mofo for violation of intellectual property rights or not ah? if those ppl think wat this young man wrote is something serious, then shouldn't these people email him or drop him a note asking for permission BEFORE they start cut n paste his work all over the place? oh, all these entries belongs to blogger, so i think blogger should sue the ass off these MOTHER FUCKERS!!! no, i am not angry coz it is a senior of mine that is kena the crap. i am angry coz so many ppl chose to cast the stone at another man when they are probably not so morally impeccable. oh yeah, so he is a goddam scholar, so you expect him to be perfect in every sense issit? plz lah... i bet when these ppl got their scholarships, CONFIRM got ppl tokking behind their back and say, wah lao eh, this kind of ppl oso can get scholarship, and basically challenge the scholar's legitimacy. so if so many ppl out there already have such low confidence and regards for scholar, then why suddenly everyone want these scholars to be so perfecto?!?! wat hypocracy eh? so fun to just fucked up someone else life and boo at ppl rite? FUCK YOU you silly small penis peanut brain losers. you wanna throw the stone at ppl and you dun even have the guts to do it and do it VIRTUALLY... hohoho... oh yeah... this entry damn vulgar, but oh well, i dun pretend to be a saint, but i noe that i am holier than thou. BITCH!!!
posted by David at 4/20/2005 04:39:00 AM
Graduating soon. now currently looking for a blardy job. been really a frustrating task and tiring. think it is really a weird idea that i have to try so hard, figure how to sell and promote myself so i can hopefully get a job in some cubicle, get the chance to work my ass off so that some dude sitting in the corner office will be able to affort a vacation in the Bahamas or something. dun make much sense to me.
the past few months, i think i came to understand myself better. the combination of a job hunt and being in a relationship force you to look at yourself from a more objective manner. sometimes, just feel so blardy useless and worthless. i look at what i have done in the past. great work, so much efforts put in... but basically amounts up to nothing that is really worth tokking about. but can't say i really regret what i have done or doubt the decisions i made. i know i have done good. i know i have been true to myself each step of the way. i know alot of ppl hated me for acting the way i did. i know many ppl will think i am wasting my life way. i know if only i am a little more flexible and bend my own rules alittle, i could have done so much more that will help me more in my job hunt or so call getting ahead in life. yet, i really really dun care. i can try to avoid making ppl angry, but i can't avoid what i feel needs to be done. i can only pray that as i grow older and hopefully get wiser with more experience, that i be able to do what i need to do and avoid making so many ppl upset.
my relationship with my girlfriend is going thru a rough patch now. i am trying to understand what this relationship is all about. what does it mean to be serious? what is the point of two ppl being together? it seems that we have pretty different answers to questions like this. what do you do, when you realise that the person you love, has been changing herself to accomodate this relationship as much as you have, but she is actually reluctant and sadden by all these changes? what do you do, when you realise that everytime when you try to do something for the person you love and to show your love, you end up only hurting her and in turns hurt yourself also? what do you do, when you try so hard to create a common future path for the two of you, but the one you love tells you that she wants to remain as an individual? it is so so so easy to just give up if things dun work out. move on and see if there is someone else that will match what you want. just that unfortunately i don't believe in that... but things become really difficult if the one you are with is resisting changes deep down inside and feels that she has to force and sacrifice herself too much for the relationship that we have. takes the effort of both to do this. i am getting tired for what i have been doing and always getting blamed for hurting her.
been awhile since i blogged. my life now leaves me little time for nostalgic moments. life has became a battlefield that i have to fight so hard for my own survival, that i dun even have the time to mourn my fallen comrades or the lost of youth and innocence. sad. barely have the time to look forward and prepare for the future...
posted by David at 4/17/2005 10:14:00 PM